summer heat - in the village we'll meet....oh, those summer nights! support for MH issues, depression, anxiety, what ever the issue come visit the village [titled edited by MNHQ]

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new thread guys....feels funny doing the threads again! but nice....

so. for any newbies....the purpose of the "village" threads is to support anyone with MH issues....depression, anxiety, anything at all, for what ever reason.

there is an open door policy in the village! so pull up a pew and get stuck in....

Don't feel guilty, we all need to get it out sometimes.

It's good that you got out at all when you are in so much pain. The CAB can be a positive as they can help you with your debt and with your benefits and you will feel better when you have a plan in place.

If you ring the clinic to chase up what you were told would happen, it won't be a separate incident so they probably won't need to ring the social worker. I don't have children myself but my sister who has depression and BPD has 4 and she has been sectioned numerous times and SS have been helpful, not punitive.

It's exactly what the thread is for, katkins Also you are not a drain on the NHS, you are ill x

Thank you. We have a social worker who visits any way, she was saying about family support,but hasn't done it yet. I think it might be a case of the meds not being right for me just yet. I'm just fed up of it all, and the constant 'being unwell'. The thought of graduation is really bothering me, too. Seeing those who bullied me, and having to even afford it in the first place is horrible. I feel like such a rubbish mum fir barely giving my dd any days out or anything like that. She seems happy enough, but still.

Graduation you can do one of two things: not bother going, many people don't or go and be proud of yourself for getting a first in the most trying circumstances. Your DD will just like being with you, when you are better and have your finances sorted you can enjoy days out together.

I know dd is happy, the social worker asked her privately if she was worried about anything, and she said no. She is very happy to just cuddle, talk to me and things like that.I had to resist the urge to sh earlier, and its the pain that's dragging me down mainly. I've never experienced pain like it.

I think you need some investigations - they shouldn't say it is caused by depression until they have ruled out other possibilities.

How are you feeling today, Katkins?

I'm going shopping for new work clothes, which I hate doing, and I hate the thought of work too. Taking my mum and we are going to Skipton so I can mooch around the castle if the shopping gets too much.

How is everyone else doing?

Are you a teacher Natasha? I was up til 3am with pain and cramps, then up at 6 with DD- though I did get to go to sleep for a little bit after that. Really tired now though. I've managed to buy dd new school shoes online, and was going to wait in for Tesco, but have other things to do, too.

Today is a bit of a better day in terms of pain, but I'm still quite low in mood and really worried about stuff.

Hello. Never been here before but feeling quite down empty and struggling with summer holidays (only 1 DD & saying that makes me feel guilty). School mums all seem to be away or busy so I'm feeling quite lonely and losing patience with my DD. Going to Greece next with her & DP but even that just seems like a hassle. I don't seem to get enthusiastic about anything!

Doing a self-esteem course next month as that's what the PWP suggested. Not sure it'll help though. I'm 32 now and wonder if I'll ever feel 'normal/happy'.

Welcome MrsGoslingWannabe. I know what you mean about wondering if you'll ever feel normal.

Katkins glad the pain is a bit more manageable today. I'm a teacher, yes and absolutely petrified about going back to work. I ended up not buying anything in Skipton except a piece of cake. I can't even manage to shop successfully.

I often feel better after 5, I guess cos its getting nearer to the end of the day - anyone else like that? I'm happiest when its bedtime which seems wrong but I sleep well and prefer my dreams to my life

Hello. Really struggling just now

Welcome op. Natasha, I think cake makes it a successful shopping trip! How are you feeling?

I always feel better when it's bedtime,too,something about dd being quiet.....

Have been sorting her uniform today. To cheer us all up, here's an actual picture of a cake, rather than a cartoon. Made by dd today.

(Lem) has something happened to make you feel this way?

Wow -thats some cake :) very impressed.

Just struggling with the fact that this is it for me now. I applied for a shitty little job in a pharmacy and didn't even get an interview. Im fucked and its fucking my dp too. Had enough really.

Its not even mental illness. I feel like such a fraud. I dont hear voices or have psychosis to deal with yet still i struggle.

Has there been some kind of cake signal today? I made coffee cupcakes with nutella buttercream icing

I have been doing a lot of baking to help me pretend everything is OK and to kind of hide the fact I've been too nervous to leave the house in a fortnight.

Have a hospital appointment tomorrow but my mum is coming to pick me up.

(Lem) your struggle is just as valid, it is a mental health issue. I'm sorry I'm sure you have said, but is it depression and anxiety you are battling? Your experience is just as valid as the next person's. I can empathise re: jobs and feeling a bit despondent, I think I will need to claim ESA for a short while now because I'm so clearly not better.

I like baking too, victrix, excuse to clean the kitchen after! I'm sorry you haven't been able to go out, can empathise there, too- I usually manage to get to the shops around the corner, or the park ten minutes away. Everything else feels like hard work.

Have been feeling really really tearful today. Clinic haven't phoned back eithier.

LEM it is a mental illness. Try to be kind to yourself.

Sorry you feel so down, Katkins. Can you phone the clinic yourself?

I feel a sort of sense of peace, really. I think I've made my mind up to die on the Sunday before work starts again. That's why I didn't buy any clothes today, as I won't be needing them. I feel much more settled and even now I've decided.

Natasha you need to get in touch with your care team and tell them your plans straight away- you are very unwell if you are making plans like that, and it sounds to me as though you could do with some time off sick to give you some breathing space.

Natasha, please call someone x

Natasha you were so kind to me on my thread. You must must call someone

I don't have a care team, just my GP. I spoke to the crisis team on Saturday. I'm fine.

But you are calmly planning suicide. You are not fine. Can you get a plan in place to keep you safe?

Katkins i have just noticed you are worried aboit your graduation. Dont be. You worked bloody hard and you deserve your degree - they don't give them away! Dont let those fuckers take that from you. However i have to say graduation ceremonies are BORING in the extreme. Sitting there while they call out hundreds of names. Take a book/kindle/phone with you x

You aren't fine Natasha. This is a very dangerous place to be in. Can you ring your mum?