Andes up - who needs a rock to lean on? Rock on over here!

[ThatVikRinA22]

in honour of ed and her mountain ranges.....

welcome to thread 3 - this is a support thread for anyone needing a hand to hold while they get through depression or any other mental health problems - long term or temporary. All are welcome.

linky to old thread

Good news re uni vicar - they'll want him to pass if he possibly can.

The best way to train re phone may be to Turn It Off While You are Asleep.

In other news, had first appointment today for my own AS assessment. Was impressed by the way they approached it - eg they have not read my psychiatric case notes so as to avoid unconcious bias.

Thinking of everyone, I'm level 2 and been trying to read university text today.

SPC. I don't know what I did earlier. Managed to get mumsnet up on mobile, but then when I logged on on laptop it seemed that I'd broken mumsnet! Could only get a blank page with my username and this message field

vicar really pleased to hear about your DS and hope the support and extension makes a big difference.

snowy that's brilliant - how did you get on?

Lucy how did the cakes go?

Think I overdid it a bit today - brain and body have stopped (coffee with friend, carphone warehouse, school run, weeding..) but they were all nice things so am going to watch loads of TV while DH out at footie.

Hope everyone's had an OK day x

Mumsnet does seem to collapse sometimes, glad it seems better now.

I'm told to persevere with reading small bits, and maybe to get a dr letter and go for extenuating circumstances, it's still very hard at the moment.

That sounds like a good day, ColouringInQueen, you definitely need some rest now.

I'm glad an extension can be sorted for your DS, vicar

snowy small bits sounds like a sensible strategy, but I can well believe that even that is challenging. I'm reading fairly chick lit at the mo as opposed to a bit more weighty (tho not quite salman rushdie) novels... I think getting a doctors letter is a very good idea and hopefully that will help with the extenuating circs argument.

Thanks CiQ. Good night all, sleep well.

Slow day here.

Got up at 2:30

Did school run which was good.

Think I now have all acceptances for DD3s party

Done a couple of loads of washing.

Need to do lots more washing but if I clear up the cat excrement and mow the lawn in the morning I should get it dry. (need to mow the lawn to find the hole to put my wirly gig thing in).

Need to blitz downstairs ready for DD3s party Sunday

DTD1 has lost her mobile phone....I am hoping that a good blitz will find that too.

I have a list of monies owed to me by friend, so feel happier that I have that in my posession.

not feeling too great today. just that.
off to bed in a min and trying to keep some perspective, but i feel like its sink or swim work wise.

stupid things phase me. stuff like not understanding computerised systems, i just cant seem to retain information. I stood for 10 minutes trying to work out the new computerised photo copier....

other people just seem to know instinctively what to do with stuff (and people) and i just feel like i dont. i never know when to bend the rules to someones benefit, i feel a bit of a jobsworth sometimes....im just too frightened of making mistakes to learn anything.

pics of my new babies for you basset!

not a great pic - if i open the cage door the little dark one (ruby) does a runner....

im going to take them all to the bathroom tomorrow for a proper run about....(having 2 cats and a dog that would eat them i need them to run somewhere i cant lose them!)

Hugs vicar. I feel the same.

I feel (and this correlates with the feedback I get on lots of angles....personal life and academic). I try to be too perfect. I expect too much of myself and then beat myself up when I don't score 110% without help.

If it is a new computerised photocopier you need to 1) be shown how to do it...either in person or with an intruction manual
2) practise.

If it is a multi-step thing you aren't going to get it first time at the best of times. Give yourself time and be kind to yourself.

I am beating myself up today. DTDs have science homework. I am training to be a science teacher (I think?). They have to do one of my FAVOURITE class activities. It is basic year 7 stuff in my specialist subject. And I had to look it up to check that I had included everything. I should be able to do this stuff handcuffed.

Be gentle on yourself. Get some rest and try again tomorrow. I am going to bed too.

night.

Awwww I love ratty hammock.

I want an Eddy Hammock...

In fact I think a hammock might be good for relieving pressure on my sensitive Coccyx. It is still very sore if I sit for more than about 15mins in the same position. Same if I lay on my back.

I wore my jeans today for first time since injury and the tightness over my backside was quite sore and movement made it worse. Kind of like the fabric of the jeans was putting pressure on a bruise every time I moved.

The point of my previous post is that we all have times that we think something should be simple.

It's normal to question yourself and double check things. Try not to dwell on it because it will come. Easier said than done.

Vicar - photocopiers are the work of satan and should be destroyed!! I know exactly what you mean though, this was one of the things that really phased me at my job, fucking thing, i swear it hated me - it was counter-intuitive but once i worked out its evil little ways it became second nature and we developed a grudging respect for each other Seriously though - these things seem baffling and like you are never going to master them and one day you find yourself doing it without thinking. To be honest - ten minutes on the photocopier is pretty damned good actually, i wrangled with the bastard thing for 45 minutes once! The problem is, when you ask someone, they are at the stage of it being second nature, they forget that it probably instilled the fear of christ in them too - so they zoom through it quickly and you can't really follow what it is they did. But you will get there soon enough. Its certainly not worth beating yourself up over. You must be knackered - take some time and turn that phone off, leave strict instructions that you are only to be disturbed for a case of imminent death or a lottery win!

Colouring, the cakes went well - i did get a little kick out of mine being sold out fairly early on in proceedings Sounds like a good day with you - my day was manic and i really wanted to stay in bed, its the weather, it was pissing down. Today is looking decidedly ropey too weather wise.

Ed, I am a scientist too (well, i was in a previous life) what is your subject?? Too many similarities here It will probably turn out we live in the next street or something spooky!

My degree is in biology.

I have worked in pharma

Now kibd of training to teach physics.

but don't tell vicar about any more similarities....she thinks shes my twin and might get jealous

Oh and the important stuff.

I have put a load of washing on.

I am back in bed.

About to get my hook out for half hour

I've had a little birthday lie in, yoghurt for breakfast I think. The rats look really cute Hopefully more OU for today, though I feel like going back to bed (I'm doing an intro sociology degree).

Wishing everyone good luck with the day.

Biochemistry here - i am a little bit in awe of the teaching, especially physics which i do find really interesting but would never be confident enough to tackle! I haven't worked in pharma though I don't know what i am going to do next - i worked in a college for a bit and it triggered this latest breakdown :( and has really knocked my confidence. Deep down i know it was them and not me - they were so disorganised, no training, in at the deep end having to organise assesments etc, it got too much in the end and i had to leave - they treated me really badly :( It has put me off teaching. I would so like to get back into science but its been too long - its such a shame. I don't feel like i will ever get a job to be honest - it has got to the point where i don't even look.

I'm level 2 here, ignoring DD but have promised to take her swimming so that DP can work on his van. I wish i could be more like him - he will take any challenge head on.

Happy Birthday Snowy

happy birthday snowy - have a lovely day.

got to go and pick dd up now and get her a bloody hamster....then off to work. again. i feel really out of my depth again and i dont know why....

i stress too much and worry too much. i wish you could take a pill for that....

funny you should say that Vicar.................!!

Happy Birthday snowy - your posts sound like you are making some progress :)

Pychology degree here - and Linguistics MA and 2 undone PhDs - underachiever, moi? Thought I was going to be an academic - tried twice, even had a one year lecturing job - cannot hack it as get overwhelmed. I can think, I can write, I can, actually, lecture quite well. But can't do all the other stuff involved - and find it v diff to combine work and running house and living.

vicar the rats are the sweetest thing ever. And now you are adding a hamster to your already extensive menagerie

Happy birthday snowy.

And I agree. Your posts do have a tiny bit more spring in their step.

I'm still in bed. I am determined to finish cochet of pooh bears body before I get up...

At least you're being industrious Ed and thanks.

Correction....I am thinking about being industrious....

Ah The only industrious thing I've actually done is get up. Thinking about ready meal for lunch now.

Got up early. Lounged about. Went back to bed and had odd but useful dream. Got up. Ran out of cigs. Went to shop. Lounged around feeling tired (tis the cigs I think ). Went back to bed again. Got up a few minutes ago. Am trying not to order myself about in my head - I resist! The garden and paper sorting await...