Just popping in to catch up - and it has moved so fast - arrgghh!
am due to see doctors on monday after almost 4 weeks of citalopram - side effects worn off, am feeling better, less anxious, and heavy weight has gone. Interestingly, other people were the first to notice that I seemed better - less slowed down, before I felt it meself! Then a few days later I started to feel it...
When I saw my GP to start on the meds, she said she wanted to double em at this appt on monday. I feel fairly OK with that - I think when the feelings start to lift, I get a honeymoon period, of feeling great cos of relief, but am not quite 'there' yet,. so am happy to double em up.... cos can always decrease when am out of the woods.
Otherwise - things aren't too bad - I'm loving these lighter mornings, working mostly early shifts! I'm on annual leave for a week now, and am desperate not to take to my bed whilst children are at school. Children are fine, and are revving themselves up in the helpfulness stakes in prep for mothers day - Both tidied and hoovered their bedrooms unprompted tonight, and Ds1 (15) washed his bedroom carpet using the vax (doubles up as a hoover/carpet washer) yowzah!! 
I tend not to go in his room too much- it's his responsibility - apart from exhorting him to bring down plates and glasses etc. It gets really untidy, then he sucks his teeth, puts his MP3 player on, has a cull, a tidy up, hoovers up, cleans the window - and now - he can use the carpet cleaner! life is looking up!
will read back and catch up x