Just started on Citalopram

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Have read old threads about side affects and quite worrying, but will give it a go. Hope it kicks in soon

Yes I was straight on 20mg. Awful sickness etc and.my.teeth hurt I guess that's the jaw clenching.

Truth be known I.don't.really want to.fix the mess I'm in. it's got too much.

Hi everyone.
Hello A1980 how are you doing now? Do you want to share what's going on - sounds like a tough day. Take care x
Citalobrain wow sounds like a v productive day and well done on being open about how you're feeling. I hope the family drama isn't too stressful.
I've had a more productive day, went to church, cooked roast and took DCs to fly kites. Really need to run away to bedroom now for some quiet before I loose it with DD and her homework!
Hope everyone else's days been ok x

Thank you all for being so kind. Feeling quite low today, but a little better.

Also had an amusing experience that made me laugh. Feeling very low, I went out to get some fresh air and buy some crap food to eat (normally I eat really healthily but today I can't be arsed.) I'd already waited an age til my flatmates were gone, because I just couldn't face them, I'm really annoyed with them atm. Got to the shop, bought a load of junk. When I got to the counter, they didn't have any plastic bags, so I had to walk back, my arms laden with shite food.

The humiliation was just not what I needed when I was already feeling anxious, but at the same time, it was so ridiculous that I laughed.

mechanical. Come up fess up to some crap food favs... mine include mr kiplings viennese whirls, prawn cocktail crisps and pretty much anything covered in chocolate...

Well, I bought Maryland cookies (white choc chunk brownie! RIDICULOUSLY chocolatey) mini eggs, haribo, crisps, ribena and Cookie Crisp cereal.

I am allergic to milk, so most of these will give me sinus crap and a headache, but whatever.

Mr Kipling is a good idea, I used to be addicted to his apple pies.

Mechanical

I eat healthily most of the time. And today I have had a panini for lunch (take away from cafe), 4 scones (yes, 4), about to have pizza for dinner and frozen yoghurt after that, ahem.

Can't even blame it on time of the month!! Sometimes we just need a blow out, enjoy :)

A1980 please please don't struggle without help. Do go and speak to your doc again as a dose adjustment will probably sort it, and you will start feeling better. Take care of yourself x

ColouringIn your day sounds good! Enjoy the rest time and run far away from the homework, very good plan!

Family drama has rumbled on for years, but came to a head last year. Might be a good thing as it turns out as it brought the depression stuff to a head and made me have to do something about it.

Take care everyone. I'm looking forward to Tuesday. Today was a hangover and tomorrow will most definitely be a dough-over

Yum yum yum to mini eggs and those cookies sound great . Citalobrain, did you not eat yest respect for fitting in pizza after 4 scones . Like you both say, sometimes it just has to be done. Am now going to tuck into kinder egg pressie from DCs. Night all x

Hi all. I need to make a public service announcement. My GP says Citalopram interferes with your 'feeling full' response. It takes longer for your brain to register IYKWIM. So watch the portion sizes, and generally keep an eye on food intake and whether you are really hungry. Sorry. I am heavier than I was when i went on it.

Sparkling thanks for the warning. I've been like a locust this weekend so it's actually a bit of a relief that it could be at least partly due to the citalopram!

I was on mirtazopene (sp?) for a very short while before I asked to change as I couldn't deal with the uncontrollable appetite at all (as well as being turned into a zombie), so thought I was out the danger zone with the citalopram.

Will definitely be more vigilant as weight gain is something I really don't want to have to deal with as well.

Thank you :)

Thanks for the warning, Sparkling.

I felt I should share, horrible though it is. She said it is sometimes prescribed to people with eating disorders.

Oh shit, yeah, I never thought that it could be about the ADs that's making me want to eat shit.

citalobrain, mirtazipine is CRAZY. I mean, it works, it worked really quickly on me, I went from unable to wash to fully functioning member of society in three weeks. But I was also sleeping for about 14 hours a day and was NEVER full. I mean, I was shovelling crap food into my mouth like I hadn't eaten in a month. I would get up in the middle of the night and eat an entire big packet of crisps and then go back to sleep. And I (despite today!) am not really into eating junk food.

Bit of a crap weekend - nowt spectacular - just can't be arsed to do owt - slept loads - ho hum..

See i'm hardly eating at all due to the nausea but will watch out for that if the sickness goes away. Feeling a bit shakey today but that could be the hardly eating thing though i don't think so.
We are as of today facing a major family upheaval and i think the shaking is just my bodys way of dealing with the panic as i can't seem to feel worried about anything on this stuff.
We are off out tomorrow going to try tescos on the pills if anything is going to set me off it will be that place. We meaning dp and i not the royal we
MechanicalTheatre Ive found as a plus point with citalopram i can eat wheat when i can manage anything without it effecting me the same as usual so fingers crossed your reaction won't be so bad.

Everything has gone wrong for me... job, personal life etc. now I can't be bothered to fix it.

I barely bother to brush my teeth or dress at weekends. I stay in bed.

Hi everyone.
I'm just trying to catch up on how everyone is getting on.
I had a shaky few days stopping taking the citalopram before starting the new ones. I was worried I was going to have all the same side effects again.
Sooo glad I changed though. Have had nothing but a bit of nausea first few days. The sickness, shakes and headaches have all gone. My normal day to day anxiety is still there but the horrible pit of my stomach feeling is gone. I'm getting a bit more sleep as well which is good.

My gp has been brilliant. She has been very reassuring about it all. And promises me I will eventually start feeling like my old self.
I'm trying to make a bit more effort at getting out and about. Seen my best friend yesterday for the first time in a month. We had dinner and I actually really enjoyed myself. I've had some very hard moments recently where I'm just scared I'm not going to feel normal again so it was good to find I relaxed last night.

Right off to have a read and catch up properly on everyone else.

A1980 They have loads of different AD's so if this one hasnt worked try another one if you can't make it to the docs can you see if they will speak to you over the phone please do get some help you really don't have to feel like that.
Geeklover What have you been changed on to?
I have just managed the school run ok with dp but with tiny amounts of anxiety the feeling of dread was still there but it was like it was behind a wall and couldn't get to me IYSWIM. However we left school turned round corner to head out to tescos and it was dreadful like coming up on a pill I could do nothing but turn around and come home. Still feeling shaky now will probably feel stupid later but i will not be beaten Ahahahah i managed the school run so i will be proud of myself and ignore the shopping trip

Hi everyone.
Great to hear diff ADs are helping Geeklover and you had a good meal out with your best friend.
Bunny - you did the school run, that is no mean feat.
I am feeling really shitty this morning. Forgive me ranting here but I hope writing it down will help. Did some normal things yest like go to church, cook lunch and go out in pm with OH and DCs to fly kites. Completely knackered yest eve and this morn. Did school run. There's 2 mums that last year I would have said were my two closest school mum friends. They know what's happening with me as I met up with them a few weeks ago. If they see me they say hello and then carry on with their so engrossing conversation. I feel like I've been kicked in the stomach. Alongside being depressed this year its not helped that my DD has a broken leg and so I take her straight into school, no playground chit chat as previously, but most days I can't do chit chat anyway. I don't find it easy to make friends, and having worked p/t for a while would say I really only have 4-5 local friends, of which these were two. Today I just want to say F* you, but then that also leaves my DD who is friends with their DDs in a difficult position - I don't want her to feel marginalised any more than she does at the moment with her leg and the other two girl's closeness. This is feeling really nightmarish this morning. I have attempted to use anger and frantically hoover downstairs!!!! Now need to find a way to calm down... Reading this through am worried at am risk of outing myself. fingers crossed.

ColouringinQueen, I'm not surprised you're upset. They sound awful :(.

Is there anything you can do that will take your mind off them? Good book? Housework? Anything you can get engrossed in.

It is really hard when people you expected to be there aren't supportive.

Thanks cremeeggthief. It is hard, and I feel a bit of a billy-no-mates now. I am now MN-ing with Matthew Wright on in background and then going to try and go for a walk as sun is coming out here If I can pluck up courage will text a good friend...

I know the feeling, ColouringinQueen. I am glad you are doing something you enjoy. Be kind to yourself.

I am trying to do stuff today that I might not have the energy for a few days, after I start taking the drugs!

ColouringIn, that's awful :( Take comfort from and focus on your true friends who are there for you. I only have 2 friends I could really call proper friends, the rest can take or leave me I'm sure (and there aren't too many of them anyway!). Sorry they made you feel so bad, it reflects totally on them and not on you x

Good luck with the chore drive cremeegg! I got so much stuff done at about week 2 / 3, I was a whirling dervish.

A1980, staying in bed, not brushing your teeth etc. are classic symptoms of depression (I even bet they appear on a depression checklist!) and if you can find the right AD at the right dosage and get some more help from your GP you can feel better you know. Please go and talk to them, you've got nothing to lose and everything to gain. Sending you a {hug}

Mechanical oh my word they were awful (the mitraz). I didn't even give them 3 weeks as I've had eating issues in the past and any help they may have given my mood would have been more than cancelled out by the appetite and weight gain. Even after just a few days it felt uncontrollable! About an hour after I took the first one, I fell asleep upright on my sofa with my laptop on my lap Hope you're feeling okay today.

Spoke to my doc on the phone this morning and she's upping my dose to 30mg a day. I explained how I had felt much brighter, but seemed to be slipping back over the last few weeks (trouble answering phone, getting myself organised to go and take dog out, dread feeling etc.).

She was lovely :) She said from a drug point of view, it all sounded very good as they were obviously the right pills for me, but just not the right dosage at that point, so up I go another 10 mg.

Has anyone increased a dose? Do you feel like you did back at the beginning do you think?

Another War and Peace post, sorry!
Hope everyone's doing okay today. Hello too to anyone I've not mentioned xx

p.s. Mechanical, out of interest I did some googling about Mirtz after I stopped taking it. Apparently (it might not be true but I believe it) the drug was initially developed for veterinary use for use in pets to stimulate appetite. Figures eh?

Just taken the first pill, after a very productive day on the chore front!
If I hadn't, I'd probably be still stressing about taking it at the weekend and with the added anxiety of what to say to the GP at my appointment next Monday!

Hopefully I'll be up to doing a job application tomorrow...