Just started on Citalopram

[Nanabana]

Have read old threads about side affects and quite worrying, but will give it a go. Hope it kicks in soon

Hope it goes well for you CremeEggThief

citalo Glad your doctor is understanding. I've just increased from 50mg to 100mg and while I had a couple of slightly sleepy days, it was nothing like it was at the beginning. That was four days ago now and I feel fine. Interesting about the mirtazipine, it really is a crazy drug, but apparently it is the best for kind of pulling people out of a really bad depression and then you can switch to something else.

Colouring they sound horrible. Did you call your other friend?

Geek good to see you and glad you're feeling a little better.

A1980 I have had those days too when I really felt like nothing was ever going to get better, it seems impossible to believe but they do pass.

And hi to everyone else, there's so many of us now!

Well, a quick update from me. I am doing so much better this week. Had a very difficult weekend, my flatmates were being really loud and it was stressing me out. I have a ton of uni work to do, jobs to apply for and my relationship is really going down the drain. But today, I finally got up and just felt fine! For the first time in ages. Today I've been to two lectures, tidied my entire room (took four hours! It was such a tip), done all my laundry and made a healthy dinner (thai curry).

Best of all, I went to socialise with people willingly. Just chatting with my flatmates in their rooms, but it was so nice to actually want to talk to people and not be panicking about it.

And it is SO nice to be wearing fresh pyjamas, got fresh bed sheets, just had a shower, and I am not tripping over piles of junk and papers and standing on things.

So, let's hope the rest of the week goes well too!

A quick question I am finding it really hard to sleep, really hard. Does anyone know if i can take Kalms sleep with citalopram?

Bunny I'm not 100% sure about the Kalms but I'm pretty sure they should be okay. I'm almost certain any of the herbal variations would be fine. Sorry to hear the sleeping's not great, it does settle down.

Good luck Cremeegg, hope it will be smooth sailing at the start :)

Mechanical

That was such a lovely post to read! So pleased you're feeling better :) Onwards and upwards!

Hope everyone else is okay x Took my first 30mg dose last night and I'm not expecting any major fallout so hoping for the best.

Have a good day everyone xx

How is everyone feeling this morning?

This week is PMT week which means high anxiety. I have been looking at my mouth for signs of oral cancer with a torch on and off yesterday for hours. I am pretty tired! Of course I found a lot of worrying things, I started looking to check my gum infection and then I got carried away. I have to remind myself that I have been to the dentist and I am sure they would have noticed cancer and I am also going for a clean in two weeks so I can ask then. Plus a 31 year old with oral cancer is rare.

I am being strong and not running to my GP.

I hope the increase in my meds will kick in soon. I am pretty mentally exhausted and my insomnia has been a bitch.

I am out with my mum this morning shopping so I will have a day where I am not stuck in front of the mirror at least.

Bunny I was wondering the same about kalms I'm going to ask gp tomorrow as I can't cope with not sleeping. I'm waking up in middle of night and can't settle back to sleep for 2/3 hours. Shattered isn't the word.

Other than that I'm on day 18 and feeling pretty good mood wise. The anxiety is settling and each day is better than the day before. I'm not taking diazepam as much either. The propranolol seem to be doing the trick with the palpitations.

Glad I finally accepted I needed medication cos I'm feeling positive about feeling good again. Lots of relaxation/hypnotherapy CDs too

Keep going everyone x

Colouring They sound horrid :(

Can I just say how pleased I am to find this thread? I really need people to talk to right now. My husband is wonderful but after over a year of this it is becoming tough for him too. He has bipolar so he understand better than most but I rely on him for reassurance and if he doesn't give it to me quite right I end up panicking more and it's too much to keep putting it on him like I have been.

I also have feelings of guilt. My ex husband who I am close too suffered with cancer for almost two years, bone marrow donation and four rounds of chemo and now he is doing better he is getting on with his life and there is me looking for signs of cancer and not living my life. Seeing my children go through that with their father was just heartbreaking and I am SO scared they will have to go through the same with me. Two of them have special needs and while their dad and step dad are both lovely parents I can't stand the thought of them losing me.

Sorry for the TMI post. I guess I needed to talk.

I hope everyone has a good day today. The sun is shining at least.

Sorry for blunt post earlier was only half awake and feeling pretty desperate. Looiloo it does get pretty bad with the no sleep which makes the anxiety worse imo. I'm glad to hear your on day 18 and it's working I had a massive panic on the afternoon school run yesterday which was so disappointing after the morning.
On top of all this we are now moving to the other end of the country in a months time nothing like a high stress environment to make your anxiety vanish

Bunny that does sound high stress :( I'm sure the meds will be effective by then which at least will help?

Sorry you and Looiloo are have trouble sleeping. I know some docs have said take them in the morning, but I've always taken them around 8pm and after the initial few weeks of disturbed sleep I've been sleeping really well. Might be worth considering to see if it will help?

There is definitely a few weeks of difficult sleep though, so hang in there if you can and see if it improves.

Wow Samu2 you poor thing. You've been through such a lot and now this anxiety, I'm so sorry. Try and keep in mind that the dentist would have spotted something in your mouth (they do check the soft tissue).

Do you think CBT or something similar would help you with the anxiety? Have you talked to your GP specifically about it? It sounds very debilitating :(

Talk away on this thread if it helps! I'm out for the rest of the day but it seems there are a lot of us reading and posting :) Thanks again Nanabana!

take care x

I feel rubbish today, after only three hours sleep. Not sure I can do this.

Mechanical, glad you had a great day yesterday. Hope it's the start of a brilliant week.

Sorry to hear others aren't good this morning too.

Hi everybody - great to hear from everyone, and echoing a few people yes this is a brilliant thread isn't it. Thanks everyone for all your support yesterday - it really helped.

What's with the sleeping? I haven't had much sleep the last couple of nights either, and am sooooo sleepy. The sun here today though is soooo beautiful so I went out for a walk first thing . I am now just in from second session with counsellor which was good. Didn't cry quite as much as last week and had an interesting chat about anger - basically I don't express it. Yesterdays swearing, hoovering and rant here was the most angry I've got since ? So food for thought.

Cremeeggthief sorry to hear about your lack of sleep. Any chance of a nap after lunch?
Mechanical brilliant to hear about yesterday, hope it continues. Yes I did meet up with my nice friend for coffee
Bunny any move is stressful let alone a big one. Be kind to yourself.
Samu not TMI at all, that is a really tough thing to go through, and ime being a parent to children with sn can be a big trigger for health anxiety, without your ex's experience on top.
Looiloo hello and great to hear you're feeling better.
Citalo good luck with the 30mg, hopefully you'll only notice an improvement. I do think with all these ADs the side effects are worse when you start than when you up a dose.

Lunch and nap beckons, then back to GP 2moro and see what she thinks... My GP is going on maternity leave after that which is actually good. She's so heavily pregnant and looks knackered that I think I subconsciously am not completely open. Her job share I saw 2 weeks ago was great so hopefully will see her moving forward. Anyhow take care everyone and get some sun on your skin if you can x

Hi op I've done citalopram and found it helpful but it doesn't suit everyone! Some people get really tired and others feel jittery. If you still feel crap after 6-8 weeks of taking it then ask your gp to try a different ad - something else might suit you better!

Thanks Colouring. Glad you met up with your nice friend yesterday. It must have done you the world of good, as you sound so much brighter today :).

I kept fairly busy this morning and have just been for a stroll in the sunshine. Going to have some lunch now and rest for an hour before I have to pick up DS from school.

Samu it's ok to talk here and say whatever is on your mind.

Creme Egg well done for getting out there in the sunshine, sometimes just leaving the house is half the battle and just a bit of exercise will have done you some good.

For everyone asking about sleeping remedies, please ask your GP before taking anything, even if it is herbal. Even herbal remedies can interact with prescription drugs and have unwanted side effects/interactions.

An update from me, DP started on citalopram a week and a half ago and has been struggling with dry mouth, achey jaw, and decreased libido. He is also feeling incredibly sleepy, tired all day and goes to sleep at 9pm, sleeping until 8am.

However I think we have been communicating quite well about how he feels and it me feel much better and less worried about him when we can talk openly about it all.

One of the things I was most anxious about before he started was how it would affect how he is as a person, and our relationship (disclaimer I know these are selfish worries) and whether he would just go off me.

So far he is just the same old DP in a good way. I know it's too soon for the drugs to be really having an effect but they haven't had a negative effect so far. For me, decreased libido is the worst side effect but him feeling better is more important.

Linoleic really good to hear your relationship with DP isn't affected by the pills. I don't feel much different in myself, just different in the way I respond/react to things, and my general mood. I can vouch for the fact that libido did come back after several weeks (not that I could put it to any use mind )! Might not be the same for everyone though.

Just got home and feel bleugh. Bit sick. Had a small lunch but thinking about it makes me feel queasy. I'm surprised as I didn't think I'd notice any difference.

Was planning my usual exercise spot in a while, but not sure I can manage it today. Annoying as I know it makes me feel better but I might take today off and see how I feel tomorrow.

Hope everyone's doing okay :)

Hi Linoleic thanks for the update and good to hear you and DH are able to be open about what's going on.
Yes cremeeggthief am having a much better day (bumpy ride this business!) I really think starting the day with a quiet walk in the sunshine in the country has been v helpful. The sun does seem to make a big difference to me, so am wondering if there's an element of SAD going on too...
citalo sorry to hear you're feeling bleurh. Sounds like a good plan to take today off, hope you're feeling better soon.
take care all x

just read last few pages.
hugs to all who need them. some inspiration here too.

Im having a rubbish week
I need chocolate. That is all

I hope you find some chocolate MrsShrek3 pretend it's hot chocolate

Morning everyone. Hope sleepy people got a better night's sleep, and queasy people start improving x

Good morning everyone :)

Did everyone manage to sleep well / find chocolate ?

The queasiness passed thankfully but the dread feeling is back with a vengeance :( I'm telling myself that it will pass.

Have to psych myself up to take the dogs out (looking after my mum's too at the moment). I used to love that part of the day but I dread it now, have done for a while. Having charge of 2 rather than 1 sends me into a bit of a spin too. It shouldn't do, they're not difficult.

Woke up to e-mails from family members saying where are you? Why aren't you on Skype. (They're away at the moment). I haven't been able to tell them I curl into a ball when thinking about having to have a Skype conversation with anyone. The phone I can manage at a push, but not the whole camera / screen thing too. How have I got to my ripe old age being so incapable? :(

Feeling very shit today, sorry!

Hope everyone has a good day. Anyone with sleeping issues, I know I've said it before but could you try a radio / talking book with headphones? It really helps me as it gives my mind something to focus on instead of whirling round with unhelpful and scary thoughts. Another option to maybe try in the quest for sleep :)

xx

I don't think I want to fix this. I'm too alone and too miserable. I go to bed hoping I don't wake up.

Hi citalo yesterday I found a delicious viennese finger from our local bakers Sorry to hear the dread's back - that is a tough one to start the day with isn't it? Good luck with the dog walking - I'm sure you will feel better for having done it.
Completely understand about Skype! I haven't really done phone for ages and there's no way I'd do skype! Can you plead a technical failure and revert to email?
So sorry to hear you're having a shit day, but hang in there, "this too will pass" and it won't be too long before you feel the benefits of the higher dose. The incapable thing is not you, its the illness, keep telling yourself.
Last night I dished up spaghetti and meatballs to the family, we ate dinner, I took the plates over to the sink and saw that I'd only dished up two thirds of the spaghetti!!! Brain not functioning properly cos it's been overwhelmed, but its not permanent I keep telling myself.
Anyhow must dash have a docs appt...
take care, be kind to yourself x

A1980 you sound very low. Forgive me, I can't remember your back story, have you seen yr GP recently, are you waiting for counselling or anything? It is very hard to keep going when you feel so bad, but things can get better. Is there anyone you can talk to in RL? If not, would you consider ringing the Samaritans? Take care.

Morning everyone I've only just woken up dp must of done the morning and the school run I am a bit late to take the pill but I figured i would try and force some food down before i took it.
citalobrain I am right there with you on the dread I think it might be the worst part the constant churning feeling and phone calls are dreadful i find my self pacing while on phone trying to calm down what day are you on citalobrain?

I managed about six hours sleep last night, so better than the first night. Not much of an appetite, but only mildly nauseous at times. Has anyone else noticed if it puts you off sugar? I usually take a heaped teaspoon of demerara in my tea, but it's started tasting too sweet . Feeling quite whacked out today, tbh.

Take care of yourselves, everyone. X