Cybergarden: Spring into Summer

[Upwardandonward]

Here's a new thread for us.

Evening all.

You'll be pleased to know my DSis is fine - she's being discharged as her blood test results are clear. She's being referred to the crisis team, I'm not exactly sure what that is but she says she's going to be psychologically assessed and hopefully offered some counselling.

I'm so disappointed in myself, I should have seen this coming. I know she's been having money troubles but she's a full time student, they all have money troubles! It turns out it's a lot more serious than finding the money for the next night out. She's kept a lot of it hidden from the rest of us.

I spoke to her at length last night and today, and tried to let her know that I'm here for her, despite my own problems, and that she's always welcome here whenever she wants to get away for a while. I've told her that once we move, it would be really nice for her to visit the new house - it's in a lovely, quiet little village, nice garden, everything the cybergarden represents :) She told me she'd like to come soon, I hope she does.

Showtime , futuredream and Nilgiri Thank you so much for your kind words. I asked her if she wanted me to go and see her, but she said she had friends and she was ok for the time being. It's hard not to text every 5 minutes to check if she's ok.

Nilgiri well done for making the call. I know how difficult it can be, especially when GPs seem reluctant to refer, or even to just acknowledge that something else can be done. I'm very proud of you

Showtime I'm sure your pharmacy problem will be sorted soon

Amazing you managed to update today , AfternoonD... horrific that your
DSis was hiding her fears , and hope it can be sorted , and that crisis team aren't too intrusive , which they probably won't be if it's a reactive depression < unqualified , rubbish advice >

New house sounds heavenly & will give you extra flora and fauna to add
to the cybergarden . I'm sure your sister will feel better for country visits , and more so of course for your strong support < now put down that phone and watch some soothing TV >
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I see you have an MP-worthy grievance re: your care ... what on earth
can you do (and best anyway not to post tactics online . ) I know I can't hut about it atm but my being mucked about has gone on for 20 years now, if you count some years of crawling away defeated ... Dh has kept me going < best medal >, but am more worried than usual atm as running into these huge obstructions & it's distressing Dh , as you'll relate to - very good your DP asked the question directly ..< promises to shut up till next appt >

ndt ( next-door's tom ) came limping up the path earlier , and wanted such a long session of fuss I missed the post . His human tells me paw is mended , but he's been adopting limp sometimes to get sympathy < hopeless sucker here> I think it's related to HF's assertiveness with him this week

These women are indeed unquely special , AternoonD & I'm more than glad to have met them < wails again >

< blackbird sings its soothing night song >

AfternoonD*'s delicious s all round

sorry - "felt she had to hide her fears" , that should have been - < can always be relied upon to be clumsy in a sensitive situation>

Hope you're having a good evening , Showtime& Upward , & that Nilgiri is slowly recovering from huge day ( double check those doorkeys , young lady )

Realised I must have missed nearly two hours of this evening, but had no idea it was so important until I got back here. Am so pleased for you Nilgiri, and feel the elation after doing something so brave and so successful!
Congratulations on your new GP, and am hoping you'll get a first-rate consultant and very soon.

Glad you've had better news from your DSis AfternoonD, and was very impressed with the crisis team people I 've known, so feel she's now in good hands. Please stop blaming yourself for not seeing this coming, as you mentioned, there's nothing unusual about students being short of money, or even stressed and depressed from time to time, and of course you've more than enough to worry about in your own life at present. Enjoy the caramel latte. Or two...
Hope she's soon able to improve her life with new and professional helpers.

Whatever would we do without your postings futuredream? Thankyou for managing such sensible and soothing words for us, and the glimpse of dear ndt exagerrating his limp for sympathy. HF will probably have words with him tomorrow, but he probably needed the extra reassurance today, just as the humans do now and again.

Hope we're all now able to enjoy the rest of the evening, and the (no doubt fattening) caramel lattes as a treat.

< lugs in mancat for group hug >

Sorry you lost big part of the evening , Showtime . Thank you for wholly undeserved praise , especially as I've been in a foul mood for weeks < has anotherword with self >

I'm incredibly sorry to have forgotten the most important thing by far , AfternoonD - Showtime has said it all about not blaming self for not realising what DSis was carefully concealing

< soothing honeysuckle -scented comes through summerhouse windows >

< ndt shyly gives Showtime an entire lupin cone >

< tucks rug round Nilgiri and wonders how to muffle cat and beagle snores >

< triple checks summerhouse locks and windows , then realises only ladybirds will trouble us >

Wishes Showtime , Upward and AfternoonD cooling , calming sleep

< fairies whirr soothingly about their cleaning >

Thankyou futuredream for training cats to donate flowers instead of usual rodents, much appreciated.
Hope we all have a restful night, with only softest of snores from companion animals.
Also hope we might hear from upward very soon.....
Goodnight.

< pc finally thaws >

Afternoon , good cybergardeners - s and elderflower cordial

< jumps as beagle bounds up for game of catch >

Hope we're all relatively OK in the muggy weather < ducks as sees workmen outside house... they still haven't been in after several weeks in road , obviously having holdups with other properties... v grateful as still trying to have house in decent state

Another one here with Upward very much in mind , as I 'm sure she can feel our love & best wishes < HF brings Upward pink and blue Granny Bonnets >

Hope today proves calm and reven pleasant for us all ... Showtime , I saw a lovely little patch oof artificial lawn whilst canvassing the other day , looked really nice . There is also a commercial disaplay near me of several tpes of synthetic grass , and all look really good , of whichever shade or depth .

< thanks fairies for setting up deckchairs for our afternoon interactions with butterfliesand mosquitoes >

Waving magic wand for me must have been effective, AfternoonD. I went into "new" pharmacy to check it out before committing, only to find one of my favourite people from the surgery seems to be in charge, and even filled in the form for me,so it may be that it's the end of years of "misunderstandings" originating at surgery (and nothing at all to do with this lovely person).

It was partly Nilgiris good experience yesterday which gave me the push to alter the situation, plus reminding futuredream of our Quaker decision-making process, so big thankyou's all round. If we can just hear that upward's doing OK now, it will be a very happy day.

Been noticing Granny Bonnets this year, futuredream, and how many seem to be pink, blue or (mixed) mauve.
Have just had white ones before, so not noticed colours, but having purchased reduced-price packet of seeds and been impressed by very varied colours on the packet have spent some time first pre- cooling then warming some seeds. Weeks later, I have a total of five which I'm really hoping will survive to flowering, but doubt they will keep the exotic colours year after year - no doubt the reason why I've yet to see any of the mixed colours for sale. Anyone else had similar experience?

Thanks for comments on artificial lawns, futuredream, I really must re-check measurements, but had to delay ordering for this month's Annual Contribution, surprises me every year of course.

Oh what brilliant news about lovely person at new pharmacy, Showtime ! < brigs out another large botlwe of alcohol-free wine and refills tin . Here's to a far better standard of service for you .

I am not paying Annual Contribution at all, *Showtime nor formal subs for my groups still... am determined not to feel guily as will do so as soon as possible . I'm quite sure you are not in the least expected to give formally , as I'm sure your friends will have reminded you , & would be sorry to hear of you further delaying something long-wanted .( I think you will be pleased with the lawn when it's in place )
After rambling on like this , I am so aware that incredibly generous people like you have been keeping meetings going in these tough times, so [thank][thank][thank][thank] you for shoring up these places of amazing peace & support .
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Have been on an unplanned break from meeting lately as just can't face talking to even them about day -to- day life as I find it hard to eplain why so little is being achieved! I was going this week till confidence dipped again but will write to a lovely friend or two & go back as soon as.
Thank you again for reminding me of the method of waiting for the answer to arrive ... I think I have been "feeling for" it rather than waiting , withouut realising , which spoils the necessary mental state .

Aha , our surise mixed colours of Granny Bonnets are started to wind down now , so I'll be able to collect the seeds for you . How long should I dry them for ? There are several different shades of pink , blue , deep purple and the unusual one is a blue-white mixture ... Ill label them accurately < goaty toes >

I'm sure Upward is feeling our good wishes , and hope she is resting in cybergarden with us till up to chatting again

< healing vibes to Nilgiri's pc andto her own person after exhausting day >

You're right, futuredream, and no reason to feel guilty if not sending money, but it's all I can do to make a difference so I do feel more involved when I can. You do manage to do so many useful things, particularly on the political side, which is an impressive contribution, and I'm only postponing for a month rather than struggling to manage as some people feel they have to.
Sorry I don't know about ripening seed, just assume that it will leave seed-pod when ready. I'd better postpone having any more seeds until I have the current ones planted out, like maybe next year as I'll not have anywhere to put them since friend sent me Lunaria and my blue thistles are increasing in size this year.

And what about the friendship & support you share with your Friends, Showtime , no doubt to the detriment of spoon collection . Most people are content to say "that's it , I've done my bit" after a stintor two of honourable service , even if they have plenty of energy & strength -not you , & I just wish you could enact everything you'd like to do ... don't forget you inspire us ,too , and calmed us this week (and here I am trying not to be sorppy )

lemonbalms and a bedtime walk for beagle

Aw , it's a shame seed storage space filled ... < future pencils in posting time in next year's diary as long as she doesn't somehow kill the seeds > Your friend's seeds looks gorgeous , wow

Brilliant news for me - loads of incredibly stressy influences things have suddenly "come right today, including the vital bit relating to disastrous appt earlier in week < a thousand cartwheels > Thank you all so much for putting up with me this month or so < off to meditate >

< lavender-scented breezes waft into summehouse >

sorry for all the mistakes

Oh that is just wonderful news about the aftermath of the hideous appointment coming right, Future.

And about the pharmacy, Showtime.

Goaty-toes that Upward is getting a share of the general Going Rightness.

AfternoonD hope you've been managing to rest and recover from a draining few days.

In another much smaller victory, in the Battle of the Objects, computer now returned and internet apparently behaving itself but only because DP was working from home and it doesn't dare play up to him.

Wonderful news futuredream, am so pleased for you aftern earlier unpleasantness , and another good show of teeth for Nilgiri for return of computer at last!
My new pharmacy may well solve other problems, so am really hoping thatm Upward and AfternoonD can have a share of today's positivity too.
Thanks for the Nilgiri, and here's a toast and some all round. Goodnight all, sleep well.

Good morning all for everyone

I'm sorry I didn't post yesterday, after doing a little bit more painting I ended up admitting defeat and having a nap on the sofa for an hour. Then after DCs were in bed, we ended up watching a wonderfully funny Anthony Hopkins film (it also had Chris Rock in it, I forget the name). Woke up this morning feeling achy as usual, but at least my mind feels refreshed.

Showtime I'm so pleased about the news with your pharmacy! That must be such a weight off your mind. It's so important to have the right medication, and hopefully that will be the last of your "misunderstandings", and you can get your medicine with confidence

futuredream It's so nice to finally see that things are coming good for you. It's wonderful to see some positivity after a rough few appointments. Makes me that you should even have "bad" appointments in the first place, but that's a rant for another time, I think.

Nilgiri Congratulations on your working internet! You should get DP to work from home more often, or alternatively, place a pic of DP next to the router I've always found that if I phone up my ISP because my internet is down, it will work by the time I'm connected to an advisor - idea for the future maybe

Hoping Upward is feeling positive today.

We're moving in less than a week, still can't get my head around that. Though I did accidentally buy a dozen Krispy Kreme doughnuts as it may be the last time we have them for a while

Positivity and for everyone, I'll be phoning utility companies today to let them know about the move, and talking to my DSis. I got her to speak to our DF yesterday, so hopefully she feels like she has another place for support.

Thanks for the welcome AfternoonD, and for your welcome posts. Finding a good film was an excellent strategy, and am so pleased today is better for you, and (hopefully) also for your DSis, now you've got her more support.
I'd got idea you planned to move in September [embarrassed], so am doubly glad life is improving and you're able to deal with housemove. It's tempting to do too much, but hope you'll remember to take breaks while using KKDonuts for re-fuelling/relaxing purposes.

Really love your suggestion of photo of Nilgiri's DP next to router to keep internet supply in line - good ammo in Battle of the Objects.

Have PM'd futuredream separately with huge thanks for sending me new medical product (hoping internet behaving for you too; see suggestion above if not).

Afternoon all , with many apologies for snowed-underness -can manage
much less once temperature reaches a certain level (sorry for all the
moaning- I'm not usually as whingey as this, AfternoonD

Aftern oonD - so glad DSis is confiding in DF , and hope things become easier for her , and your family
Less than a week to go ! < passes lemonbalm tea and sachet of
soothing herbs >You are doing magnificently with the calm and positive thinking !

Willl look out for these films you've mentioned recently .
< group empathy with waking stiff and achey > Oh joy at ideas for pc -mending - love thought of Nilgiri's DP regaring machine sternly

Thank you for empathy & support with the scary appts - too right , why
are there any bad ones !< satays on hobby horse >
Tiny , tiny item which might be as they say , "better than nothing" in this muggy weather

Is your Ds likely to be amused by bunting , royal ,flotilla concert on TV etc, AfternoonD ? (maybe he isn't even fussed about TV - am just assuming you won't have time to join local parties / republican rallies this weeknd

< tries to distract beagle from tin of doughnuts >

oops , surplus commas ... strong s

your powers of telepathy are developing well, Nilgiri

< HF glares at her helpless human and brings Nilgiri a www.touregypt.net/featurestories/lotus.htm

whilst balancing with great elegance >
May we all have a symbollically regal evening
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Excellent idea to give HF a golden crown and hope it's extra-light-weight with comfortable little clips to hold it in place at the ears.... Must keep an eye on ndt and beagle who might decide they'd like one too, especially if it will roll well.
Hope Nilgiri enjoys her blue lotus flower as much as I enjoyed the Delacroix painting, and many thanks to futuredream for a really royal posting .

Apologies for the non-positive post that will follow.

For reasons unknown, I just can't seem to relax. I'm all tensed up - probably about the move, as I spent all day on the phone to various companies making sure they're not going to charge me after we move. DS came home with a couple of presents from nursery and his Learning Journey, which was a fantastic read. I'm just not motivated to do anything.

I have ordered the Last Big Shop to be delivered tomorrow, but we have no food in the house and I'm starving. Really want some chips but scared DP will judge me for eating crap (again). And my back hasn't let up all fecking day which means that I've been confined to the sofa.

I keep looking at the clock waiting for bed so I can just forget today existed. Tomorrow is yet more sorting, I feel so sorry for DS but I'm not strong enough to take him out at the moment. Less than a week and he'll have his own garden - must keep that as a mantra.

for all