Am I having a breakdown?

[Idontdeservethem]

Name changer. Have felt odd for weeks, felt like I was watching Christmas and new year from the outside. Didn't enjoy either. Put it down to be pre menstrual that week. It hasn't got better. My temper is terrible. I picked a fight with DH on the way to the supermarket yesterday with the dcs in the car and I actually got out of the car and started to walk home. I shocked myself with my behaviour. Afterwards I just felt flat and sad. Couldn't sleep last night. Today I am just crying and couldn't get out of bed. DH made me get up. I have been crying over lots of things that happened years ago, things I don't even think about anymore. I've sobbed today over my lovely grandma who died 9 years ago. I can't cope. I am tired. I am sad. I feel guilty because DH is so good and kind and I'm a crap wife and a crap mum. I must have frightened my boys yesterday and they'll remember that forever. I won't have sex. I fat and I always look scruffy. I can't stop eying and I just want to go back to bed but I can't let DH down more than I already am. He has made me an appointment with the doctor for tomorrow. I am a failure. Please someone help me.

Say a little more Fitz, we won't judge. Just had a row with DD about Sky +

trying not to concentrate too much on the fact that I have to go to occupational health tomorrow, and I still cannot get a good sleep. The cat woke me up, but i was awake anyway..... I was freezing cold again..... still not eating properly, and at the moment, trying to watch Dancing on Ice, which I usually can't stand, but for some reason, it makes me not worry.... trying to cut back on the diazepam, they help, but not enough to get me a good sleep. Sky plus, Virgin Media, all those rubbish channels and not much on any of them..... I cut back on all of mine, trying to save money, and I haven't really noticed any difference....How you doing PPC.....

Still here, not forgotten you all.

Oops sorry, wrong thread (slinks off to find her friends...)

I think I have made my final offer to stbx/ex. He is considering it. Sky+ is the hard drive TV recorder, it's been running pretty full and people have not been watching stuff but won't delete it either. I am dealing with this problem

When i was working and stressed and stbx had turned into an arse several years previously, the only peace I could find was watching Columbo on a Sunday afternoon. This year I tried Strictly Come Dancing cos DM watches it, and found it had a similar effect :)

Today I have been dozing but not really sleeping, some of the time, with the cat on the bed with me. I don't think I'll be able to sleep properly till we have agreed the financial settlement.

Oh Call the Midwife is worth a look, too, it's on at 8pm.

Correction: it's on at 8.30 pm. There's a thread as well, in Telly Addicts

PPC just got an awful shock, I have a credit card with nil per cent for 22 months. Some of the direct debits got mixed up, and there was a late payment. I feel so sick again, I cannot afford twice the amount. It was in the small print, that if you default on any payment, they withdraw the promotional rate.... Oh goodness me another thing for me to panic about. I have emailed them, and told them I cannot afford the payments.....Money is the root of my problems, and I hope you get a good settlement..... panic panic

Do Not, Repeat Do Not, Panic. (Oh all right, panic a bit...)

Remember they would rather have some money than none, rather get it sorted with you than spend money chasing you. You have done exactly the right thing emailing them.

Cried at Call the Midwife, it brought back the happiness of giving birth my own DC so clearly (but without the pain :))

thanks PPC, you cry away, you have come through an awful lot, and you are also helping me along the way.....night night x

phoned cc company no understading whatsoever still shaking x

Grrr on your behalf. Did they reply to your email?

If you spoke to someone in a call centre they may have no room for manoevre. Really you should get advice from your debt management people, who should negotiate on your behalf at a higher level.

A depressed friend of mine who had been looking for new windows, booked a visit from Everest, and they managed to get her to sign a contract, which she hadn't really wanted to do. I rang them up and said it would not look good that they seemed to be taking advantage of someone with mh problems, and eventually they backed down. Arses.

For myself, I am shameless about trading on my mh if it helps me. God knows it's hindered me enough in my life.

true PPC, I am really worked up today, afraid the ad's are not going to work, and the kitten is getting her little operation tomorrow....
I will wait and see if the interest rate comes down to 1.9 per cent as they said they would do that for me. It is 18.9 at the moment... they say if I can't afford it I shouldn't have put the money on the card, but it was a balance transfer to take advantage of nought per cent for 22 months... I just can't deal with this crap at the moment.....

Any word from Ikea, hope she is ok...... Love to all - going to have to calm down and try and make sense of things, or else there is no hope..

Fitz is that 1.9% per annum - if so it doesn't seem too bad, and suggests this is their standard arrangement for people who find themselves in your situation re their card - so you are not alone in that respect...

Would you care to PM me the balance on the card?

AS FROM LAST FRIDAY I AM DIVORCED!

Will pm you? And congratulations, although I suppose you are bound to have some regrets.....

I don't regret the divorce at all. However, strangely enough I don't regret the marriage either.

its good you feel that way, it maybe "your time" now, to look after yourself.x

I'm here, not very well but will post when I can.

Morning, Ikea, I take it you still low or is it something physical? How long have you been on meds now, I have lost track of time a bit, with life being a bit full on.

morning Ikea and PPC, I am up and about, but like Ikea feeling bad this morning....

Tears today, and to top it all I was done for speeding at the grand speed of 39 mph.......

Oh I'm so sorry about the speeding fine Fitzroy

I got one a couple of years ago as caught by a speed camera driving past open fields - but on the other side of road was a closed for holidays school - hence 30 mph limit. I'm a very safe driver - 30 yrs experience and virtually no incidents.

We just have to hope and pray we can carry on driving safely, realise these things are there to protect us all ( some need it more than others !) - and try not to take it too personally.

Love to all. Happy pancake night ! What are you having with yours - we've got a range of options ... lemon and sugar, maple syrup, or Nutella

Place your orders !

PPC Congrats on the divorce

No regrets seems like the best way to go with it !

Wise woman

What would you like on your pancake ?

Golden Syrup please

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