Calling Maddie 04!

[NanaNina]

Hi Maddie - hope you don't think I'm stalking you but you left 2 sad faces (well I think that's what they were) a while ago and no text. Just wondering how you are - hope you're feeling better than me as I am having a ghastly time at the moment. Can you come back and let me know?

maddie that makes me sad and relieved at the same time. Pray you haven't done too much damage to yourself. let them help you get better sweetheart now they know how bad it is.

Maddie take care sweetheart xxx

Take care Maddie - let them help you now. You deserve to be better and happy x

Glad you are in a safe place now and getting the help you need.

Maddie, I'm so relieved that you are being taken care of but my heart goes out to you that you felt so bad. Let yourself be looked after - you deserve to be happy xx

Maddie - you are in the right place lovely. I have been thinking that this is where you should be for weeks on end. It's not so bad in hospital - main problem is boredom (alongside the depression of course) but hopefully they can sort out your meds now and you will get the help you need and deserve. It has been so obvious from your posts that you have been teetering on the edge for so long - a pity that it had to come to you trying to "get rid" of yourself before anyone took you seriously. With love and thoughts for you and keep in touch if it's possible. NNxxxxx

Hi Natsy, Kizzie and others on the thread - we don't know if Maddie has access to a laptop or blackberry in hospital, so we may not hear from her for a while - but I'm sure we are all relieved that she is at last being taken care of and hopefully can slowly start the climb back up from the despair she has been in for so long.

Me again! Just realised that you must have your laptop cus you posted, saying you were in hospital. SO please keep in touch if you can as I (and others) will be thinking of you and wondering how things are for you. At least now you are safe...........with love and hugs......NNxxx

hi i have my phone with me its horrible in here but cant get out as im detained sorry its short reception not great x x x

Hang in there sweetheart xxx

Thanks for message Maddie. It will seem very strange in hospital at first (I cried all morning for the first 2 weeks) but you do get used to it as time goes by and you get to know the routines and maybe find another patient to talk to - if the hospital is anything like the one I was in, the nurses didn't really ask how you were or give much comfort, but at least you are safe and will be encouraged to eat and take meds. If you want anything Maddie you can PM me, but you'd have to tell me your name and name of ward and hospital. Happy to send anything that might help. Take care Lovely - NNxx

I second what NN said. When I first when into hospital I cried constantly for the first few days. The staff were lovely but they must of been sick of me wailing. I too was in a secure unit and wasn't even allowed in the garden for the first week which I found very difficult and felt really claustrophobic. Try not to spend all your time in your room, go and sit in lounge for a bit a chat to the other patients. I found that made the whole experience less scary. It made me realise that even the lady who kept kicking off trashing her room was just a normal person battling MH issues like the rest of us.

Hi Maddie - just checking in to say I (and others) are all still here and thinking of you. I know the torment of this illness but try to see it as the first step to getting the help and support you have needed for a very long time...........Love and thoughts..........NNxx

Maddie just wanted to let you know that Ive been thinking of you. I know it must be really hard to be in hospital - particularly the first few days - but it really is the best thing so that you get the help you deserve.
Take Care xx

Still thinking of your Maddie.....much love NNxx

thank you everyone its still really hard but i accept they are not going to let me home till im better they have changed my meds to another starting with v cant remember the name sometimes feel as though they r just feeding off pills thank you all for caring x x x x x

Oh Maddie I clicked on just to say hello but was delighted to see your post. It will be hard love as you are in unfamiliar surroundings and having to get used to the nursing staff and assistants and other patients. SO so glad you are accepting that they are not going to let you home till you are better. I'm sure you wouldn't want to go home feeling so awful as you have been for so long.

Glad too they've changed the meds and don't forget they take time to kick in. Are the children allowed in to visit you yet.

Maddie don't forget if there is anything you need/want please PM me with your name and which hospital you are in and I will send whatever it is. I do understand of course that you might not want to give those details and do understand if this is the case.

Thinking of you Maddie and am so relieved that you are at long last getting the help you have needed for so long...........lots of love NNxxxx

Just popping by to say hello Maddie and hoping that this is the beginning of you getting back to the "old" Maddie. What was she like by the way?
Lots of love and thoughts.............NNxx

Am popping in again Maddie just to say Hello and get you to the top of the list again! Love NNxx

Me again Maddie - still thinking of you and hoping things are a little easier for you now that you are in a safe place and have no responsibilities. Are your children allowed to visit you. I won't be around till next Sunday so just wanted to say a quick hello before I went away (to visit my son, dil and grandchildren) Take care Maddie and sending you love.....NNxx

Hi sweetie. How are you doing? Just wanted you to know we're thinking of you and wishing you well xxx

hi everyone just wanted to let you know im still in hospital dont know when they r going to let me out they keep saying im not opening up enough and they feel im still to big a risk to let out im reallx finding it hard to be here but getting to see my kids at weekend as its too much for them i cry everynight as i feel so stuck but im hoping 1 day this will end hope you are all well and nananina hope you had a lovely break away and are keeping ok lots of love maddie x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

Soooo good to hear from you Maddie - it's very early days love, and I know how hard it is to be in hospital, especially for you as you have young children, but glad you get to see them at weekends. You have had a tendency to keep things bottled up haven't you Maddie, so maybe now is the time to let some of it out, in a safe place. This will pass Maddie and one day you will be able to lok back at this as a distant memory. You are so sweet to remember my trip in the midst of all your problems. It was lovely to see my grandchildren and I managed to stay ok all the time I was there, but conked out in another blip the day after I got home......ah well,
at least it waited till I got home.

I'm glad your are being looked after Maddie - I know it's hard for you, but you have to try to see it as the first step to getting well again. Lots of Love NNxxxx

Its really good to hear from you Maddie - have been looking out for a message from you.
It must seem like forever for you - but its still early days, and things will get better. Just keep hanging on in there.
Take Care - and take the help that is offered to you. xx

How's things Maddie - just to say still thinking of you and hoping that you are coping with the hospital stay. Love NNxx

Hi Kizzie - did I hear on another thread that you're having a bit of a rough time. Sorry if I've got that wrong (and hope I have)

Maddie - where are you, how are you. Feeling worried as you haven't posted for ages. Don't want to pressure you but would be good to know how you are. Thinking of you and sending love......NNxxx