Insomnia friends - I will sleep well tonight because I have told my unconscious I will- Part II

[madmouse]

Help we left it too late the old thread is full!!! Hope we all find this one!!!

Hi everyone

I slept a lot better last night and lovely to have DH back. He got home at half past two.

Looking forward to Christmas now:)

Glad he is home

yey orangflutie so pleased for you

Hi Kizzie thanks for your support

Where's everyone else?

Snowmash how are you?

Well that horrid memory came through properly at 1am while I was trying to fall asleep. Very upsetting as I'm starting to remember his voice which I really don't want to. Especially since I've forgotten mum's voice (she died when I was in my early 20s). had a few hours sleep but awake again by 4.15. Eventually gave up, got up and text me friend who's up and about at 5 and offered to come over, but some texts helped to calm things down a bit. Slept again from 6ish until 9.30 . Not feeling great because the images keep playing in my head. Better go have a shower and get out in the snow to do the shopping (am I mad?)

I'm here

Orangeflutie yeah!!!!

Hi Kizzie hope you are ok.

Madmouse it is in the name! We have to go shopping in the snow too. I'm so sorry you are going through all this at the moment x

Getdown , glad you got a babysitter!

Orangeflutie , I hope your nights get better and great that your DH is home!

Madmouse , sorry to hear that you're having a crummy time :(

Kizzie and Becky , hope you are both doing ok?

I saw the psych for the first time and to quote them 'we didn't get very far today.' :( I was hoping for some help with sleep if nothing else.

Hi ladies - just wanted to wish you all a happy and restful christmas as i wont have much access to computer over the next few days.

And heres to a lovely 2011 for us all xx

Thanks kizzie

Hope you have a lovely Christmas and new year too:) x

I've got the lurgie - so far only 'downwards' but terrified of upwards. DH is ill too - he's upwards. Ah crap! Happy Christmas everyone :)

Becky how are you??

Happy Christmas to all!! And HAPPY BIRTHDAY for tomorrow becky!!! It's DH's birthday today!

Off to parents for a few days. Hope you all have a lovely time

xxxxx

Hi everyone, I'm much better today as is DH. I had it really mildly I think and DH was only sick once. I just had a night of the shivers and aches - was woken at 3.45am by poor little DS2 being sick. He's starting to get a bit better now. He's going to miss our annual children's service at my sister's local church though later today :( I'm going to take DS1 and DS3 and leave DS2 with DH.

Happy birthday GetDown's DH! Happy birthday me tomorrow!!

Becky I'm so relieved that you were not sick - I know you will cope with just about everything else!

If I don't 'speak'to you beforehand have a great birthday

Think my christmas is going to be a mixed bag this year, I'm feeling a bit out of sorts and quite sad. DH is going back to work but it will at least for a bit be in a different church 25mins away. I had planned to combine both churches but we met with the bishop on wednesday and he pushed me quite hard to go to dh's new church, intimating that a lot depends on this placement and we need to be there as a family. It will mean giving up the worship band and not seeing my church friends. That would all have happened in late summer anyway but this is sudden and I don't feel ready

On the other hand the house is starting to look lovely, the shopping is done, presents wrapped and I am starting to get a Christmas feeling so there's good stuff too :)

Have a lovely Christmas anyone

Becky hope you have a lovely Birthday tomorrow and welcome to the club:)

Madmouse hope you have a good Christmas despite other things going on. I've been struggling to get myself in the mood this year, but I'm getting there. I'm going to church later with the DDs and I expect that will help.

Have a good Christmas everyone and good sleeps x

Too bloody excited to sleep! Woke up 3am, 5am, 5.30am, gave up at 6am. DSs are still asleep! Just me, the cats, and the father-in-law awake! Happy Christmas everyone!

Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday to you Becky!
Hope everyone else has a lovely time too. x

Like the name!!! Merry Christmas Arcadia!!

Merry Christmas all of you :)

Oh help I'm normally no longer given to anxiety re ds but I'm already fragile and sad today and I'm anxious. Ds had a fab day all day but has been coughing and snotting, now he refused his dinner and was shivery, he is running up a temp

He's had all his flu jabs so I'm sure he will be fine just not coping very well with it tonight.

Madmouse so sorry your DS isn't well. I saw on Facebook too. I hope he's a bit better today. It is so hard to deal with things when they are ill, especially with everything else that is going on. I didn't have a good night last night. I had a bit of a relapse with the tummy bug, much to my embarrassment as I had to run upstairs to the loo clutching by bottom! The 'in-laws must have thought I was mad! I was in mid-sentence too when it struck. Ever since DS1 was born (sorry if TMI) I get zero warning if I am unwell in a downwards department. It just comes!!!!

I didn't sleep well. Too wired and then panicky about being over-tired. Stupid me. Feel really groggy and heavy today. I hate boxing day.

Plus my sleep problems and PND or whatever came to a head on Christmas Day last year. I can't even think about it now, just too awful. But the memories came back last night. I know it is nothing, absolutely nothing, but it made me really cross with myself for not being a stronger person.

Becky I'm seriously considering coming to find you on fb and giving you a good talking to. If you were not a strong person do you seriously think you would be where you are now, having made that much progress in one year

You're bound to be tired, having done your birthday and Christmas with everyone being ill as well.

DS is still poorly, feverish with a nasty cough and runny nose, no appetite. He is playing but due to his disability his normal mode of in-house transport is commando crawling and that is very hard for him right now poor lad. We are spoilt, despite his cerebral palsy he is very sturdy and rarely ill. We have had to cancel the plan to spend boxing day with good friends, I'm going to drive over later to bring the kids' presents . I was looking forward to it. My mood is quite low and fragile. But we had a lovely Christmas day until ds fell ill, the ebst in years, seeing friends in church, unwrapping presents, eating simple food that we really enjoy, watching a dvd together. dh was really good, really there.

I have so much to be thankful for. I've just spoken to my oldest friend who's going through a really tough time: her dad has been given a 50/50 chance survival with liver cancer, her sister isn't talking to anyone in the family and spent Christmas day in a strop because she only has a 3% chance of carrying a baby full-term and she's absolutely desperate for a baby, and my friend herself might be made redundant in January (she's a single mum). I am so lucky to have my lovely DSs, DH, house, work, etc.

Hi all sorry I've been quiet have been at parents, and only internet access was DH's Iphone (which I am rubbish on, each post takes me half an hour!!)

So sorry to hear you've had illnesses and bad nights.... madmouse about your DS How awful and scary and stressful for you all. Hope he is ok or at least on the mend?

becky am so sorry to hear about the tummy troubles and the disturbed nights. I'm sure your inlaws understand and no need to be embarrassed. You can't help it. Hope you start feeling better soon. I can imagine the memories of this time last year are playing on your mind. But you have done so well since then.

I had pretty bad nights too - just lying awake the first night for hours despite taking an eighth of a mirtazapine. Then the next night and last night I succumbed to the zopiclone Even then I didn't sleep well and am absolutely shattered today. Ah. pants. Why oh why??? My brother said to me "why can't you sleep?" and I just felt like screaming "ahhhhhh !! If I knew that I would be able to do something about it!!!!"

Ah well back home now, own bed, hopefully better night. Love to you all xxx

and becky for your friend, what an awful time she is going through.

DS and I have spent the night in hospital. He's home and on the mend. I'm not so good due to memories coming back and no sleep due to flashbacks.