anyone here?

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ello lewis me ol mate.
Sup?

hey you...

just ... I dunno, can't even type coherently today

I need to know that if the community psychie people team thingy get involved, SS won't find out or know or anything seeing as I'm a lone parent

hiya chuck. don't know the answer to your question, but am here to listen.

Allo Lewis

You ok?

afaik they don't but you can check it out. It doesn't make you a bad mother, and don't you dare even start to think that way

yay, a load of us turned up and x-posted

Afiak they don't involve SS. I can ch3ck via work stuff tmrw

(not your personal circs, just the general 'would it be reffered')

thanks val

And then I turned up late as usual......

Getting help with stuff normally paints you as a good parent with S/S, we could all write you references

Lewis, talk to us ...
You ok?

lewis, where've ya gone? just been to stalk you on fb....

no, i'm not ok really

I dont know how to explain it - many, many years of a lot of buried stuff (to do with parents, childhood, upbringing, circumstances, the abuse, rape, conceiving ds, having ds......all sorts) and I've finally decided something needs to help me.

I need help - I can't fix myself... I need proper, heavy help, no namby pamby "counselling"

that's a great decision. looking forward to the future to try and make your life work.

well done.

thanks - i am terrified

Ah Lewis...

Ok. Can we help you find the help you need? Or are you on the case yourself?

Cos we'll help you every step of the way, you know that? (if you want us to, that is...)

same as custy said. Good stuff. Hard, but good.
Going for it dynamite style? You're a brave 'un.

whereabouts ish are you in the country?

giggle, there's no other choice

you know how clean is your house? my house was like one of them

inch for inch... I swear

i can not live like that any more - it all stems from whatever is wrong in my head - whether it be from the birth I had (super traumatic, mum found a name / symptoms for it that describe me, but I can't remember it) or something else, I don't know... but surely it can be fixed? surely?

home counties

I say was like this - it still is, but my mum and me are sorting it

with the insight you've got, and the determination - I am absolutely certain you can sort it. You're a fab mum, and hey bollocks to tidy houses, that's for boring people (...and ones who haven't got a sackful of shite going round their head mebe)

It sounds like you're heading for a baggage burning session - and a half!!

Wishing you cathartism and peace from it. You are a very brave person Lewisfan.

thanks

there's tidy houses and then there's health hazzards - mine was the latter

how's your head tonight? Good or mushed?

mashed.

i've got to let my mum in my house - my house that looks like a "how clean" house ... she's going to judge me and comment and I am disgusting for letting it happen.

No-one can understand why - I don't even know how it happened to get like thaat. I honestly don't...

sorry for typo am crying

and how is the house now.