Thanks everyone, you're all lovely, autumn you especially put a big smile on my face 
. I hope when I am better and stuff in the future then maybe I can volunteer with the welfare rights organisation that helped me and help other people. Because I will not be this unwell for ever I am determined not to be! 
I am also on a waiting list for CBT autumn. I was told I would go straight to the top of the list being post-natal and that the wait for an appt was 1 week but that was about 3 weeks ago and still no appt through the post, but I'm too anxious to call them about it 
. The GP said to call and chase it up but I can't...
Wolf We are veggie but then I was researching formula my research led me to believe that there was no commercially available vegetarian formula anymore and that they all have fish oil in? As far as I can see, Hipp Organic and another one, can't remember which, were indeed vegetarian in the past but have since changed their recipes to also include fish oil. Not related to DD's health but from an ethical standpoint we are gutted about having to give her non-vegetarian formula but we couldn't find an alternative as I couldn't bear to BF any longer with the awful pain I was in and the effects it was having on my MH 
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DH is at the GP with her now, probably get ranitidine. Not sure which GP she is seeing, the last one wasn't very sympathetic and is the only not-great GP at the surgery so hopefully it will be a different one. Maybe we should push for a paeds referral idk. I was the same as a baby, if not worse because I used to wake up every couple of hours all night til after I started primary school 
and I was seen by paeds regularly and nobody could find anything wrong with me, although looking back I'm pretty sure I did have silent reflux at least as a baby as I had all the symptoms but my parents didn't know about it then. She can't sit up herself unsupported yet, no, she is improving but not there yet. She can actually hold herself upright holding on to the coffee table edge now at DM's for a few seconds at a time but can't sit herself . Also we have thought about allergies but she doesn't have the other symptoms that usually come with things like CMPI such as eczema, rash, diarrhea, vomiting, etc. So not convinced it's that either. I do think to some degree some babies just hate being babies. Also possibly she is autistic like me but we won't know til much later down the line, only anecdotal but me and DH's cousin who are both aspies were horrendous screamy babies. Then again a family friend's son is autistic and was a dream quiet baby so maybe there is no link, idk.
Autumn Hope your DH has a nice rest before he starts his new job and that you two can spend some quality time together .