Wow came back on this morning and its clear everyone is suffering panic attacks, anxiety and stuck in the cycle I have been in here I wondering where the anxiety ends and the illness starts.
What I have noticed is that when the “illness” starts, I can be sat totally at peace completing a puzzle or something mundane and my heart race rockets suddenly, its difficult to breathe and my skin bristles with nerves. This can last hours and in the early days I kept thinking why cant i calm the fuck down!!!
As im moving into day 12, I think its more thatbthe physical symptoms as much that you would would expecf in “panic” it invokes that “fight or fligh”’surge in my body even im at peace.
THIS then makes me anxious. That im not someone that suffers with anxiety and depression and yet all im getting told is “calm down, your anxious, would CBT help?” From the doctor because Im frightened by one element it gives me anxiety. I also find it upsetting that the very real symptoms of a disease everyone is still learning about are kind of dismissed as “you really need to calm down” even when I am calm or asleep, whooosh fast heart and breathing issues.