Emmsy's onwards and upwards part five.....white coats and pee sticks at the ready for more BFP's

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Here we go a shiny new thread.....

OK I'm off er shopping in Leicester - honest!

what would i do without you ladies? Thank you so much for being supportive and so kind when you're all going through so much!

curlee that ms sounds awful! if the lucozade is staying down, have you tried crystalised ginger? It's mainly sugar, and even if your ms is way beyond the help of ginger, it is extremely yummy

4ever aww sweetheart you are not having a good time. PG office sucks mightily. Just keep holding onto the thought that one day this will be you floating around with your baby bump

gracie crossing fingers for you! after all this you deserve some good news.

jools weekend away in this weather? brilliant! would be jealous if I wasn't about to go on leave myself (hmm, no emoticon for smug face)

neeko and MLS your kids sound like great fun...make a note of these stories they will be great for teasing them when their older... or getting married!

iggy job issues play well into sods law of TTC...

mermaid dare I ask what Zestica is? it sounds a little bit like a kind of air freshener :s

mini meltdown over now, I just realised that while I still hoped for a babbie, I have no expectation that it will ever happen for us. Dh is much more optimistic (which is odd in a man who has been nicknamed Eeyore) but now I'm not melting I've realised I'm a lot more chilled. If I expect this will never happen, then it's pointless getting stressed about TTC and threat of MC. Now on CD, umm, (checks calender)17 and not even fretting about 2ww...very odd indeed but rather pleasant . Give it 3 days and I'll be stressing like a corrosion test again, but great for now

waves to you all!

Oh 4ever my heart goes out to you. How you have managed to not stand up & scream "Will everyone stop talking about fu**ing babies" is a miracle. It WILL happen as everyone says but I know all you want to know is WHEN.

Neeko that is v funny about your dd, children have no concept of time do they? I tend to not tell my dd anything about an impending bike ride/trip to the park/afternoon at soft play until we are leaving the house as I know she'll go on and on and on about it! Your heart must have been in your mouth when she was standing on a stool at the top of the stairs. It makes you wonder how the human race manages to survive with all these toddlers thinking that they are invincible & hurling themselves from great heights!

GG I have everything crossed for you but I'm sure you won't need it as I bet all will be well. Come back quickly & tell us how wonderful your bean looks.

Jools your birthday weekend sounds perfect. Make the most of going to lovely places to eat because as soon as you have a baby the 'eating out' will mean a table for two plus a highchair at the local Harvester! It's my 40th next Saturday & my dh is arranging a not-so-secret-secret-party. I dread to think who he's invited!

Vjay great bump.... can't believe you are still going to put a pound on a week which is what happens in the last few weeks! Also loving your expression 'laying a whopper of an egg'!

Curly How many weeks are you now & what is your edd? Have you had your scan date yet?

I'm now feeling sooooooo tired, going to have a rest even though I still have two and a half weeks worth of emails to catch up on. You are all more important!

Hey iggy where are you off to on hols? Hope it gives you a chance to relax properly and make that baby

MLS I'm 7 weeks and two days. Apparently the consultant will do a tummy scan tomorrow, and then if she can't see anything I'll be sent down to EPAU for internal scan. Dreading that... just because it would be a re-run of how I found out about the MMC

hoping it's great to hear you sounding a bit happier. Thanks for the tip on chrystalised ginger. Where can I buy it? I don't mind the MS really, I'm just so grateful to have got this far

gracie just an hour and a bit to go before you see your bean. You can start squeezing our hands now

curly am off to Italy wonder if they sell mini milks over there?! looking forward to much lovely food and no work and plenty of time for BD action

also re: your scan - that's what I had... a tummy scan - then because they couldn't see the heartbeat, and internal after - when they found a v. slow heartbeat. Is what I will be dreading too if I get PG again. But I have nice positive feelings for you and GG for your scans. x

hoping you are right - sods law is prob what i should go for - I'll start applying now

My law of sod should kick in soon - will start training in September to become an accredited trainer (alongside the day job). The training takes around 4 months, so I reckon I'll be qualified for a very short time before I disappear on mat leave

4ever shuffles in, takes a deep breath, holds her head up & manages a smile! Honestly you girls are such an amazing therapy and the hugs and hairstroking are so very appreciated! Curly you lovely kind lady being there for us all with your wisdom & warmness, and you have your own worries with your scan tomorrow, you deserve some chill time after that & all your exams & us lot worrying you! xx Iggy glad Im not alone, it hits you for six when you're not much of a cryer & then you cant stop... Gonna take Drjools advice & sneak off a bit early & chill in the garden with a wine.. MLS lovely to see you back, love your frank & forthright posts - (much needed) pmsl at turd in an envelope! Hope your precious cargo is well...! Nice to see you too hopingalways very philosiphical attitude... Thinking of Gracie v much & sending the stickiest thoughts to you.. In fact im ducking out about 3.30pm, so please can someone tx me to let me know she they are ok?

Im very drained, feel like Iv been beaten up after being in such a state.. Daresay it was therepeutic, but im coming out the other side thankfully, sometimes you gotta crash down low to appreciate the highs I guess.. Iv even managed to think of positives; 1) I can decorate my front room this weekend without worry 2) We can have our anniversary bbq without worry & enjoy a drink 3) OV would be around our anniversary so that would be nice (1st pg was on honeymoon) 4) I can dye my ever increasing greys 5) I can get this window drama finished ( another story.. ) without stress affecting a bean 6) My work role confirmed & imminent redundancy for good friends is happening this/next week so wont be stressing a bean, only me! Did that sound convincing?

4ever Not quite convincing but you'll get there.

Curly good luck tomorrow. Here's my other hand (wasn't planning on doing any more work today anyway!)

hoping Glad to hear your wobble is over.

Iggy If we dont talk before then have a lovely holiday and bring yourself back a special souvenir

MLS Have you been pracising your surprised face? It looks like this Just picture the emoticon and you'll be fine.

Gracie should be in by now. I'm not going to get the chance to come back on tonight so could someone text me the news?

Big waves to everyone else.

Remind me how we swap phone numbers

I was having a meltdown when someone set it all up and can't find the right message now !

Gracie has asked me to pass on that her bean has a heartbeat!!!!!!!!!

send email to this: [email protected]

Hooray for Gracie

Sent ! Thanks Iggy

oh my god I am so excited what am I going to be like when VJ gives birth?!!!!

4ever enjoy that glass of wine, you deserve it you lovely lady. I'm glad you are escaping a little early You are under orders to be very very good to yourself today Best get that living room sorted because you'll need to be staying away from that paint very soon xxx

Iggy Italy, I'm so jealous I love the food, and the wine, and the food, oh and the wine. Which part are you going to?

Great news Gracie - just terrific .

Been offline for past couple of days as have been floored with the dreaded hayfever and I can't take anything for it - grrr. Had to go home sick from work as head almost exploded with sneezing and wanted to take eyes out and put them in the freezer to cool them down. Feel a bit as I have managed to get through 9 weeks of throwing up without a sick day but come over all lilly livered at the first bout of pollen.

Anyway, have caught up now, I think, and just wanted to welcome back MLS - your posts are so funny in a dry withering humour type stylee . Did you plump for fake turd in envelope in the end ? Non sleeping children will drive you to drink dementedville. DS has never done the 'sack race' thing in his grobag, he's not that inventive. Much respect to your DD for managing to vault over the cot - you go girl!

4ever - my love, you should so do what MLS suggested and just told them to "shut the fuck up". Babytalk is boring at the best of times but have they no sensitivity . REally glad you seem to have come through the other side and are gearing up for a fab 2nd anniversary with that amazing DH of yours . BTW - I'm with you on the grey hairs!

curly - hey girl. Will be thinking about you at the scan. I had one at 7 weeks (and 6, 9, 11 and 12) and assumed I'd get an internal but she saw hb with tummy one - relief all round... I so know how your feeling waiting for it so sending you a big hug.

Vjay - you mad woman - what a busy time but yay! that you finish up on Monday. Glad your iron tablets are kicking in and at only having 9 weeks left!

Mollie - hope your resting up my love. I had slight bleeding with DS @ this time and whisked myself off to midwife who did doppler scan. Was just 'one of those things'.

Jools - yay! to your DP's pay rise and sod law training and stashed away mat pay. Loving your dream too . Get cooking/seducing girl!

Hoping - glad your feeling a little more chilled..

annie - felt so reading about you missing your DDad, life is just so cruel to us sometimes. At the risk of sounding like a bad hallmark card, we never lose them if they're in our hearts... not long now 'til your 20 week scan - yay!

Iggy - woo woo holidays tomorrow - are you getting to bring some games in? Here's to a school holiday BFP!

mermaid - I LOL at your DH getting eaten by a sea monster or ending up in France - I take it neither happened and you were able to pin him down for some marinating ?

iggy - so of you going to Italy. I'd love to do the whole Tuscan villa thing with me wafting about drinking wine

I've taken the plunge and ordered some mat clothes from blooming marvelllous (15% discount through mn!). I bought surprisingly little for DS and am all out of season as was pg Sept-June so just had to get some in as bump is visible from all angles now .

Right, off to stare into fridge and wonder what I can eat that won't make me (yes still throwing up at 14 weeks...).

Laters!

I'm back! Went home via DH's parents to tell them our news as I felt a bit guilty that the first person I contacted when I got out was Curly so she could tell you lot!
My parents are away in St Ives so I rang Mum on the way home.

Me and DH drove each other mad on the way there arguing over the directions and DH's choice of music (I think his music was trying to tip me over the edge!) Curly I loved your text about Gracie being always right as she's pregnant!.

I think the Ultrasonographer woman thought we were a bit mad as with both sat there with our eyes shut not saying a word and refused to look at the television screen until she said there was a heart beat. My Bean has grown a bit and is now 7 weeks and 4 days (my AF was only 7 weeks and 3 days ago how does that work???)

So today I have a big grin on my face, how long will that last before I start stressing again??

Curly Ok my hand is ready for you to hold for your scan tomorrow.

MLS I love it that you're catching up with us before trawling through 2 weeks of emails!

Hoping so pleased to hear you are feeling calmer today. I'm laughing, you are right Zestica does sound like air freshner!

4ever I agree with MLS you are amazing for not standing up and shouting "will everyone stop talking about f**king babies!!!" Hopefully you are in the garden with a nice glass of wine now.

Jools I've forwarded your number to everyone.

Iggy Italy sounds great! Now don't go trying to pack Mini Milks in your suitcase will you?!

Hello lovely ladies...sorry for going awol but i just cant cope with the 10 hour days!

I have been coming in from work, having a nice relaxing bath, eating and then off to bed...no time for anything

gg thats fab news hun {grin] how many weeks did they place you at? I think im 6 plus three now...although that makes me a whole week behind curly

4ever i started reading your post at work but ended up crying and having to pretend i was having a choking fit because the girls were looking at me like im bonkers, I so wanna hug you, or send you a plane ticket so we could laze by the pool and put the world to rights. I was trying to explain to a friend about ttc....i was saying that deep down i know i will have a baby someday, one way or another but the hardest part of it all is its the not knowing when its going to happen...the wait is horrendous, all consuming and tiring. We wait all our life for something and miss the bits in between. If someone said to me that its guarenteed to work in nov 2010 i would relax because i have a date...does that make sense? some times i wonder if all my friends who go to the crystal ball people have the right idea

neeko im so glad you are back..it wasnt the same withyou, i love your advice!

curly you are doing so well...no major melt downs from you this time around, i wish i wasnt so stressed. Still convinced its all going to go wrong...im not sick enough, my boobs dont hurt all the time...and any other thing to pick up on im there thinking about it!

jools cornwall is soooo lovely, rick steins is fab too...i love padstow, nothing better than admiring the art gallerys whilw wondering down the narrow starts with proper cornish ice cream...yum
I have be craving a cornish pasty today im so going to take the 10 min drive to cornwall for a proper one when we get home next week!!!

iggy i love italy, went to capri for our honeymoon...so fab! barbie sighs and remembers the gorgeous but very over priced hotel and the italian vogue party she was invited too...so many beautiful people

mls turd in an envelope...gosh i snorted so loud..tears ran down my face and for once the pains in my belly was from laughing so hard...thankyou! hope its all ok now though?

mermaid Sounds like you have everything covered for operation july baby making! Make sure you spend less time in the green house and more time in the bedroon unless you want to give your neighbours something to gossip about!

hoping its always nice to take a step back and forget about all the stress of ttc...i hope you are feeling better about everythinfg now?

The doctor called me yesterday, she wants to give me a free scan {shock} as she knows how worried i am...she told me to go next thurs the day before i fly....i was awake all last night worrying about this. If its bad news how will i get the medical assistance i need before i fly....if i go on tues at least il have two days to get something done, although im not sure how these things work over here. But going on tues is too early. Part of me thinks sod it, i wont bother and ill just go home and hope nothing happens in the two weeks....help!!!!

Also last night i decided i could deprive dh of sex any longer, poor man has waited weeks as im too scared but after there was a tiny amont of orange discharge...i mean tiny and only on the first wipe (tmi) dh seems to think its because i was poking around a little too much if you know what i mean! so now im worrying again. Although today i have felt pretty sicky on and off, more a sick feeling in my belly and i had to leave half a chocolate muffin cos i just didnt feel like it...unheard of in the barbie house hold!!!

Hello lovely ladies...sorry for going awol but i just cant cope with the 10 hour days!

I have been coming in from work, having a nice relaxing bath, eating and then off to bed...no time for anything

gg thats fab news hun {grin] how many weeks did they place you at? I think im 6 plus three now...although that makes me a whole week behind curly

4ever i started reading your post at work but ended up crying and having to pretend i was having a choking fit because the girls were looking at me like im bonkers, I so wanna hug you, or send you a plane ticket so we could laze by the pool and put the world to rights. I was trying to explain to a friend about ttc....i was saying that deep down i know i will have a baby someday, one way or another but the hardest part of it all is its the not knowing when its going to happen...the wait is horrendous, all consuming and tiring. We wait all our life for something and miss the bits in between. If someone said to me that its guarenteed to work in nov 2010 i would relax because i have a date...does that make sense? some times i wonder if all my friends who go to the crystal ball people have the right idea

neeko im so glad you are back..it wasnt the same withyou, i love your advice!

curly you are doing so well...no major melt downs from you this time around, i wish i wasnt so stressed. Still convinced its all going to go wrong...im not sick enough, my boobs dont hurt all the time...and any other thing to pick up on im there thinking about it!

jools cornwall is soooo lovely, rick steins is fab too...i love padstow, nothing better than admiring the art gallerys whilw wondering down the narrow starts with proper cornish ice cream...yum
I have be craving a cornish pasty today im so going to take the 10 min drive to cornwall for a proper one when we get home next week!!!

iggy i love italy, went to capri for our honeymoon...so fab! barbie sighs and remembers the gorgeous but very over priced hotel and the italian vogue party she was invited too...so many beautiful people

mls turd in an envelope...gosh i snorted so loud..tears ran down my face and for once the pains in my belly was from laughing so hard...thankyou! hope its all ok now though?

mermaid Sounds like you have everything covered for operation july baby making! Make sure you spend less time in the green house and more time in the bedroon unless you want to give your neighbours something to gossip about!

hoping its always nice to take a step back and forget about all the stress of ttc...i hope you are feeling better about everythinfg now?

The doctor called me yesterday, she wants to give me a free scan {shock} as she knows how worried i am...she told me to go next thurs the day before i fly....i was awake all last night worrying about this. If its bad news how will i get the medical assistance i need before i fly....if i go on tues at least il have two days to get something done, although im not sure how these things work over here. But going on tues is too early. Part of me thinks sod it, i wont bother and ill just go home and hope nothing happens in the two weeks....help!!!!

Also last night i decided i couldnt deprive dh of sex any longer, poor man has waited weeks as im too scared but after there was a tiny amont of orange discharge...i mean tiny and only on the first wipe (tmi) dh seems to think its because i was poking around a little too much if you know what i mean! so now im worrying again. Although today i have felt pretty sicky on and off, more a sick feeling in my belly and i had to leave half a chocolate muffin cos i just didnt feel like it...unheard of in the barbie house hold!!!

Hello Blue, X posted sorry. I know what you mean about hayfever. I've been eating local honey every day since last time I got pregnant to try and desensitise my pollen allergy and its worked a bit. I usually get asthma all summer with my hayfever but so far not too bad at all. Well done for buying some new maternity clothes. You are making me feel so much better to hear about your scans at 6, 7, 9, 11 and 12 weeks. I don't feel half as bad for having one at 5 and 7.5, I'm still hoping for the GP one at 9wks and then the usual 12 week one. I can't quite think past 12 weeks yet.

DH's Mum just rang, she wants to put in an early request to be know as Grandma by the baby! In laws what are they like! I just texted my mum and she says in that case she'll be SuperGran!

posted twice so it looks like i havent been away so long!!!! ha ha

forgot to say that the other day when dh went snowboarding none other than paris hilton was there!!! im sure he is in the back of a shot in one of the gossip mags! he got some good pics....

X posted with Barbie too now! Not sure about orange discharge. Leaving a chocolate muffin! The sicky feeling sounds like a good symptom though.
Difficult to say whats the best thing to do about your scan. Nice of your doctor to offer a free one though. If the scan found bad news (which it won't!) would you still be able to fly and sort out medical treatment in England? Knowing things are OK might help you to enjoy your holiday more. I don't know.

Cornish Pasty cravings whilst you're in Dubai, that sounds like a good challenge for your DH

hello everyone,

gracie i am so happy for you and your bean, hopefully this will set your mind at rest a little. you were right that i am lurking, apologies for not posting or replying to anyone who asked after me. i am struggling with looking after myself so i selfishly (sorry) cannot offer any advice or comfort at the minute.

my first day back at work today, it was as ok as can be expected. 3 pg ladies in the same office doesnt help

does anyone know if you can get an infection after medical management? i feel a bit 'weird' and my belly seems swollen and hurts if i bend. should i see a doctor? is it normal?

Moon lovely to hear from you. You take your time, look after yourself, and lurk as much as you like. I'm not sure about medical management, is it worth a phonecall to your EPAU or ward where you had the treatment, its always sensible to get checked over. Well done for getting through your first day at work.

phew ok firstly gracie thank goodness, I am so pleased.

sorry not been here all day work suddenly went mad, like buses it all comes at once. I hate being out all day - wossie self employed desk slumper!

curly fingers tightly crossed.xx

barbie Thats a hard call on the scan, wish we could wrap everyone up in a huge bubblewrap parcel. supergran she will need a cape and spangly knickers.

jools that sounds like an excellent bit of planning and 40th plans too, I have only ever had the fish and chips from Rick steins takeaway after a grueling peddle along the camel trail. I think you have to book up months in advance to get into the restaurant.

mls I am sure that your dh will be fine with the invites, I exited the country on my 40th and went to Brittany it was fab. I did organise a big party for my dh which he remained totally unaware of until we got to the carpark and he began to wonder why everyone was there it was also fab. Whichever way you do it embrace your 40th and practice saying that you are 38 and you are going silver not grey

hoping lovin the thought of some sort of shake and vac freshener...
but after very productive research I am afraid that I think pre-seed may be a bit better in the gloopy stakes
It does sound like you are taking a very healthy and brave attitude this month no matter how long it lasts.

neeko oh how I miss the terrible 2s! let her have a suitcase to put things in, she can practice for a week or so!

iggy the holiday countdown you so deserve a lovely time it will do you the power of good.x

4ever oh dear oh dear I know you won't read this till you get into work -i felt awful on reading your posts not to have been here all day. I am hopeful that the large bucket of wine has numbed the pain a fraction.
I have found that the pregnant women I know who know my situation are not in general very good at even looking me in the eye. It kindda makes me feel as though they think I could pass my mcs onto them like its a cold or something - does that make sense.

blue the pollen seems high this year, the picture of your eyeballs in a fridge is very descriptive of hayfever torment you poor woman. a lovely warm bath might help maybe?

yippee again gracie