Emmsy's onwards and upwards part five.....white coats and pee sticks at the ready for more BFP's

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Here we go a shiny new thread.....

Wow long post MLS, sorry you've been having a stressful time with your DD and DH. You have a good rant, I'm sure it will make you feel better. Its me and DH's going on first date anniversary today - 5 years!

Jools get outside in the sunshine with your solero!

Thank you for everyone hands to hold tomorrow, I might squeeze them a bit tight. I'm not really sure how I'm going to cope with it all to be honest. I'm probably going to drive DH mad!

Kate's just rang me we're off out on a Dolly walk, I'll soon find out if she's been lurking as she'll give me grief about not telling her I booked a scan.

Neeko and MLS are your DD's comparing notes do you think?? Maybe there's a DDnet like Mumsnet and they're comparing ideas.

gg we had our 5 yr first date anniversary two months ago Where you off to? Dinner?

Iggy we're going to a country pub for dinner I think. Don't want to go anywhere I might bump into someone I know with me being off sick.

The scan place have just rung and moved my appointment to 2 hours later. Its now 3pm. Another 2 hours to wait.

Gracie is talking to herself again.......

Morning gracie sorry you were up again. Hope the time flies til 3pm. I'll be thinking of you.

Morning everyone. Will be thinking of you at 3pm GG Was it nerves or pain that got you on here talking to yourself last night ?

Morning! I have company at last! It was pain again, I don't think I'm nervous, just kind of blank... much like the last 4 weeks.

PS - I passed all your hello's on to Kate yesterday. I think she asked about every single one of you. She says she'll be back next week as she's testing on tuesday if AF doesn't come on monday

I'm not sure where everyone is hiding at the mo Enjoying the weather perhaps I'm stuck at a desk, pretending to work, so of course MN is far more interesting

Morning Jools
Self-preservation is a funny thing Gracie but you're doing wonderfully.

To distract you: My DD's terrible two's saga continues. Last night she ended up crying hysterically for 45 MINUTES because she wanted to go on holiday! There is obviously no way to reason with her as she is two and she eventually fell asleep exhausted. This morning she was up at 5.20 am and the first thing she said was "Are we going on holiday today?" We don't actually go until 2 weeks on Saturday and I may be committed to an asylum by then!

I've been reading this thread and laughing a lot but also a bit - it could put off a broody first timer, especially with all the smearing poo up wall stories

Neeko I think your DD is only doing what we want to do but can't cos we're adults. I think Mermaid might try it later if everyone keeps mentioning holidays! If you're committed to an asylum we'll all come and visit you, and probably be kept in ourselves so you'll have good company.

Yes Jools MN is much quieter just lately. I guess Barbie isn't around as much, Cupcake's on holiday, Bluemoon is just lurking I think, MLS has been on holiday, MrsKate is taking a break. I'm sure there's some others we've lost too.

hmmm holidays

Just checked and I have 19 more days to take before the end of the year. Now I know I'm not going to need this year's entitlement to bolster maternity leave, I can plan more time off

For starters, I think I'm going to start organising a nice weekend away for my 40th in November

Sounds good Jools Where do you think you'll go? My DD would be willing to come with you!

I like the thread busy but it's much easier to keep up with everyone when it's quiet.

Oh I really hope Kate gets her BFP on Tuesday.

I actually quite fancy a trip to Mermaid's part of the country

We were in St Ives for my birthday last year and I loved it. Am thinking somewhere near Padstow, with a birthday lunch at Rick Stein's bistro ....

Your DD would be very welcome - I need some practice at parenting

Sounds like a plan. A fellow control freak can recognise when a plan is required I think you need a trial run before November though. I'll have her packed by tonight

Have read the first 4 pages of that thread and laughed til I cried. Saving the rest for later. Thanks so much for that. You've made me feel naormal(ish) again.

Gracie Read that thread. It'll give you something else to freak out over between now and 3pm.

Morning Neeko & Jools... It is quiet in here lately isnt it?

Gracie was thinking about you & your scan for the last few days, everythings crossed for you hon.. Sticky thoughts for you sweetie.. xx

Barbie Hope you are resting & relaxing as much as you can..

Mermaid you are such a lovely lady & must of sensed my very vibes yesterday...

Well. Im fighting tears here, dashed to loo, composed myself & another throwaway Pg comment & im fighting them again. Just very very low, girl next to me due in 3 weeks & woman opposite us has just become a gran (at 45 to teenage daughters kid) so untold babytalk. Then another girl started showing her sisters new baby pics, hence 1st dash to loo. Spoke to mate yesterday who dont know she has my 2nd edd in sept & ex pg manager with no 4 edd in sept was rubbing her growing tum & waving at me this morning. I just want to fall on the floor and sob.. Af the *&%((" bitch came yesterday. Im so desperate to get pg & now wondering if its gonna happen or not. Im also scared of whats happenin with work as my 'be pg & milk it plan' maybe fading as new role/location would be in oct.. Dont even let me get started on the window saga, its like something from a carry on film, but not funny.

Sorry, was fighting tears so hard & feel so low I just needed to vent.. xx

AWW 4ever that's so crap It will happen honey. I'm certain of it. Everything will work out the way it's supposed to and when your lo arrives he/she will be the best lo ever because that's what you deserve. I wish I had a magic wand to take your pain away. You've been so brave and strong through all this. Huge virtual hug coming your way.

4Ever - Dr Jools prescribes and early finish and a tub of Ben and Jerry's ice cream in the garden, washed down by a vat of pinot grigio. We all know we can get pregnant - our bodies are in charge and will do it when the time is right x x

Thank you so much Neeko my eyes are full up & am trying to hide my face under my hair. I am sobbing my heart out inside feeling your hug & now have to run to loo cos really cant hide it anymore & they are streaming down my face now Love you girls so much xxxxxxxxxxx

x post with you Drjools I will take your advice. Iv re-composed after loudly sobbing in the work loo, followed by more sobbing to DH at work. I dont even do this when I MC. Im just unbelievably emotional. Just as I dry my eyes and compose myself, the slightest comment is setting me off again. When my dad died I said I felt I wasnt/couldnt grieve/cry, my best mate said it might be cos if I started I probably wouldnt be able to stop again, thats what this is like. I guess 2yrs of supressed emotion has just bubbled over... I think im past the worst of it now tho, my eyes are red & cried out I think. Gonna try my damndest to switch off & get on with work. Might lurk but if I dont post dont worry... Need to get my head together xxx

4ever its so crap, everyone else seems to get pregnant when they want and have no problems at all with the pregnancy. Another virtual hug coming your way. Blame hayfever for your red eyes.

Neeko, I have this bizarre picture in my mind of you trying to wrap your DD in brown paper and post her to Jools. I think she'd give the postman a shock!

It takes a long time to catch up with you girls... phew I'm knackered

4ever you poor love, it's hard enough without people rubbing it in all the time at work. I think the grief does build up, on top of all that longing and hoping and pressure of getting pregnant within the month. Listen to Dr Jools, you need some me time. How about pulling a sickie or at least leaving early and going home and enjoying this sunshine? It is going to be okay honey just hang on in there and in the meantime I have lots of hugs and hairstrokes for you xxx

gracie I wish this pain would go away and you could get a decent nights sleep. I'll be thinking about you today and holding your hand xxx I'm seeing the consultant tomorrow so just one day behind you Please pass on my love to kate

VJ I'm so excited for you finishing work and glad the iron tablets have kicked in What are you planning to do for next 9 weeks?

mermaid how is the bd'ing going? (god what a weird and very personal thing to ask someone?? ) What is this Zestica stuff? I loved your humpffing yesterday, had a great picture in my head of mermaid stomping around the south west coast looking for trouble

mollie I don't blame you for having your head in the sand Here's a hand to hold till your scan next week though I'm sure everything will be fine. Would you consider getting a little doppler so that you can reassure yourself when you need to?

annie I'm so sorry about your dad, the little boy and all of your losses. It's been a really rough time for you, I just hope that this is the start of happy times for you with a lovely lo to look forward to. It doesn't mean you forget, but hopefully time will provide some healing.

Neeko you are such a sweetheart, I'm glad we've got you back. I'm always in need of mothering I've discovered I can keep down lucozade now though so hopefully will get this MS under control before it completely wears me out. It's definitely the best diet plan I've ever tried - though I have no idea how bulemics do it - ugggg I like the battle plan for this month. Let's have some BFPs

jools What a lovely dream, I can't wait till it comes true for you

barbie I'm still smiling over your news I hope you are taking it easy Will they give you any more scans for reassurance? I'm with you on the twinges. There is some very odd poking and tweaking going on in my tum

iggy sounds like your job is perfect for pregnancy, though I suppose getting a different more stressful one would be a surefire way to get up the duff immediately

Sorry about BFN and AF baking, next month has got to be the one

Btw cupcake is having a lovely holiday and passes on her love to you all

hoping don't give up honey, we all feel like that sometimes Hope things are starting to look up xx

YAYYYY MLS is back. What a fantastic rant I particularly like the merging of arse with face to describe DH. Have to agree, god they are annoying sometimes aren't they? Hope things have calmed down for you and you resisted the temptation to turd the envelope (I'm going to use this expression from now on) Don't worry about the weight loss, I've lost a few pounds and the doc doesn't seem worried

Moon are you doing okay? I've been thinking about you a lot and hoping things are getting a little easier xxx

Lots of love to everyone I haven't mentioned xxx

4ever am so to read your post... I think AF is an especially bad thing for us lot... I was in tears on Friday when I was a day into mine and couldn't stop crying and am really not usually a tearful person. I am hoping that this month will be your month because you deserve it to be - have a hug from me xx

curly have you got a scan booked for tomorrow? Hope MS is manageable today?

gracie will be thinking of you at 3pm x

to all!