Emmsy's onwards and upwards part five.....white coats and pee sticks at the ready for more BFP's

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Here we go a shiny new thread.....

moon sorry lovely lady the infernal x post, that's cos I take ages to write them, wander off foraage in fridge, spend 5 minutes looking for corkscrew and then realise its a screw top etc etc.
Ring first thing and check with your hospital, are you getting any discharge or anything, feel hot or still dizzy.
Today must have been really hard and exhausting with the pregnant office. Heaps of love to you both.

thank you gracie and mermaid i didnt know who else to ask. i will see how i am in the morning, maybe i've just done overdone things today. i don't have any other symptoms than just feeling a bit crap and a swollen tender belly. i'm not concerned about pain or anything, i'll go through whatever i have to, i'm just worried about my future fertility.

had a huge meltdown last night, i think which started off with me realising i was going back to work and cuz me and dp had a few arguments over the last day or 2. i sobbed for ages and ages, i think poor dp thought i was in pain, i was inconsolable. how i ever managed to go to work on no sleep is beyond me. i'm worried im not handling this very well...

sorry for the me post, i hope everyone else is doing ok, i think of all you all the time xx

rule No.1 there is no rule on how you handle this.
No2. You are never to feel guilty, self absorbed or pathetic.
No.3. It is just when you have to go back to work and be 'normal' that the reality really sinks in.
No.4 crying is in my book a good thing unless in the pregnant office from hell and you have to pretend you have hayfever.
I reckon if we bottle it all up it just comes up and wallops us at a later date.
All the above is bloody hard when you just feel like a broken shadow of your former self I know honey and it is just sh*t.
But do check on your poorly tummy if it still hurts tomorrow.xx

mermaid you are so lovely i almost cried just reading your post. you would think i should already know all this having been through it once before. i honestly do not know how i got through it last time, i just cant seem to get going again. i know there are plenty of you who have done this 3 or more times and i just think you must be incredibly strong people. im just about ready for giving up at the moment

Moon you have a massive hug from me and some hairstroking. Take your time, cry as much as you want to, don't feel guilty. Listen to Mermaid she talks a lot of sense!

Mermaid I know what you mean about pregnant people not looking you in the eye.

I'm so glad I have you lot. Thank you everyone for your kind comments. There really isn't support like this anywhere else. We can be sad for each other and like today you are all happy for me; but unlike the rest of the world you all know I'm far from the safe zone yet and will all understand the mood swings and worries you all know I'll have for the rest of my pregnancy.

words are great for making us look strong, its always a different matter at 3 in the morning though. You are strong lovely moon and the sun will come back out again. Your poor body is going through all those awful hormone changes and you are mourning and the world hasn't stopped and everyone else is carrying on the same.

For me I have my ds and so I am trying slowly to get to the point where I am not missing out on what I do have because I was too busy trying to get back and replace that which I have lost. Ohh you can tell mermaid is in her cups! This rose is very good

aww moon hang on in there. This is the most horrible grim time but it will get better. I got hideous vomiting and diorhea (tmi sorry) when i had medical management, but the tummy thing you're descibing is a new one. NHS direct is a good place to go for advice on that kind of thing. and from what i was told medical management shouldn't harm your future fertility in any way, so don't worry about that and concentrate on looking after yourself.

gracie i am so thrilled for you! That is such wonderful briliant news! keep thinking sticky thoughts, and don't feel bad about having lots of scans - that is what they are there for

4ever keep being brave, you've got a whole bunch of hands to hold yours here.

iggy enjoy italy!

feeling for all of you with hayfever but it can be useful. Have been blaming it a lot recently becuase i don't want to explain the red eyes to my team. We're going through a massive re-organisation and knowing your boss is planning to bugger off soon does not make a happy and confident team...

mermaid seriously, what is zestica and pre-seed? if this mumsnet slang for something?

barbie sorry to hear you're working such long hours, but it sounds like this bean is a stick one!

curlee you can get crystalised ginger from places like Julian Graves, but some supermarkets sell it in hte baking section

hello hoping sorry, pre seed is supposedly a good lubricant to use which does not hinder/kill little swimmers on their to their destination. moolie or mm or both of them swear by it as do many other women I have read on here...who knows.
the air freshner one is a new rival version of pre seed so I thought I would road test it.
I don't know if these things work or not and aimed at mad women like us who will do anything like drink gallons of grapefruit juice etc etc they have a good market pitch.
I do like pre seed though but then I am of a certain age so things like this help
rightyoh lots of love have ot go cos poor dh has come in from work.xxx

Mermaid you have brought tears to my eyes & have so perfectly summed up the aftermath of a mc.

Moon you may have a little infection but it really won't be anything to worry about & will probably only need a course of antibiotics. Sending you hugs.

Blue get your doctor to prescribe Beconase. Its a nose spray that gets right to the heart of hay-fever fast & its safe in pregnancy. I use it twice a day.

Barbie I was going to say exactly the same as GG, if your scan show the worst WHICH IT WON'T (!!) then can't you get something sorted out in the uk? Orange discharge???

GG So pleased you for, I just knew it would be good news!

Hoping I used pre-seed after mc & was pregnant in third month. It's actually supposed to help sperm to swim to the right place whereas I believe ky jelly acts as a bit of a barrier.

Neeko where are you at?? I know it's your night for bd'ing tonight, are you still lying there with your legs in the air?

Sorry for scant posts but it has taken two hours to put dd to bed tonight - an all too familiar story this week. I'm feeling knackered but at least I've reached an entente cordiale with arseface!

hic

Oh yes Mermaid when people ask my age I'm going to say I'm almost 39....... well 40 is almost 39 isn't it??

I don't know why but I really hate odd numbers hence 38 its a lovely number wish I had appreciated it more at the time.
Sorry to hear dd is takig a time to get back into routine, rest lots.xx

Evening all you lovely ladies x. Hope your all ok tonight gracie congratulations on your scan so pleased for you. Barbie am sure the scan will be fine and will give you the reassurance you need before you come home. Moon hope your feeling a bit better if pain still there go and see your Dr to make sure you are ok. 4ever I feel for you had a bad few days myself so know how you feel am thinking of you sending you a virtual hug. Mermaid enjoy the wine x had a few bad days when af came guess I had thought this was the month more than I had thought! Especially as one of my friends had a baby girl today beautiful baby but drank and smoke all through her pregnancy and had doubts about even wanting the baby right up to this week! Sorry if that sounds bitter but its hard. Ah well tomorrow off to a 40th party so going to crack open a bottle of champagne with my friend while we are getting ready x. Love to all I have missed x

Evening all! pace pace pace........

Curly have my hand to hold for your scan.

GG Fantastic news on the scan
Curly Good luck for today
Barbie Orange discharge? My poor DH has been on a sex ban for the last 15 wks Have you decided which scan yet?
4ever Huge cuddle coming your way

Just to say I am lurking away, but had more spotting, heavier this time and lasting longer so keeping my head down, went to doctors again yesterday couldn't hear audible hb but they got the signal and it showed the heart rate which was all OK. My scan is next Thursday but as you can imagine I'm a massively a little bit anxious I know its common for people to spot at different stages but you know what its like for us damaged goods

Hi all

ok, breathe. Head together. I had some spotting this morning. Was in a panic earlier but feel a bit calmer now. Dh on way back from work & we have to go to the epu between 10-10.30.

Mollie here's my hand, we can crap ourselves together.

Just got in to work MLS so you beat me to it. Off now to check what wrong with Mollie Sending all you pg girls very sticky thoughts.

Thanks Neeko x

I'm so scared, it was only a tiny amount of blood but what if this is the beginning of the end? They might find a heartbeat today but not next week. Feeling really sad now.

MLS I know exactly how you feel, and unfortunately nothing I can say will make you feel any better or think more positively. As I mentioned before we are "damaged" goods now which means that all we do is fret and worry. Will be thinking of you x

Mollie I'm running out of hands but have a foot to hold. I have everything crossed for you.

MLS Heart still in my mouth. Any more blood?

Moon Please go to docs and get checked out. Better to be safe than sorry. Thinking of you. I echo mermaid there's no right or wrong way to do this.

Barbie I've never heard of orange I'm sure it'll all be fine. My vote is to go for the scan.

Mermaid"I am trying slowly to get to the point where I am not missing out on what I do have because I was too busy trying to get back and replace that which I have lost" You are such a wise lady.

Blue Did you watch it? it was ace. can't believe they are making us wait to find out what happens.

Sorry for those I've missed. Work is calling. I will lurk though.

If positive thought can do anything your beans will be ok. It's not fair to have suffered already and have to worry again.

No more blood but I keep checking, I'm going to have a chafed hoo-haa at this rate!

I've very nearly run out of loo paper