Emmsy's onwards and upwards part five.....white coats and pee sticks at the ready for more BFP's

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Here we go a shiny new thread.....

Sorry girls, didnt mean to make you cry!

Barbie know how loved you are by us, take as much time as you need, but just dont do a Villagemum on us ok? Do we have a deal? xxx

Really do understand that for some of us MNing can be a little obsessional, but if we wernt MNing we would prob still be obsessional! Iv thought what Id say if I got caught at work 'well you can let me do this, or you can let me have a day off each week to go to counselling'. For me, this is the best counselling service you could find. It takes away the feeling of being alone and misunderstood, even if we are surrounded by people in RL. It gives answers to our queries without googling and getting really freaked out, it brings tears, but it also brings laughter. Most of all it brings hope.
I guess its just about balance tho. As I said the other day I dont MN at home, I keep it for work. If I was home all day no doubt it would be a diff story! All I know is that I couldnt have coped without it and I love you all so much and Im not going anywhere so please lets not have an exodus! Neeko you are so blessed to have your DC & understand you wanting to focus on what you already have for now. Even after MC2 I thought 'stop getting hung up on the desperation to be PG again and enjoy being a newlywed!' Its so all consuming it does make you forget what we already have, but only temporarily so no need for guilt please girls!

Anyway I shall just transfer my preachers hat for the white coat for a min - Jools, Curly answered, but yep, karyotyping/chromosome tests are just bloods for you & DH. Results on average 6-12w. We were very lucky that it was done in Fetal Meds as no3 had massive nuchal fold & likely chromosome issue so were already being monitered by them, when we had another scan to see progress/have amnio or not, hb had stopped so they did the chromosome test on us there & then & it was back in 10 days! I was then freaked by rcmc clinic who refused to believe we had it done already cos normally results are nearly 3m, cue sobbing to fetal meds to check it really was clear! In general ladies, hospitals communication levels are rather dire arent they?!

Anyway, before we need part 6 I'll shut up!

i think i need to start temping.

i am so fed up today. fed up of rollercoaster. fed up of waiting for period or lack of. have four days to wait until am due. feel like utter shit. 5lb overweight, bloated, sore boobs and very bad mood, all classic pmt signs, but i haven't had pmt since i miscarried.

so i'm fairly sure i'm not preg. but equally am probably just saying that not to tempt fate as I so want to be.

I just wanted to echo what 4ever says. I couldn't have got through this year without the miscarriage thread and this one. I would probably have needed counselling without it. It gives me a place to be obsessed without driving my friends and family round the bend and worrying my DH to death! I can't access MN at work and don't have a posh internet phone so its strictly for home, though my DH works away so that is ok. No where else could I get answers to all my queries from true experts and get hope from those who have made it to big pants having gone through similar experiences. No one on here makes me feel like the nervous wreck I so obviously am!! Nor patronises me for being so worried.
I certainly wouldn't have had so many laughs whilst TTC without this barmy thread teaching me to laugh at myself either.

Thats spot on timing and great to hear Gracie! I just had a lurk & a bit at my ramblings of last post & thought have I gone too deep here & scared everyone away?!?! We do all feel like that tho dont we?!? The truest bestest bit is the fact that we can all laugh with each other & at ourselves even in the darkest times! Glad you're staying put hon & you feel the same! xxx

For the record I feel the same but still need to distance myself just for a wee while. You have kept me sane and made me not feel alone. I just need to brave it on my own right now and get some balance into my life again. I'll be back before you know it.

Ok Neeko don't stay away too long else I'll be after you!

Sophable I think some of the others have used temping to help them gain a bit of control of whats going on.

4Ever stop worrying we don't scare off that easily!

So who's got some good news for us??

I think it was Iggy's challenge last time we all felt so down, to find something today that made us smile. I think that was before she started the eated mini milks craze!

Gracie is off to the shops to buy Iggy's magic cheering up Mini Milks, anyone want some?

I haven't moved on to Mini Milks yet - am still on Soleros - yummy AND low fat - highly recommended

Hmmm good news ?

Scales dropped another pound this morning - in 9lbs, I will be overweight rather than obese

I think my back is improving slowly - can walk without pain today !!

The sun is out

Tomorrow is half way to the weekend

I have post ov boob growth, and am loving my C cup cleavage

omg i cant beleive how upsetting the last days posts have been

just got up from nights and first thing i did was come on mn and dh is looking at me funny beacause im crying .

barbie i am so sorry this is happening to you again . lots of love and big hugs dont stay away to long xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

omg i cant beleive how upsetting the last days posts have been

just got up from nights and first thing i did was come on mn and dh is looking at me funny beacause im crying .

barbie i am so sorry this is happening to you again . lots of love and big hugs dont stay away to long xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

bit of a sad day on the thread today

totally understand the need to stay away barbie and also neeko come and go as you like - people will still be here if you ever feel like popping back xx

Is so nice to have everyone here to worry with - i don't talk to anyone else about any of this

gracie it was lovely cupcake that suggested the good news last time - although I don't deny the mini milk bit!

Good news from me... um... I have a 4 day week this week and am nearly off on holiday.

Still no AF tho!!!!

My good news is im going home for the day so will stop rambling & filling the thread up!

Have a good evening all of you! See you soon Neeko ((((((((waves)))))) xxxx Big HUG for Barbie if you are lurking xxxx

Good news????? I got some iron tablets prescribed to me today because my iron levels are so low, so in a few days time I will feel loads better again, hows that?

I'm trying to be happy here but so sad for barbie, and neeko going too, I do understand your needs though my lovelies.

good news? um I have got masses of tomatoes growing away and my peppers are looking rather classsy and my chillis are on a growth spurt.
and I burnt off a clio I just had too.

vjay no wonder you have been feeling so tired you will probably soon be doing bionic bounces

kate sleepy lady how is the hole in your house, I hope its neearly all back to normal.

iggy sweetie how about a little test just a tiny one in the morning, can I tempt you? 4 day week sounds ace though.x

I managed to go through 2 mc in rl and they were far worse than the last 2mc which I have had since finding all of you.
Occasionally I reflect on all of this and think I must be a little mad or missing something vital in real life.
but take yesterday my mum going on and on about my wonderful little niece who is indeed wonderful but also as old as No.2 would have been. People move on we have to of course to keep sane, I understand and do it myself in other situations. My mum, sis, friends etc don't ever ask if I am ok anymore. And I am ok cos I have this place.
gracie is correct in that it is excellent therapy.
neeko is so right its balance, vital in everything, except where chocolate and tiger beer is concerned.
I just remember lying in hopsital on a drip thinking of you all, talking to consultants and having to stop myself saying 'but jools said so and so'

right I have also written an essay, have lit a candle to burn brightly for barbie and her dh cos I think every little bit helpsxx

mermaid i could do another tomorrow... But will prob be BFN like today... Don't know what going on, unless i ov'd around day 23? But then would have to be sat before i could test? Sorry on mob, not sure how this will come out! You are so right tho about this being the place you can still talk about this stuff. In rl most people don't know and those that do don't ask now X

Barbie i am sooo sad for you

Neeko totally understand where you're coming from, we love you lots, come back soon

hope everyone else is ok, i feel sad after all your posts. i'm still not doing so well, which is why i've stayed away the last couple of days.

Just been catching up on the posts Barbie and Neeko, take good care of yourselves and dont stay away from us for too long.

Moon-Thinking of you too hun X

Love to everyone, no time to do a proper post as going to bed now, didnt get my day off today as been on a course all day, back to work tomorrrow.
All okay my end, have really bad lower backache, the pain is radiating down the backs of my thighs, rang midwife yesterday, she said its fine, not to worry, go in and see her if it gets worse.

barbie can't believe how life is treating you at the moment, and also understand your need to step away too - we'll all be thinking of you, and we may need to borrow the barbiemobile at some point . You will be very much missed though, in many ways you have been the life and soul of this thread, and you have lifted my spirits on many occasions so thank you from the bottom of my heart.

neeko I really understand where you are coming from too, and your post really struck a cord with me. I don't post nearly as much as some of you girls, but I do lurk here and elsewhere on MN (and other fora), and the guilt of 'ignoring' my family is often overwhelming. However I have received so much support, especially here, that on balance I think it has actually helped my family relationships. Please just take a break though - and come back soon!

4ever that's powerful stuff, and so true. Of anyone you so deserve your ray of sunshine and my heart is with you every step of the way.

Jools the weight loss sounds so positive, you'll be a yummy mummy before you know it. Liking the sound of sexy kecks too - you'll enjoy them just as much as DP, it's a great feeling to be wandering around with gorgeous underwear on underneath, like you have a totally delicious secret - it puts a smile on your face. Good luck for the blood tests.

Gracie I'm so glad that the news is good so far. Really hope you get some relief from your back pain though. I went through absolutely the worst back pain at the same time as my mc, not a symptom (but preganacy hormone related I think). It took months of physio to get better - I could barely walk at the time, so I really symathise. I would recommend ante-natal yoga if you can find a class - my back is so much better since starting despite a nearly 6 month bump.

moon sorry to hear you are finding it difficult, please don't let the sadness today bring you down even further. Emmsy's are here for all the ups and downs that life throws at us, and we can weather it all together.

sabs welcome back, glad Rome was fun. Can't wait until we fly to Pisa on Sat, a visit to Rome is on the cards. Am a bit worried about the 30 degree heat though - I don't do hot very well. And our cottage doesn't have air-con, but it does have a (shared) pool . That's my good news for the thread.

Love to everyone else too, think we all need a hug today, so here's a big one for everyone
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moon i've been hoping you would post soon. So sorry you been feeling bad. We are all here for you. Whenever you want. Also same for barbie and anyone else x x

Helloo ladies sorry just been catching up and had a bit of a cry at the lovely things you have all said. Barbie I am so sorry for all that has happened to you there are no words to convey how sorry I am I understand why you feel the need to stay away but I will miss you and your support I am thinking of you and your dh x. Understand why you want some time Neeko please come back when your ready you will be missed x. Know this might sound soppy but am so glad I found you all don't think I would be together in real life without the support on here I lurked on this on the emmsys thread on miscarriage section for ages before I posted you helped me realise I was not alone with these thought and worries you have taught me more about conception than I ever knew before! I am so honoured to be on this thread and to call you all my friends x going to stop now before I make myself cry all my love to you all x x z

Morning (ish) everyone!

My abdomenal pains woke me at midnight, 2am and 4am again. My GP appointment is today we'll see what he has to say about it.

Barbie thinking of you. x

Jools Soleros sound pretty good too, might get some today. Good to hear your back is improving.

Mermaid I had to stop myself from mentioning you lot in hospital on friday, people must wonder how my friends have such odd sounding names!

Moon I'm pleased to see you are still lurking and keeping your eye on us. We're here if we can help.

Annie you take it easy with your backache.

Iggy I wonder where your AF is hiding.

BakingQueen hey don't make yourself cry, we love you too!

MrsKate your night shift is nearly over, time for another Dolly the Collie walk!

Lion thanks for the advice about pregnancy yoga, I'll look to see if I can find a session.

Vjay I hope those iron tablets are working their magic!

Hey 4ever you not rambling and filling up the thread can't be good news! You keep on rambling! Though I suppose we'll let you have finishing work to go home to your DH as good news!

Hello sleepy ladies

So here is the deal.....told dh last night about stepping back from mn for a while, he was

He seems to think that you are all very special and are just the people i need right now (plus it gets him off the hook )

I have made a deal, i will limit my time on here and if dh is home then i wont spend time being a recluse on the computer. I have to take a step away while i go home if only to give my family the time they deserve and im not up for taking about what has just happend. Im fine, back pain is horrendous but im glad it all started sooner. (sorry if that seems cold but it my way of coping for now)

So i will carry on as normal, talking utter crap and nonsense

Taking the rest of the week off and planning on topping up my ever fading tan....

gracie how early were you up! Sorry to hear about the pains hope your GP appt goes well.

barbie so glad you going to stick around. x

No AF did anyone else have this with their second AF after MC?

And I off to dentist today - and am petrified.

Barbie I'm so pleased you're back. You know I had a similar conversation with my DH last night (started by him), he was asking who you all are and he thinks Mumsnet is a great idea. He thinks the same as your DH about it getting him off the hook!

Please don't think you have to be cheerful all the time (we won't believe you!)

Glad to hear you're going to be spending your week usefully by topping up on your tan!!

Poor Iggy! I never used to be that keen on dentists, but my NHS one closed down a few years ago so I had to register with a private one and he's gorgeous!!!! It makes it so much less painful!

My AF's did the opposite after MC and started coming much sooner, sorry!

Yay Barbie welcome back! I shall be looking forward to the utter crap & nonsense v much! Bless DHs for their support of MN & understanding our nether regions and their workings so intricately, but we just cant compare ewcm & poas with them can we??! DH nearly phsl at poas btw! Happy tanning my lovely lady, chill, chill & more chilling for you! xxxx

Gracie my sweetie, you poor thing with this damn pain.. Really hope the docs can help out, that was a ridiculously early hour! Thanks for doing that last night as well hon! xx

Oooh Iggy my DH the same, he's petrified bless him! Really need to go myself of course its all free when PG, but then you cant get the x-ray can you? Good luck tho!!! xx