Emmsy's onwards and upwards part five.....white coats and pee sticks at the ready for more BFP's

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Here we go a shiny new thread.....

Thinking of you barbie, stay strong xxx

Oh god Barbie this is so very unfair, I was thinking about you this morning as well.. You sound very grounded, I will still pray that things work out tho, but as you said we generally know our own bodies.. A TV scan would answer things straight for you tho rather than being in limbo & honestly they dont make it worse, iv had untold of them now... Im so sorry if this is happening again honey - heres a big hug for you & DH.. We're here when you need us xxxxxxx

Morning Mermaid! Not so sunny after hearing about Barbie ... Dont go terrorising the cornwall(?) coasts with that white van now lady! x
Gracie glad you were up & there for Barbie but not glad that you were obviously wearing your carpets down again in the wee small hours - really hope things sort themselves out v soon... x
Jools sounds like my average day, coffee, MN, work, MN, work, MN!!!
Sorry to hear the temps dropped Neekothenotsostrangeafterall wonder what your cycle will do next month
Iggy damn that AF! Hopefully she will arrive soon and leave again quickly!
Vjay morning lovely lady x

I know Barbies prob gonna steer clear but if anyone FB or tx her please tell her we love her & are thinking about her xxx

thankyou all for such kind words...

The pull of this thread is way to strong to give up, ill always be an emmsy's girl.

Ill be lurking and watching for good news but i just have to stay away from posting for a while. The thread needs good news.

Thankyou so much for the last year, yes its really 11 months and two weeks since i found mumsnet and some of the best people ever. I prey that you all get the outcome you deserve, such kind, caring, loving ladies that you are. You will all make such wonderful mummies one of these days.

If you move to other thread can someone please link it to my facebook inbox? im going to give myself until i get back off my holiday towards the end of july and then ill be back to hopefully some good news and some fab scan pics!

All the best and thanks again, you girls are fab

Barbie you are a brave courageous lovely lady and although will miss you soooooooooooooooooo much if you take a break, we totally understand... Just remember tho, if you have those moments like we all do, that no-one in RL quite understands, we are here to support you through the dark times as well as the good... V glad you are back in the UK for a few weeks soon & can see your mum.. Please do try & keep us posted with the outcome, im still holding onto a glimmer for you sweetheart... Even if its relayed messages through other Emmsys via FB or tx... Like you say you are an original Emmsys girl through and through, it wont be the same without you for the next however long.. I just know that your time will come and you will also make an absolutely fantastic mummy too, keep holding onto that please... Love you loads hon, I think really highly of you & feel I have a bond with you, I been lurking since aug last year & first posted in sept so have been on this journey together & we will finish it together ok...?
There arent enough words to say what I want so just know that we love you & we are here for you always xxxxxxxxx

ditto

Through thick and thin, through joyous and bitter, through waiting and hoping and thats all there is to say. xx

Oh barbie I am so so sorry This is so crap I know how frantically worried you have been but we were all hoping for the best for you and your lo. I'm so glad you will be back in the UK soon and your lovely DH is looking after you in the meantime. I won't try and give you false hope because you know your body better than anyone and you have been through this before but I am still praying for a miracle for you.

Stay away as long as you need to but don't forget you are a massive part of the Emmsy's thread and we want you back here with us as soon as you're ready honey xxxx

Well said Mermaid

Barbie I can't add anything to what the others have said Mermaid that was beautiful. Take care of yourself, you know where we are however you are feeling. Enjoy your time back home in hopefully sunny England, will look forward to your return

Also 4ever your post made me cry at my desk

Just booked in with the miscarriage clinic for the genetics tests tomorrow morning - think it is just a blood test ?

DP actually reminded me ! I have to book it in because they book a taxi to take the sample to some specialist unit.

oh jools I'm a blank on that- mine were all blood tests though 4ever sadly is usually better informed and remembers more than I do.

mollie hope you are being good and resting, napping lots trying to look serene.

4ever yeah stop making us all cry.x

Jools it is just a blood test. I think they only analyse in certain hospitals like St Thomas's and have a timelimit to get the blood to the lab so hence the taxi!!

We had to wait about 8 weeks for the results though it does vary. Even though there's only a tiny chance that they'll find a problem, it is a massive relief to get the results back. I felt it was the kickstart that we needed to properly TTC because before then it was always in the back of my mind that there might be a chromosomal problem, if that makes sense

I can't help lurking and worrying about Barbie I just wish we could do something

curly knowing you are all thinking about me is enough, stop worrying, look after you and your bean. Im lurking and will never leave you all fully. I promise to be back, just need to repair the damage i have done in the last week with all the worry, i have to apoligise to dh for giving him a hard time and to make up to my parents for always being short when they call me, although im not going to tell them as they are off on holidays for two weeks and i dont want to worry them xxx

Oh barbie I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face at how brave you are I wish I could give you the most massive hug right now. Don't ever worry about bringing the thread, or people in RL down. That's what we are here for honey. We will all get through this together and I know that if it doesn't work out for me this time that I will need your hand to hold so here is my hand for you xxxx

anyone can always email me at [email protected].

Although if there is any news ill be here to read it, you see i just cant stay away

Tears a running here too, its so hard to leave but its something that i have to do if only for my sanity over the next few weeks and to spend time with dh and the family at home. You see i get panicky if i cant get to post and then feel guilty for not replying. So im going to remove some of that guilt and this time seems as good as any.

Nothing will go wrong for you, i said to gg i have taken the 1 in 3 chance of mc away from the two of you so now you can go on and enjoy your pregnancy.

Cheer up, love you lots xxx

Now you've set me off crying again Barbie, you're worse than 4ever I was so hoping the three of us would beat the odds this time

Love you lots too honey. Take care and don't expect us to forget you. We'll just have to let you go for a wee while so that you can get the old Barbie back but we'll be thinking about you all the while xxx

Barbie You are being really brave and FWIW I think it's the right thing to give yourself s little breathing space. This whole thing is all consuming and while it's great to have the support on here (and I really mean that)it can also help us to feed our obsession.
I too am going to step away from the thread a little. I'm in no way comparing my life and situation to yours. However, I stop in ten days for the summer and I'm worried that I'm going to miss precious times with my DD because all I can think about is having another lo and without noticing it happening I have become more and more addicted to talking to all you lovely lot.I was devastated when my temp dropped this morning and being this obsessed doesn't make me a good mum or wife. I don't want my DD to grow up thinking that mummy needs to check the computer before she takes me.... I will lurk too, but for now I'm going to be grateful for what I have and maybe TTC again in a few months when everything is less raw. Good luck to all of you. Take care and where possible count your blessings. I'm sure we all have many, but they are often behing the TTC cloud.

I'm sat here crying, I don't think I have much more to add, than Curly, Mermaid and 4ever have said before me. Like Curly says I too was all out for all three of us to beat the odds this time. Barbie you are very brave to not tell your parents and let them enjoy their holiday, I don't think I could be that strong. Barbie you are in our thoughts and will stay there. x x x

barbie i'm so sorry.

just want to reiterate that this thread is for support...you're allowed to post on here and be sad.

Neeko I understand your need for breathing space. I'll miss you! xx

sorry to be a total thickie but what does it mean when your temp drops?

Sophable I've never done temping before but I've picked up bits from this thread. I think from ovulation your temp stays high until sometime just before AF when it drops. I think its an early warning sign that your AF is about to start and you aren't pregnant. I'm sure one of the experts will be along to tell you properly at some point.