TTC after miscarriage Thread 14 🌈✨💕💙

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11 dpo and tested because I made myself a bet that I can get my nails done if it's negative. Back on the rollercoaster, at least for now 🤞

@MrsC2018 congratulations! I was just reading back through your post about what you’ve been through with the ivf and the losses. You’ve been through so much, I so hope this is the start of your happy ending

@Mannymoomin have you tested today?

@LuckyMoonstone thanks ❤️ we're all part of an awful club that nobody wants to join.

My grandma passed away at the weekend, I've asked her to watch over me and help me keep this one. Just praying I can stay sane and cope with being pregnant again.

@MrsC2018 sorry you lost your grandma ❤️

@MrsC2018 ahhh lovely so sorry about your grandma ❤️ congrats on that line though I'm sure she will be watching over you xx

I'm just about in my fertile window just in time for our weekend away it has felt like it will never arrive but almost at the TWW

@MrsC2018 amazing! Congratulations, praying this is a lovely sticky little bean for you xx

I got a virtually negative frer and not pregnant CB today, aside from the quick pang of disappointment I’m surprisingly at peace with it.
I ovulated a lot later than I normally would that cycle so I’ve made up my own theory that it was a defunct egg to begin with.

The plus side of being in limbo for 5 days is that I’m closer to fertile window, normal o is CD10-13 but almost always CD11.

@LuckyMoonstone @bringmearainbow thanks, she was poorly for a long time so genuinely a blessing for my poor mum and glad she is at peace now.

@Mannymoomin I'm really sorry, glad you've found a way to cope though. Genuinely think half the battle is just putting one foot in front of the other until you don't have to consciously do that anymore. Best of luck for this next cycle

@Mannymoomin just ugh but great you've found a positive from it xx

@MrsC2018 I'm sorry about your gran mine practically raised me and I miss her a lot. Congratulations on the bfp ❤️

@MrsC2018 so sorry about your grandma, losing a grandparent is horrible 😔
I’m sure she’ll be watching over you and this little one after all the heartache you’ve been through on this journey.
Will you carry on testing? It’s such an anxious time anyway and very hard to feel excited when you’ve had such a shit time, the fear of the worst overtakes what should be exciting

@MrsJGrealish thanks ❤️

@Mannymoomin I think I probably will, but to be honest for me the real worry will be the second trimester when you feel movements but not all the time, I'll be petrified from 14 weeks on really 😢

I'm going to call a different rainbow clinic and ask to go under them this time, I've lost 2 babies in the GAU of my local hospital I just can't face walking down that corridor again really. Does anyone know if I can do that? Just request for a referral to a different hospital of my choice

@MrsC2018 you can in NI, not sure about England if that's where you are xx

@MrsJGrealish I'm in England (can you not tell by me thoughtlessly not clarifying where 🙈) but thanks, hopefully it's the same.
I'll ask next week, I'm due a call by the consultant from my rainbow clinic in relation to the last miscarriage so will ask if I can be referred on for this pregnancy I think. I'm local to Manchester and Prof Heazell is renowned for his still birth/late loss research and is the consultant for the St Mary’s rainbow clinic so would very much like to get under him really. Just got to do something different from the last 2 pregnancies really to have any belief that I can actually get a baby from this pregnancy 🙏

@MrsC2018 well good luck lovely 🥰 you deserve joy 😊 I'd be very tempted to go private if I fell and actually made it past 8 weeks x

@MrsC2018 hopefully they are the same as hospitals in which case you can attend any you like. Def worth an ask

@Mannymoomin so sorry lovely ❤️ super big hugs at least your body knew early enough and your closer to O day xxx

So there's a bit of progression on the FRERs there, still just a shadow of a line on the cheapies and negative on the digitals which is annoyingly bothering me - I've never tested before my periods due before these last 3 months so always got a "pregnant" straight away 😭 is this normal for 12dpo do you think? Period due tomorrow/Sunday 😫

Ignore that last pic, that was from the chemical in November, this is todays and yesterdays. Can you tell I've been going back through hundreds of pictures of pregnancy tests on my phone reel?! 🙈

@MrsC2018 that's great progression lovely! What digital are you trying to use? 12dpo wouldn't be unusual to get a negative on a digi so try not to worry about that

@bringmearainbow thanks, I hope so! It's both a weeks and an ultra early digital so had hoped the early one especially would have shown pregnant but will just have to be patient and just see what happens I guess.

Urgh miscarriage robs you of so much 😢 I'd do anything to have my peace of mind back, my first pregnancy especially I just skipped to the scans excited, 15 years 2 miscarriages and a chemical later I just cry and worry 🤦‍♀️

@MrsC2018 I think that's good progression as well.
@Mannymoomin I'm sorry it's over 😔 hope you're feeling OK

@MrsC2018 congratulations lovely ♥️ I was really worried about line progression too as all of mine were quite faint but I think you’re is showing good stuff! There’s so much going on in your body, all chemical redactions working away ♥️ so hard not to let the mind take over though isn’t it - mc really does rob you of that!

Very strange one. I normally ovulate around 13 days after my period. Period ended two days ago and my ovulation tests - strip test is quite dark and the purple cleaeblue ovulation stick had a flashing smiley. This can't be right can it.

@Ella31 have you done a pregnancy test?

Yeah completely negative and I got a normal period so nothing out of the ordinary

@Ella31 did you do another PT today or just the one you did before AF showed up? Could just be your gearing up to O a bit earlier this cycle I think they can go a bit whacky after MC and I'm sure you can get multiple lh rises it might just be thinking about it but not actually happen. What CD are you on today?