Ttc #1 - cycle 7

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Really fed up of AF showing up month after month now 🤦🏼‍♀️ we've been taking the see what happens but dtd lots approach. But now going into month 7 so We've decided to use the clear blue opk's to see if it gives us a better chance. 🤷🏼‍♀️
Now to just wait for AF to disappear 😀

Any one else ttc #1? 😀

@AZ1992X that's good that he was very supportive and interested! Yeah they say miscarriage is more like 1 in 2 if people knew as lots aren't 'trying' and think nothing of a late period. Glad you're still positive 😁

@Amy259 yeah sounds like you're fw is finished but no harm in keeping going if yous want haha.

Nah I don't really get many symptoms at all any more. Day of period I expect it but it's not until I go to the loo and then I just know, wipe and it's there. Then I get the bloated feeling for the day but if I'm moving about it's no biggie. Yeah next month is the last of the soy I think. I don't think it's hindered anything which is good. We should be able to do it this coming months fw although his friends from London are up so we might have to go see them and stay at his parents making it awkward fw! Again though not hopeful in the slightest. SIL is due in less than 3 months now. Need to get her a present but she isn't asking for anything. It hurts looking at stuff. I've asked DH to find stuff but as usual he doesn't. If it's not babies and baby stuff then it's pregnant women everywhere! Was at a wedding on Saturday and we were speaking to a women in her 40s who was saying how 3 of her friends have adopted kids and how grueling the process was and that the parents get to write letters and they write to them too. She said 2 of the couples tried to get pregnant but just wasn't working so that was their only option really. They were mid to late 30s when they started. It's like great thanks... 😂

@Loops01 apparently no symptoms is a good sign… a healthy period should mean you don’t get PMS, cramps, pain, etc etc. Which seems wild to me given we’re always taught about the cramps 😂

That’s so tough, I don’t even like seeing pregnant people anymore never mind it being the in laws. I’m not sure I’d cope with adoption… but I guess maybe your mindset changes the further along the process you get? But it must be so hard for so many reasons.

@Amy259 yeah I lots all the symptoms after cycle 6 I'm assuming cos of eating better/better lifestyle. Have you been doing the acupuncture lately! I've got it every 2 wks. She was convinced it would help me get pregnant which doesn't really work if we aren't there to do it in fw lol but I find it nice and relaxing plus it's a nice chat with someone new every 2 wks lol. I've got 2 or 3 sessions left which should last until the end of next cycle/mid cycle after that. Not going to do it again after that. Too expensive for nothing. Just like all the other things we buy to help!

@Loops01 yeah I still go every two weeks. Because she’s a fertility specialist it’s so nice to chat openly about it all with someone really clued up on it all! She was a nurse before she did this full time, so she’s keen/knowledgable on the medical side as well as the holistic side and it’s bloody lovely! So yeah I do love going, but agree it’s pricy…

Haha mine was a nurse before too but thinks the NHS gives out too many drugs and doesn't treat the body only covers up the issues. Do you feel any different for the acupuncture? Body wise

@Loops01 nah I don’t think so, I wouldn’t say I feel physically any different. I’m not even sure what I’d be looking for 😂

@Amy259 I don't either haha. I've got it a wk today when AF should be finished.

Anyone else go onto insta often and do #7dpo etc? it always makes me feel rubbish but still do it!

And great as I type this (after bumming myself out with everyone's bfps) one of the girls I've not spoken to in over a year and a bit (just grown apart) msgd to say she had a dream I was pregnant and asked how I was. Sigh. I stopped speaking to her with I mentioned that we were struggling to conceive to one of her friends and she made a joke. Her other friend had a baby after struggling for 6 whole cycles and has her own Instagram where the baby etc is dressed up so much and she is sponsored by baby stuff cos of it. It's too much for me to deal with. But the girl herself hasn't done anything wrong but they are her besties

@Loops01 I don’t do that on insta, but I do sometimes look at TTC accounts (but don’t follow) and they all seem to have babies now 😂 so I try to avoid it.

It’s mental how many insensitive things people say without realising they could upset someone. Maybe I was like that before ttc? I don’t really remember.. but yeah I probably would’ve jumped to “surely she’s pregnant” if a newly married woman wasn’t drinking on a night out, or text someone if I had a dream about them etc, whereas now I’m so much more aware that we have no idea what people are going through.

Also on the 6 cycle thing.. I now find it the same on some threads on here, and it’s not fair on the girls because I felt the exact same 6 months in (like it had been years) but I struggle now with reading posts that contain sentences like “bfp after 6 long months, don’t give up girls!” 🤦🏼‍♀️ It doesn’t anger me just yet, but I feel a bit like oh behave, and so sad it wasn’t 6 “long” months for me!

Yeah I used to look at ttc accounts until they all got pregnant or went to ivf. Couldn't really relate. I wish it was 6 months. Would have been almost finished with pregnancy by now haha.

Defo out. 9dpo and took a test to to clarify/I have more tests than opks as the kits came with the tests and never needed them...!!

Hopefully you or @AZ1992X have more luck although I am worrying that there's barely any of us left! Already lonely enough 😂

@Loops01 how are you feeling about it - okay because you expected it, but still fed up?

I’m trying to stay positive but I find as the DPOs tick on I seem to get less hopeful. Probably because I’m waiting on a sign that doesn’t come 😂 I’ve got acupuncture today, a scan on Sunday, a call with the GP on Monday then hopefully private bloods if af appears. So at least I can focus a bit on upcoming progress.

Hope you’re all okay!

@Amy259 did you book a private scan? Sounds like you've a nice busy fertility week. I found things like that kept my hopes up.

I'm just numb really. The sadness and depression and disappointment is still there, that never goes away really. It's like taking an opk days after you've peaked and it's a low. It's just a nothing test now. It really gets me down because I was really excited and looking forward to all of the ttc and pregnancy and now I feel its all disappointing and even if I do get pregnant ill be worrying about whether it'll stick or if something goes wrong. I just don't see any hope or joy that others have who have gotten it so quick and don't know any different. It's upsetting but the only thing that can change that is me but then I dont think I can change it unless the whole ttc situation changes.

I met up with my friend last night who went through a break up and we are both in that same place of being very emotional and you pick yourself up and everyone says 'itll happen' or 'you'll find someone one day who you're meant to be with'. She's like that's fine, I know I'm not unlovable etc and that he is the issue in the relationship and I've learned a lot from it but when is this going to be right. When will I get to be with the one and marry. She's not oblivious to the fact that relationships take work and compromise and she's happy to do all that (it's the fact that he didn't that ended it all) but she has no hope that it'll happen and she's tried putting herself out there and changing expectations etc but nothing. She knows it might take time but how long is time. I feel like it's exactly the same as ttc. Youve realised its not at as easy, you try different things and nothing worked. You give it some more time and try to stay positive and do more and still nothing. It's just a lot of nothing.

Morning all,

Sorry I’ve been quiet it’s our busiest time of the year at work.

@Loops01 so sorry you’re out this month. Hope you’re doing ok ❤️

I’m out this month think AF may have just started this morning. This cycle is my shortest one yet - 27 days although not too worried as I ovulated much earlier too. Let’s just hope my next cycle is consistent and there not all over the place.

How are you doing @Amy259

Morning @AZ1992X - me too, crazy busy at the moment as we’re off on holiday on the 26th so cramping in lots of work before I go. Off to blood sample a load of cows in the Scottish Borders today!

Ahh sorry to hear, definitely af? Yeah here’s hoping for nice short, consistent cycles, that would be lovely. I don’t think af is due here until next weekend, so still a fair way to go. Undecided if I’ll test yet, I’ll see how crazy I’m going by next week haha.

@Loops01 I keep meaning to ask how you got on with the fertility therapist? Worthwhile?

Morning @Amy259 , least it’s keeping us busy hey!

I think so - my temp has dropped quite a bit this morning too. Guess I’ll know if I continue bleeding but pretty sure it is that.

Yup, let’s hope so 🤞, could get used to these shorter cycles as less waiting but only if they are consistent otherwise I’ll be stressing.

Glad you’re ok, let us know how you get on.
Tbf I was going to give in today if my temp was still high but it wasn’t then went to the toilet and noticed blood and was like wow I know it would be imminent but ok 🙈😂

@AZ1992X yeah definitely keeps the mind off it all!

Ahh okay. I hate the morning temp fear towards the end of a cycle 😂 My temp tends to stay high until the morning of af, rather than fall gradually like some, so even at 13dpo I probably won’t know.. which may lead me to test 😂

@Amy259 Well AF is in full swing.. I’m a little disappointed as actually felt very positive about this cycle.

Ah, yes I defo would be tempted by day 13 😂😂

@AZ1992X well we are twinning this cycle - AF for me too today. Just after 1pm which is the exact same time as last cycle. How long was your luteal phase this time? Its good that you had a normal ish cycle at least again. Back to more of a norm but yes it is sad when you felt positive about it.

Slight bloating and a headache for me which is somewhat normal but should pass by tomorrow.

@Amy259 never had a fertility therapist. I referred myself for counselling but still on the waiting list. Fertility appt is 2 wks today and acupuncture is this tue coming.

You'll have to keep me posted on scans etc!!

@Loops01 we always end up coming back to about the same time don’t we!

Sorry AF has arrived for you, I didn’t really Opk much at all so not 100% when I actually ovulated - it’s normally 11 days. I think it’s around that or it may be 10 days but that’s just a guess. What was yours this cycle?

Onto next month 🤞

@AZ1992X auch that’s rotten, and always a little sorer when it’s a cycle you feel particularly hopeful for - sending lots of love! Onwards and upwards.

@Loops01 ahh sorry, I thought you’d already been to the counselling. How are you feeling about the upcoming appointment? I think I’d be buzzing! Yeah I’ll definitely let you all know how Sunday goes, fingers crossed lining is nice and thick and no obvious issues. Maybe they’ll discover I’m actually 6 months pregnant…🙃🙃

Haha @Amy259 that would be great if that happened! If you get your pics then upload if you're happy so I can compare my insides to yours 😂.

Meh AF is AF. Symptoms have already eased with a nice wee water bottle. Tbf the lead up to AF is more emotionally draining cos I know that I'm just waiting for it to show up. I had a dream last night that I took a test and it was positive. It was surreal but I knew it was only a dream. They say that the opposite of what you dream of happens...!

Fertility wise I'm mixed. I was excited but I know now that it'll be more blood tests and waiting when I just want them to go here's some clomid or other drugs to try every months then once we have all the results back we will stick you on a treatment list. I can understand why folk go private.

@AZ1992X mine was the usual 10 days and day 11 AF appears in the afternoon. It is good that I'm back to regular.

Fingers crossed for cycle 13...unlucky for some haha. As if the other 12 were lucky 😂

@Loops01 I’m already on cycle 13 so here’s hoping it’s lucky! 😂

At least the appointment gets the next step out the way, progress is progress I suppose!

Happy Saturday girls!

I’m going to need to get my cycle to change to line up with you two @Loops01 @AZ1992X so we can all have the boring bits at the same time, and the tww at the same time 😂 how are you both?

I’m 8(ish) DPO and feel the same as I do every cycle around now, even my temps are exactly the same. So I’m not holding out too much hope!

Hey @Amy259 , haha! could you imagine if they all was 😂. They are all fairly close though which is nice.

I’m not too bad thank you - glad it’s the weekend! How are you doing?

It’s still early yet 🤞 - let us know how you get on the next few days.

I found it easier not holding out hope. It's still upsetting etc but you're more prepared for the fall.

I am cd3. Period the usual if slightly less heavy than last time? Will start the isos when home. Worked out that I've enough for this cycle (2 tabs) then next cycle will just be 1 tab on the days needed. Should finish all other vits by the end of this cycle. Also decided to get vaccine after this cycle.

@AZ1992X I’m okay thanks! Started testing this morning, bfn but I’m okay with that at 8/9dpo although a faint line would’ve been nice 😂 Weirdly I find testing hcg each morning less stressy than OPKs. Scan is at 12 today. How’s your weekend going?

@Loops01 your body will probably be grateful for the break from supplements altering its natural processes. Maybe give you a little reset!