Getting my hopes up again.. ttc sucks!!

[Mich2020]

Morning, I'm now 11dpo, been trying to conceive for 15 months now.. I feel like It's never going to happen. On the waiting list for a lap and dye for endometriosis and possible pcos. I've taken a frer this morning and a cheapie. I'm sure there's a hint of a second line on the frer and the cheapie has been left for a while so counting it as an evap line. I don't know how many more months I can feel like this. I thought this month was it. Anyone see a line on my frer??

I'm OK thanks- tired and feeling a bit sick but still all very surreal. Nervous about Friday but hopefully another hurdle crossed!

It only takes dtd once to work, but if you dtd today and tomorrow as well it can only help! I took mine til af was overdue but I think people say to stop once you've ovulated. I only took it the one month so I'm not 100%. Really hope its a lucky month for you!

Eek cant wait for an update.
Yes this is true. We managed to get one in today and maybe tonight and tomorrow morning. So hopefully all will be ok. I'll carry on taking it until I'm
Due on then. Thank you xx

Don't go off my advice for when to stop taking it, the only reason I carried on was because I didn't expect it to work lol. Best to check what the packet says just incase x

I'm going to take it today then stop I think. My cheap opk last night was definitely not positive. So strange. Hoping that the cb was right though. Maybe I only just caught it. I don't have any normal ovulation pains today. Only a bit yesterday. Will do another cheap one later, now my cb is stuck on solid smiley for another day.xx

Feeling pants today ☹️ I suffer badly with endometriosis and this morning just tipped me over the edge. We tried to dtd and my pain was just unbearable, I have been very (dry) down there for a while now, sex is impossible without lube. I had a breakdown, I got in a state and cried for a while and had a massive chat with DP about having a hysterectomy if we don't conceive within 3 years. The hospital did advise this 5 years ago but at the age of 23 then I didn't want to think about it. The symptoms are getting worse. I need my hospital appointment/op to hurry along. But with all this covid 19 going on I don't have much hope. Sorry to ramble on just feeling pretty crap today!

How are you feeling today? If it helps I used conceive plus gel and I use it as a general lube too as it's the nicest/ most natural one I've tried. Just a little bit goes a long way.

I've never had endometriosis but I've heard how horrible it can be so sending lots of love. Hopefully nhs services are starting to resume now so maybe you could get a referral to see what options there are before a hysterectomy? X

@Sammyclaire22 the pain isn't getting any better. I need to contact my gp soon I think.
Good luck for today. What time is your scan? Thinking of you xx

Yeh I would, better to get the ball rolling so as soon as clinics reopen you can get a review.
It was this morning, all in thr right place and a little heartbeat. Still feels very surreal as I've tried not to get my hopes up too far til today. X

Aww so pleased for you 😊😊 x

Hey, how's things?? I'm 5-6dpo I think today. Really weird felling quite tired and headachy with some niggly cramps. My boobs are not sore at all, very strange for CD19 looked back through my app and my boobs are always tender at this point. Trying not to read too much into anything this time and just let things be.
Didn't dtd as much as usual over FW so feeling a bit crap about that. But I know it only takes the once.
Hope your well @Sammyclaire22 xx

How are you doing @Sammyclaire22 xx

I'm OK thanks @mich2020, how are you getting along? Been feeling pretty rough the last couple of weeks but trying to see it as a good sign that all is going OK hopefully.
Are you nearing thr end of your tww? Xx

Not great. Endo playing up something chronic.. I've been in agony nearly all month.
Yes was due on today but my cycle varies some months. So am giving it till Friday until I test again I think now. As had a bfn this evening. But wasn't with a frer it was with a co op cheapie test.
Glad your doing well 😊 such lovely news xx

Aww I'm sorry to hear its still bad, I think some nhs clinics are starting to get running again now so could you speak to your gp for advice and maybe a referral? It might have something todo with last month being odd? I don't know much about endo sorry :( x

I may have to give them a call tomorrow. I've been really struggling. Dtd is so hard because my body knows it's going to hurt so it swells down below. Making it really hard for me to get 'wet' sorry tmi. Then it's really frustrating because it hurts so bad.
Yes this month could be a bit off because of last month. But I'm hoping I'll either come on today/tonight or obviously hoping for a bfp. We dtd a few times during my fertile period but not much more down to this endo playing up xx

Still no AF. Negative test on Friday and haven't tested since. I don't know if my cycle is longer due to taking agnus cactus or because of the weird cycle last month. I will order some tests tomorrow and then I should have a clear answer because I'll be at least 5 days late before they turn up. If negative then it's just my body playing tricks on me. Hope your well xx

That's really a mind scrambler... I'm so sorry. Does endo affect your cycles too at all? Are you sure on your ovulation date? I used opks and bbt to make sure i knew exactly when I'd ovulated and the month I took agnus it was actually a day or so later than normal for me. Really hope its good news for you x

No endo doesn't usually effect the length of my cycles. Usually very regular. I use the clearblue advanced opks, I don't temp. I have always known when I ovulate. I get awful pains during that part too 😩 last night I had some spotting and awful cramps. Then this morning thought I'd wake up to full blown period and still only pink spotting. The tiniest amount too. Will see how today goes. If no heavier after work I will place an order for some tests.xx

AF here in full force now 😩 into another cycle xx

I'm sorry @mich2020, how are you feeling now?

Hey @Sammyclaire22 how are you doing??
I finally have my operation date. Next Thursday 😬😬😬 hope everything is well your end xx

Hi @mich2020! I'm good thanks, finally reached the second trimester so feeling a bit less rough.
That's great news about your surgery, hopefully it will be more conformable for you and mean it's easier when your back on the ttc wagon! Will it be keyhole? X

Wow such amazing news @Sammyclaire22.
Still haven't given up ttc but it's getting more and more painful every time. Yes they do it keyhole, pretty worried as not sure what the outcome will be until I come round. Hopefully they can save my ovary 🤞🏻 xx

How did your op go @mich2020?x

Hey.
All went okay. He's removed all endo and unstuck my ovary. He put dye in my tubes to make sure there were no blockages which thankfully there wasn't.
I had a little bleed the day of and after the op. Then Sunday I started bleeding really heavily and it's still going now.
We did manage to dtd though 🙈 with no pain wahooooo. Awaiting some ovulation tests in the post and going to start a fresh from now and hope that the op has kick started something and fingers crossed there will be a baby soon.

How are you @Sammyclaire22 xx