Getting my hopes up again.. ttc sucks!!

[Mich2020]

Morning, I'm now 11dpo, been trying to conceive for 15 months now.. I feel like It's never going to happen. On the waiting list for a lap and dye for endometriosis and possible pcos. I've taken a frer this morning and a cheapie. I'm sure there's a hint of a second line on the frer and the cheapie has been left for a while so counting it as an evap line. I don't know how many more months I can feel like this. I thought this month was it. Anyone see a line on my frer??

I can see the line too....

You have had lines op, I could see them. Definitely test in a few days and good luck!

People can see something on the clearblue?? I literally can't see anything. Do you think it's worth testing in the morning? That's when AF is due I have a digital too xx

I could see it too without even opening the pic... and I am rubbish at these things. I don’t even comment on people’s uploads because I don’t trust myself but just wanted to say I can see something there... :/

Just to add that test was taken with my fmu which has been in a cup since 10am I don't know if that makes any difference or not xx

Yes!! I've adjusted the photo for you but for some reason Mumsnet won't let me upload any photos... don't use a digital yet. Order some FRER or try FMU. However, I get stronger lines later in the day after a few hours hold for some reason.

Oh it works through the browser....

My AF is due from tomorrow so I think a stronger line would show by now. I'm feeling out but with all your guys positivity maybe I still have a chance xx

@Mich2020 I hardly ever comment on anyone's post & before I saw all the comments about the ladies seeing a line, I saw your pic, & I immediately thought I could see a line too!!! 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

I've inverted it for you....

Wow you lot. Have got my hopes up even more lol. The urine was from this morning and it was taken about 8pm ish does that make a difference xx

I do wish people wouldn’t get the op’s hopes up in situations like this. I know they mean well but it’s cruel. The fact of the matter OP is that if your AF is due tomorrow then you should have a very clear line. You shouldn’t need to invert the picture. Especially since clear blue are notorious for false positives. Please manage your expectations if only for the sake of your mental health.

@Tabithha I didn't think I could see anything but I uploaded the photo thinking nobody else would either. I was so surprised when people said they could. I wish it was true. I couldn't think of anything else that would make me happy right now. I have been in tears all night because of the negative test. I don't know what hope I have anymore. Thanks for being honest xx

Oh bless you OP. I’m so sorry it’s not the result you were hoping for. I don’t want to be a killjoy but I think honesty is so important in moments like this. I just don’t want you to be too crushed tomorrow. I really hope you get a bfp soon. Please try and take care of yourself xx

ThAnks @Tabithha think my hopes were lost when I took the cb anyway xx

Done the other clearblue with smu this morning after a lot of thought about last nights. I can actually see something in person on this one. My thinking is if this is pregnancy and not a chemical these lines would be strong by now. Friday was my first test. It was very very faint but there. Now it's Tuesday. Do you think I should put myself out of misery and dip the digital??

I don't mean to be cruel but I think it is really wrong that posters are fuelling your hope. I know how hard it is OP but there are no lines on any of the tests you have posted. I really feel for you. TTC is so tough.

Thank you @poppet31 I've done the digital which states not pregnant so I am stepping away from all tests now. If I don't come on by Friday I will test again. There have definitely been some lines on the frer and this mornings clearblue there is a slight line. Thanks for your honesty 😊 good luck to you if your ttc xx

@poppet31 I think OP is aware that people see or not see things she sees. She's asking if people see it, some do, others don't. If I do I'm not telling her I don't. I'm also sure that OP is aware of risks of early testing and if she feels she wants support on this, then it should be up to her.

Ah yes well aware of the risks. It's been a long 15 months. This month definitely feels different than the rest. I have done the cb because I can't bare the thought of it being there in the packet. Just lack of patience lol. Yes I'm probably out. But I am one of these people who love looking through this site at other peoples lines or no lines. It's what people see isn't it. I wouldn't tell someone I seen it when I didn't. I know how heartbreaking it is. But I'm glad that I wasn't going mad with the tests I've posted as there was definite lines on the frers and the most recent cb which is sat next to me on the kitchen table at the moment. I will have to hold out. The last couple months my af had come on cd29 which is today. So we will see. My app says Friday though as my cycles were a bit longer before. Anytime between today and Friday and if nothing I will pop to the shop for a frer to see on Friday.xx

@mich2020 either way you are still very early in your cycle. Id ignore the digital as I doubt I would even get a response yet as they aren't very sensitive and I'm due Thursday. Unfortunately it's one of those things that only time will tell- I really hope it is that you have faint lines, there is plenty of reason why they might be faint as you are early and I can never tell on cb which is why I've not commented. I'm hoping you have some answers soon as I know how hard limbo can be xx

@Sammyclaire22 yes time will tell. Thank you for your kind words xx

@Mich2020 I'm exactly like you. I'd test every time I go to the toilet if I could. If there's a test in the house, I'll do it. It's almost an obsession combined with desperation for it to happen and be real. And once I've run out of tests, I get more 😅
It's tough and if you feel like sharing then do so. People don't always see the same things, and that's ok. You definitely have your head screwed on and know what you're doing.
Personally I've never had a faint line on a FRER if I wasn't pregnant. Yet it had to be quite strong to show on a cheapie or a digital one. I'm due early next week and I really don't want to test early this time, but god knows how that's going to work out....

Haha yes I'm the exact same it's a nightmare isn't it. I used a cheapie as well this morning. Thought I could see a shadow but not anything worth even posting as I think I just want it too much.
I did have a good line on a frer in January, it came up almost immediately then the next day completely negative, I believe that was a chemical. As bled not long after. I do think it puts so much strain on things and I wish I wasn't a serial tester, I only have cheapies in the house now and I am NOT going to order anymore expensive ones. At least not until Thursday if AF hasn't shown by then. I've checked my cervix this afternoon. I don't usually do it but read somewhere a high cervix around the time AF is due is a good sign. Well I can't even feel mine it's that high up. Do you track cervix position? How long have you been ttc?xx

This was the cheapie. I'm well aware that there's nothing there but I'd like to be able to upload so I don't have all these different pics of tests on my phone lol. One day I'll be able to look back and realise I was very obsessed 🙈🙈