TTC After Pregnancy Loss Thread 22.

[HidCat]

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A thread for all those who have suffered the loss of a much wanted baby. Affectionately know as the penguin huddle.

We'll start with a roll call as there have been so many new members lately and so many success stories that I think we've all lost track.

HidCat
Age 35
TTC #2
DS 5
MC at 11wks in January
Cycle 3 post MC, trying since August 2017

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@TedLife @Boboelephant in comparison I'm as sane as a daisy on the Elefriends

Go bobo

@L1zz13 nice to see you back, stay with us!
Hope you can find some comfort from the other group though. We will always be here!

@Lilimum4 sorry for bfn, know that feeling well.

@sweetpea0318 sorry for bfn too

@KnitKitty How you doing?

@Pampl3m0usse So sorry for all you are going through. Sometimes words don't seem enough, for some of the things people have/are going through. I hope it gets better soon for you.

@littleemma1 Join the frickin crazy club!🤦🏽‍♀️

@Boboelephant i actually feel nerves when i think of you testing, like its me poas. 🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞i hope its your turn.

Im googling like a mental women! Dont even know why i do it! So much for the relaxed month!
7dpo- lots of cm still, sore nipples, weird feelings/cramps in uterus, probably all means fuck all, i have hormones thats about it! 😂

@L1zz13 Nice to hear from you 😊 have been thinking of you! Have you told your DH how you're feeling and that you're getting support from depression boards?

Clicked post too soon!

@Pampl3m0usse So sorry. I hope you're getting some answers from the hospital now. Please let us know how you got on xx

@YellowDaffodils86 Same here! I lost weight after my MMC and started going to the gym so my stomach was quite flat... today I feel sick and I'm so bloated and look pregnant! I don't normally get bloated leading up to period so does make me wonder. Also driving myself insane trying to work out how early is too early to test. Must stick to my original plan and wait for Tuesday!!

@YellowDaffodils86 I suppose I can accept my place in the crazy club 😂😂😂

If it wasn’t a coincidence and I wasn’t just poorly, I had “signs” from sort of 6/7dpo 😱 but it was probably not related xxx

@L1zz13 was wondering how you were doing. Sorry you’re feeling so low, I really hope you get the support you need to feel better. Sending hugs to you hun 💕

@Boboelephant POAS Friday!! I’m so excited for you 😀

@Pampl3m0usse so sorry you’re having such a tough time. Sending you love x

TWW for a lot of you it seems... I hope there are lots of bfp’s this month 😊

Yellowdaffodils86 Thanks for asking, I'm doing ok. I'm pretending like I didn't see the test and just assuming it's a normal cycle, though I strangely have no desire to try this month. Don't know if it's just the ups and downs of the last 6 months have got too much and I just need calm for a while or if because I'm not ovulating yet my hormones haven't made me go crazy with wanting to TTC yet.
How are you? Having to sit on your hands yet? Fingers crossed for you. Find something to do to take your mind off it.

L1zz13 Please feel free to stick around for support here. Reading negative posts on the other thread won't help you feel any better and we like having you around. How are you doing at the moment? Had any more chats with OH?

Pampl3m0usse Hope you start feeling better soon. hugs xxx

Sorry sweetpea0318 and Lilimum4 for BFNs, it really sucks.

Hidcat How is your DS doing? Are you still having to work at home? Has your FW started yet?

Boboelephant Sending vibes to you so hard! Still meditating and doing yoga? Is it helping you stay calm?

Cakelaur How are you doing?

@PassTheAfterEights thinking of you and hope you're ok, I can't imagine how difficult this must have been for you 💕

@Boboelephant it's nearly Friday! I am literally crossing everything. Sending sticky bean vibes to you about ten times a day, and know that it's not the end of the road if it's not what we all hope for. Your time WILL come (probably on Friday!!!) xxxx

@YellowDaffodils86 hey! How are you? When are you testing? 🤞🤞🤞

Sorry too tir3e to reply personally as just home :( possible endometrial but not infection so they've booked scans as the same time as telling me it's unlikely to show anything except on my ovaries... possible stress (which I think is a convenient get out of jail card giv3n they know my circumstances. Still traces of uti issues and could just need a bloodbath of a period to clear out:( xxx

@Pample3m0use So sorry you're going through this. Big hugs. I hope you start to feel better soon.

I am on my work trip up north. Actually going well so far. Getting along really well with my colleague who it turns out has been through 2 mc's. Finding talking to each other very helpful and just good to get things out. Missing my DH now as in hotel room on my own. Uti is on the mend but still not 100%. Hoping it clears up soon. Only have antibiotics for 3 days so finish them Friday morning.

@pample3m0usse Glad it isn't an infection but sorry you were at the hospital for so long. Can you take it a bit easy today?

@L1zz13 I echo the others. Definitely stick around with us if it helps! 😀
@YellowDaffodils86 ahh I know!! I'm feeling myself turning crazy as well. I've been tossing and turning the last two nights and very aware of every niggle. Not sure I will test tomorrow, I'm so scared of it being a negative. I too seem to have heaps of cm. Tmi but always feeling a bit wet. I'm sure my nipples look different but not sure if that's wishful thinking!! 🤦‍♀️
@hayleyfx thankyou lovely!!!
@KnitKitty glad you're feeling ok hun. We do meditation at work on a Wed morn and yesterday did meditation and some reiki healing which was lovely and calming. She said the energy she was getting from me was pink flowers so of course I convinced myself that's a sign that I'm pregnant with a girl!! 😂🤦‍♀️ DH thinks I'm nuts. Feeling pretty nervous today so will make sure I do some yoga when DS is napping.
@BabynameEdie thanks lovely!! I hope so!!!
@Pampl3m0usse hope you got some good sleep. When are the scans booked? Hope your body has a good clear out and resets for next month.
@Pancakes7 hope the work trip is ok and UTI clears up. I found it helps alot to talk to others who have gone through loss too.
@Cakelaur ok here it is. Not sure if it's good or bad. Temp went down yesterday but up again slightly today. I have had some restless sleep. I just don't know!!

@Pampl3m0usse I'm so sorry Hun. I hope the scan appointment isn't too far away.

@PassTheAfterEights and @L1zz13 I hope you both have better days today. xx

@Boboelephant 🤞 for POAS stick Friday.

@KnitKitty I hope you're ok. Maybe an enforced relaxed month would be a good idea. Hide the tests etc and JKS, nothing else unless your period is late. Easier said than done though.
DS is ok thanks. He went back to school yesterday and I ended up going to the docs instead due to chest pain. Had to go to hospital as doc was concerned I was presenting symptoms of a blood clot and having been "recently pregnant" as she put it and family history I'm high risk for it. Luckily the staff were all really sensitive when asking about the miscarriage and TTC again, the consultant even ordered more tests to be sure she didn't miss anything as she was concerned what could happen if I get pregnant again and they missed it. Turned out to be asthma so have some steroids. Scary day. Every doctor / nurse I saw even commented on my horrible year and were all absolutely lovely. I'm so grateful to them for that after what some of you have been through. Plus I've been ordered to take 2 days off work to rest (by the Senior Managers).

@Boboelephant oooh could be implantation dip. Mine did that too!! It's looking great. Plus you're still way above cover line!! Eek!!! Everything crossed for you for whenever you decide to test. I really hope the progesterone has worked!! 🤞🏻

@KnitKitty I'm good thanks for asking. Still really sick but hoping it will ease. I'm nearly 14 weeks, and just got the all clear for chromosome testing. I've managed to pick up the heart beat on a home Doppler which is a great reassurance and hoping I can start to relax a little soon. But who knows.

I'm trying to stay up to date with this thread!! But it moves so fast!!

Sorry to everyone having a shit time!! And 🤞🏻🤞🏻 to everyone testing... who's in for POAS Friday tomorrow??

Oh @HidCat how scary!! I'm so glad it wasn't a blood clot or worse but I can't imagine what a stressful day that must have been! So glad they were so nice and supportive and brilliant that your work are also being great. Glad your DS is ok too! At least you can relax for today- it's always a bit hard to take care of yourself when you have a poorly child around too! Enjoy some rest and boxsets today!

@HidCat omg how scary I hope your feel better today.
@pample3m0usse also hope your OK and resting up
@Cakelaur I'm so happy for you and really pleased your keeping us up to date. Happy stories like yours keeps my hope alive x
@KnitKitty how are you doing today
@Pancakes7 sending healing hugs x
@ boboelephant fx, tx everything crossed for tomorrow x
@PassTheAfterEights thinking of you

All the tww' s I've not said good luck to 'good luck' and for those in FW have fun .

Would you guys say this is a positive opk?

I got a positive on Tuesday night, it was still positive yesterday and this was this morning.

Bit confused

@Pampl3m0usse ah I'm so sorry you have to go through this but good news that's it not an infection. Hope you get better quickly
@HidCat what a week you've had! Glad you have a couple days and the weekend to rest up!
@Boboelephant that chart though! 😍🤞🏽
@Pancakes7 seems we're def cycle twins as I woke up this morning at 4:30 with agonising UTI pains...🙄 that's what I get for TTC and not peeing directly after sex. Every time!
@Cakelaur it's really helpful seeing your graph. Just out of interest- When you were getting negative tests were you using FRERs? and on 15dpo?

I'm officially in my first ever TWW DPO1 today. Hoping these next 10 days fly by and that we get a flurry of bfps in the meantime (@Boboelephant I'm looking at you! - no pressure) IF things don't work out this month though I would seriously look into IVF - have you discussed this before? But basically all I'm saying is all hope is not lost if things don't pan out as we all think it will...I'm just aware we've really hyped up this month for you so I'm just trying to cushion the downside in the off chance.... 💕

I'm 💯% nervous energy right now. Was at the gym before work and forgot my knickers too so sitting commando at my desk wishing the next three days away...

I always miss people off when I reply so got my fx for all tww-ers and have a good feeling for those heading into July.

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@Boboelephant Ooooooh it's still going up, how excitiiiing! POAS! How many dpo are you now?

@KeefBurtain I'd say that's positive.... go go go!!!

@zarala I was testing with IC and also with my CBAFM (it tests for ov and once you've got a peak it then starts testing for pregnancy) this was what picked up my first pregnancy at 10dpo. This time round you can see implantation dip (and I had some spotting) thought it was AF but it never got heavier and then I thought I'd messed up my whole cycle with using progesterone... turns out it was just a late implanter!! And then when my temp went up on cd15 I tested with frer. (I last tested in cd13) and my line was quite faint but definitely there. Most bizarre experience of my life! I was so sure I was out.

@Lilimum4 I'm so glad it brings hope. I want all of you lovely ladies to get bfps so bad! I can't keep myself from this thread. I've got everything crossed for all of you!!!

Pampl3m0usse I'm so sorry you're going through the mill at the moment. Stress CAN be a big factor for illness, I think it causes something like 70% of illnesses and you have been through a lot recently so it's not surprising. I just hope they find out exactly what's going on and they sort you out ASAP so you can start to get some normality back.

Pancakes7 I'm glad you've been able to talk to your colleague about it all, it is helpful knowing someone else who's been through it too.

Boboelephant I wish I got to do meditation and reiki at work! That sounds great!
I totally understand if you'd rather wait to test a bit longer, like zarala said, I feel a bit guilty that we've all really built up this month for you, but we're here no matter what happens and we're all rooting for you, and hopefully this is your month.

Hidcat how horrible and stressful. I'm really pleased you've seen lovely professionals though, it does make a huge difference. I've always had lovely staff treating me in hospital. And I'm really pleased your work sound so supportive. Rest up and get well.

Cakelaur I'm really glad you're doing well, it gives me hope. I just found out this morning my cousin is 14 weeks pregnant. She lost a baby at 20 weeks a couple of years ago. She's had a couple of scans so far and everything is looking good, so I feel so, so happy for her and really feeling that blessings can happen. I really hope everything continues to go smoothly for you. Sorry you've still got the sickness, that must be hard to cope with, and don't panic once it disappears - that's what it's supposed to do. :)

Lilimum4 Thanks, I'm doing well today. It's my one day off this week so making the most of it and relaxing. How are you feeling?