SQUARE ONE'RS TO GRADUATES! Morale & energy is low, but we will not be beaten, BFPs WILL be achieved in this here thread!

[Tee4me]

Roll call:

Tee4me: 34 years old
TTC: #2 since December 2015
DC: DS nearly 5 years old
x2 early MCs
Diagnosed with high level of activated NK cells with positive result for Antinuclear Antibodies plus Hypothyroidism.
About to embark on 1st cycle with medication (from ovulation).
CD7 and gearing up for FW!

Welcoming original square-oner's and any newbies battling along and in need some support x

Well done @physicskate! This is it! xx

PS. Are they monitoring your Thyroid? Mine has spiked to 6.23 when they tested on Monday, so naturally I'm freaking out! Have up'd Thyroxine to 100mcg. I know mild Hypothyroidism doubles chance of miscarriage 😫

They aren't monitoring thyroid. TSH was 2.2 just before my round started with my tiny dose of thyroxine... hmm maybe I should make a GP appointment to get bloods. Or I should have asked today at the infertility clinic!!!

This is probably me getting WAY ahead of myself - when does midwife stuff start?

Yep I would do @physicskate. I got some advice from a friend yesterday who said Thyroxine often needs to increase in pregnancy, and you want to keep TSH below 2.5. Great that you were at a good level before though, but I think with a history of Hypothyroidism you should be monitored to cross check that you don't fall out of range 👍🏻 I wish I'd rechecked mine sooner.
You get a 'bookings' appointment in the first trimester, and midwife stuff stakes off from there. Perhaps book a GP app to discuss your IVF outcome and Thyroid maybe?? When will you be technically 4 weeks? x

Today is four weeks.

Thanks tee - your advice (well everyone's advice) is invaluable and I am so glad to have such a clued up group of people to help!

Hello ladies,
I’m back home after the D&C this morning.
I seem to be ok, no heavy bleeding or discharge. Maybe will hit me later?!
If I tell you how the morning went in the EPU, don’t think you’ll believe me! Hopefully nothing like that happened to you if/when you had your D&C!
We came in just before 8am, got prepped and sat in the cubicle in my gown, waiting to be taken to the theater. I had all tests and swabs done, signed all the forms, the anaesthetist came in, briefed me etc. and I was told we would go for the op shortly. And only then around 10am, the registrar came in, with my notes, asked about my scan from Monday. Off she went and came back and said: I’m really sorry but we can’t D&C on you today! The consultant who scanned you on Monday should have never scheduled your op today! Looking at your scan, your fetal pole is not even 7mm long, and under the National guidelines, we can’t op on you! She said, we schedule another scan in a week! And only then perform D&C if non viable pregnancy. WTF, I was screaming like mad!! As if my embryo would fucking spring back to life from the dead! When it stopped at 6 weeks on the 8th June! and I was supposed to be 9 weeks today!! Are you fecking kidding me! How 2 consultants on Monday never told me about those fecking guidelines! It was only measured 5.6! Told her he squeezed us in for today especially as we’re flying away on Sunday. And if they didn’t op today and something happened while away, that would have been their responsibility! Ladies, I lost my cool at that point, and my DH too! She then went to see her boss who happened to be in today, lucky me! came back and said he ok-eyed it! By then I was in bits! Stress level through the roof and then she took me to the theatre! But then my hospital number didn’t much the paper work! What a shambles! I tried to stay calm! Suffice to say, it was all done and I’m home now. I’ll be writing a complain and go public with it! How can they let this happen! As if I wasn’t going through enough traumatic times! incompetence of the senior consultant was absolutely bang out of order and very upsetting to us! Especially to me as you can well imagine!

Oh @Russkispy that's awful, talk about insult to injury. Well done for sticking up for yourself. I would find it hard to find my voice in that situation, so you did well. You shouldn't have had to fight like that though. Thank God it's done and I hope you can put this horrendous episode behind you very soon.

@physicskate wow we are only 3 days apart. Who'd have thought after over 2.5 years on this thread with knock back after knock back we would eventually conceive within 3 days of each other. Double miracle x

@Russkispy I am so so sorry you had to go through that. I do find some healthcare professionals are a bit shit with this, maybe because they see it every day and it is the worst day of your life. I had a small taste when the gp told me to have more miscarriages if I wanted tests in March '17... I cant even begin to understand how upsetting it would be to be fobbed around on this day of all days...

Thank you, lovelies, for all your unconditional support! Really appreciate, makes me feel I’m not all alone in this! Landed on the sofa and just chilling. No pain or discomfort. No cramps. And little bleed, like a very light period. Unless it hits me all later!? Hope not!
@Kate and @Tee, I’m so so happy for you both! I really really hope it’s a sticky bean for you both!

@Russkispy I'm not sure you have a heavy bleed after a D&C, I presumed removing the lining is part of the procedure? Mine have all been natural so I have no experience of this, what did they tell you to expect?
Thinking of you x

@Russkispy & @physicskate how are you both getting on? I'm currently waiting for my rescan and praying they will see some growth since Thursday x

Was thinking of you today Tee. Hope it goes well!!!

I'm ok. Some short-lived cramps happening, but think I'm ok? My scan isn't until the 16th, which feels an age away! But I start my job on Thursday, so I'm looking forward to the slight distraction eve though I'm exhausted!! Not sleeping well with this heat!!!

How lovely @tee.glad all is progressing well.
Hope you are doing okay @russ
How are you @kate?will this be a part time job or full time hun?hope it’s not as stressful as the last one.

Yes interested in the new job @physicskate?!
I withdrew my below post because it included all my personal details in the scan pic, doh! Not really sensible on a public forum that can come up on Google searches forever more! 🤦🏼‍♀️

It's just Thursday Friday. I am a technician at a school working in a Science department. Start tomorrow!! Eek! Excited! I see it as a way of keeping my toe in while figuring out everything else...

How are you holding up @physicskate? Hope Thursday/Friday went well at your new job x

Doing ok. Scan on Monday at 6+3... job was pretty good. I think it'll be just about perfect for now!

How you doin?

@Russkispy hope you're healing ok. Is there a plan? Be kind to yourself... it really is shit.

Can't stop to write a long one but wow I've missed loads!

So sorry Russ, really sorry to hear your news. Look after yourself and big hugs.xx

Oh my Tee and Kate! Such good news for you. Big smiles for you.. keep me posted!

No news here except I've randomly ovulated! Lol 😂 so at least I'm not over the hills yet! Fingers crossed 🤞 xx

Thanks ladies. Back from Lanzarote. Back to reality. Which is a bit grim but must go on. While away bleeding started and continued for a week. Couldn’t swim understandingly and didn’t want to take any risks. Have to take a pregnancy test on Friday as per hospital’s request and hopefully it will show negative. If not, was told to contact EPU. Like I said hopefully it will show negative so I can close the chapter altogether. No plans made going forward. Think will try naturally and see how that goes. Maybe for a couple of cycles. My fertility doctor asked to consider IVF and I don’t want it just now. And hopefully won’t need it.
@kate and @Ter, hope you’re progressing nicely with your pregnancy!?

Hi @Russkispy, it feels weird to want a negative doesn't it  I find that you can get a bit of closure when that happens, you may start to feel more positive about the future. These are the moments to really enjoy and take comfort in that little girl of yours.
Things seems to be progressing ok for me, for now. I heard a heartbeat this morning which is a big milestone for me. Still only 6 and a bit weeks, so very early, but every day has been dragging. Suffering with sickness but not complaining about that!!
@physicskate rooting for you for tomorrow!

@physicskate Monday not tomorrow!
@Footy1 lovely to hear from you too, and those eggs are still popping! xx

We saw the heart beating... next scan in three weeks and a midwife appointment in between!!

@physicskate, absolutely fantastic news! So so bloody happy for you! 💐💐💐🤗🤗🤗

Fabulous news @physicskate!! You must be elated!! xx