SQUARE ONE'RS TO GRADUATES! Morale & energy is low, but we will not be beaten, BFPs WILL be achieved in this here thread!

[Tee4me]

Roll call:

Tee4me: 34 years old
TTC: #2 since December 2015
DC: DS nearly 5 years old
x2 early MCs
Diagnosed with high level of activated NK cells with positive result for Antinuclear Antibodies plus Hypothyroidism.
About to embark on 1st cycle with medication (from ovulation).
CD7 and gearing up for FW!

Welcoming original square-oner's and any newbies battling along and in need some support x

[Tee4me]

Good to hear from you @radderss. Yes I was thinking it wasn't that long ago that you mentioned starting to try again. Is it any comfort to you that you obviously fall quickly? I know that's not always the right thing to say after miscarriage, but I actually found it encouraging when people said to me "at least you know you can fall".

I didn't go to the EPU after my first miscarriage, but they certainly mentioned I could have an early one in my next pregnancy when I had my second miscarriage. In the end that turned out to be ectopic, so they were super on my case this time and scanned me at 4, 5 and 8 weeks!
I actually have a bad case of scanarexia! I'm addicted to them and haven't gone a week without one (under NHS care as well as my private Consultant). When I haven't had a scan from them one week, I've ended up down babybond on the highstreet! It's helped me get through the first trimester.

Did your pregnancy pass naturally or did you need medical management?

I know how difficult this time is, but @Russkispy is right, it does get easier 😘

[radderss]

I was at a hen do the weekend and I felt rubbish, was being sick, tired, nausea... so how I felt last time being pregnant. Have been for past couple of weeks. So I did not expect to wake up bleeding on Tuesday morning.
Anyway went a and e, they eventually scanned me in radiology not epu after 4 hours of being there. They still wouldn't confirm it was a definite miscarriage - threatened miscarriage they said - as they don't take the fact you've seen the heartbeat on a none nhs scan as fact. So they still send you home thinking maybe you've got your dates wrong. I said to the gynaecologist, we saw a heartbeat now we don't, it's 3 weeks behind on growth, I'm bleeding and you're still actually telling me there's a chance here. Stupid nhs protocol.

Thankfully later that day I started to bleed very heavily and think I passed the baby. I had to go hospital though as I was bleeding ridiculously.
They want to scan me a week today to check that I've passed everything.

I woke up last night in excruciating pain so was awake 3-6.
Be glad when it's all over !

Regards falling quickly, yes I seem to but it doesn't give me comfort as such in some ways I feel I put more pressure on myself to fall quick again. Just need to try and not get stressed over it. It doesn't mean it's going to happen quick again. I would hope so but we shall see.
I generally feel ok in myself about the whole thing but I don't know if it's going to hit me when I have to get on with life back at work etc I've been in a little bubble at home, sleeping, being with my little boy. When you have to go back to normal activities but no Baby I think that will be difficult x

[Tee4me]

Gosh I bet that was an awful shock to wake up to the bleeding. I feel for you being in limbo now, waiting for the scan to confirm the 'all clear'. Have you taken a pregnancy test to check your hcg has dropped/is dropping? They may take your bloods at EPU next week. I was monitored for a few weeks after the ectopic to check my levels had returned to normal.

No need to put pressure on yourself. You don't have difficulty falling, and you don't necessarily need it to happen immediately, so you can afford to be relaxed. Most clinics advise you wait to have a period after the miscarriage before tying again. Hope all is resolved quickly so you can feel like you can move on xx

[Footy1]

Sorry to hear your story radderss.
Just awful especially when you feel sick like that. The highs and lows are just awful being a woman ttc. Just not fair. Lots of love 💕

Physics - I'm so pleased to see scan with bubba. Waves like the queen 😂 your Royal baby. You must be so pleased 😁

[Tee4me]

Hi all,

@radderss how are you feeling lovely? Hope your little man is keeping your chin up.
@Footy1 hope all is good with you and your boys. How are things with hubby now?
@physicskate must be into the 2nd trimester this week??
@Russkispy what's the latest your side? Hope you're OK.
Waves @DuRezidal, hope all is good with you and your little girl (and horses??)

We had our 12 week scan yesterday. All is good. We also had a 'Harmony' blood test with my Specialist which can pick up chromosomal abnormalities, and we are low risk, so that's a relief. The test also revealed that we are expecting another little boy!! @Footy1 will need tips on being a super cool boy mama like you!!
xx

[Russkispy]

@Tee4me that's fantastic! And congratulations on another boy! Glad all is going well!
As fo me , Been using clearblue advanced digital OPK, got static face on CD18 (stayed for 48 hours). Never had it that late in a cycle. But maybe with MC, my cycle is messed up this time? Our first TTC after MC. So not sure how long this cycle will be then?! Around 3-4dpo now. Never been a POAS girl and will just wait for AF. Fingers crossed it never arrives!

[radderss]

Hi @Tee4me sorry about the massive delay.

I've been ok thank you - I'm currently in my first proper cycle and thing I'm ovulating today. So we shall see what this months rings.

How many weeks are you now ? How exciting that you're having another boy

@physicskate how are you doing ??

@Russkispy hope you're ok too lovely

[DuRezidal]

Awww a little boy, they are so cuddly.

Congratulations.

@physicskate how are you getting on?

We are all good at this end. My daughter is almost 6 now and has just started year 2 at school (her last year in this school as they have a junior school) and J is almost 1! I can't believe it is almost a year since he came into our lives, I cannot remember a time without him. He almost makes me feel broody for number 3!!!

[physicskate]

I'm good. Had my 16 week appointment yesterday and heard the heartbeat... I've told my new (part time) job and they've been really good about it. Most of my friends know now.

I really want a massive bump. I feel like I worked so so so hard for so long for this that I want that badge. Not quite showing yet - just look a bit fatter round the middle. Need to figure out maternity clothes in the near future as very little fits!!

[Russkispy]

@physicskate , good to hear everything is going well for you! Really pleased!
@radderss , how are you getting on? Thanks for asking. In my 2 cycle post MC. And in 2ww now. Still doing acupuncture and reflexology, every week! Reflexologist gave me rose crystal yesterday to put beside my bed. I read about it last night and apparently rose crystals enhance fertility. And I ordered a crystal fertility bracelet. I'm throwing everything and anything into this and hopefully soon enough will have my BFP!

[physicskate]

So we've just found out that we're having a little girl!!! Not sure my husband isn't a teeny weeny bit disappointed - but thrilled she's healthy!!! I keep getting weirdly emotional!

[radderss]

Brilliant news @physicskate so happy for you. I found no matter what you find out you're having you feel a momentary disappoint that you're not having the opposite sex then it goes .. I was a little disappointed I wasn't having a girl but ecstatic having a boy at same time... very strange feeling. When they're here it makes no difference does it

This is all you deserve. I'm not surprised you're emotional. What a long journey you have been on xx

[radderss]

Hope everyone is doing ok x

[Needadoughnut]

Newbie on this thread.
34, trying to conceive for 5 cycles (this is our 6th). Hypothyroid. second child for me and third for him. Almost had a breakdown yesterday so we're trying to be more relaxed about it.
One chemical (cycle three).
LP of 13 days.

[sheerjewl]

@Tee4me @physicskate

Thinking of you both. Hope everything is going well x

[Tee4me]

Hi @sheerjewl, are you someone we knew who had a username change?!
So I'm 36 weeks today, I'd say I'd like him to make his appearance ASAP, but we are moving house in 2 weeks so I need him to stay put! Fingers crossed the 2 events don't clash!
How is everybody? x

[sheerjewl]

@Tee4me I so forgot I changed my name! Yes it's radderss :)

Oh that's fantastic ! Let's hope he stays in so you can move house.

I'm all good thanks. I'm 14 weeks pregnant now with the second.

Does it all still seem a bit surreal for you or has it all sunk in now ? Bet you can't wait xx

[Tee4me]

That's awesome @sheerjewl!! Will you find out the sex?! I think you had a little boy first, right? How exciting! How old is he now?

This has felt like the longest pregnancy ever I have to say. I think because we were trying for 2.5 years and in the end were on a 'Super Ovulation' plan which meant follicle tracking etc, so you are watching the cycle from day 1. It really has dragged and I can't wait to meet him, but the house move is unsettling to say the least, I'm staying calm and trying not to stress xx

[physicskate]

35+2 today. Thanks for the good wishes @sheerjewl.

I too am ready for her to come!! But obviously want her to cook as long as she needs. I had to stop work several weeks ago as I can't walk more than about 50m without crying from pain (and that's with the crutches).

But I won't bang on about it...

My mum's coming from abroad to visit this week (though I have no idea why!!!), which should be interesting. I have no idea how to keep her occupied without walking anywhere...

Love to all!!

[physicskate]

Oh radderss!!!! What fab news!! Hope this pregnancy goes as smoothly as it can for you!!!

[sheerjewl]

@physicskate I'm sorry to hear about the pain. That can't be pleasant. Is that to do with your pelvis? I forgot what it's called now. I'm sure your mum will be understanding and hopefully will help you out and weight on you 

@Tee4me thank you. It hasn't sunk in yet after the miscarriage - it all becomes a bit of a whirlwind.
We have a boy and we found out with him but we are not going to find out this time. Have a little surprise! I normally need to be in control and know everything but I'm determined to have the secret. Last time we will do this so going to have some willpower.
Our son will be 2.5 when baby arrives.

You've picked a great time to move haven't you hehe but once it's all done it'll be worth it.Is it a big move to a different area? Is your son excited about the move and the new arrival??

So lovely to hear off you both and hear that everything is ok. I'm looking forward to hearing about when your little miracles are here x

[physicskate]

So this happened on Wednesday!! Almost three years to the day after @Tee4me started this lovely, supportive thread!!

Contractions (little more than bh tbh) started with my first show on Sunday at 2am. Fed up by my third sweep on Tuesday. No sleep, not coping well. Screw breathing and visualisations!

Thought waters had gone early hours weds. Went into hospital at 6am- 2cm!! After three full days!! So they swept me again, which broke my waters. Then they gave me all the drugs and drip. Epidural only worked on my left-hand side. She was born with forceps, an episiotomy and massive blood loss at 4:16pm. And I wouldn't have had it any other way!!! Wouldn't have changed a thing (except maybe epidural working on both sides)...

Oh and I've already literally shit myself twice already. Yay. The bruising and swelling is a bit unreal. The pain now is different to my pelvic girdle pain, but at least I'm used to being in pain all the time??

[Tee4me]

Oh @physicskate she's so lovely! Do you have a name yet? Your labour sounds similar to mine with my first Son. Good news is you rarely need forceps for subsequent births.

Our little man arrived on Saturday 9th March. It was a pretty textbook labour, although I was on an antibiotic drip because my first Son contracted Group B Strep when he was born. The hospital and midwives were amazing. Did it without an epidural this time, but sustained a 3rd degree tear which meant I had to go to theatre later that day for a repair job. Amazingly I've had no subsequent pain whatsoever! Despite a 3rd degree sounding horrendous (its a tear from front to back 😱) it's noting compared to the pain I had recovering from the episiotomy! So Kate I feel for you!

Here's our lovely baby boy Jude 💙

[physicskate]

@Tee4me - we've called her Eliza. She's putting on weight rapidly and already past her birth weight.

I've developed a highly nasty uti and am on my second course of antibiotics. Still very sore and bruised, but taking fewer painkillers. Sitting is still troublesome and I think I may get have a bruised coccyx?

So glad you're ok and that he arrived safely!! It's been such a strange 'journey' the last three years... your little one is gorgeous!! I bet you're all over the moon!!

[sheerjewl]

Congratulations to you both. I bet you look at them with so much pride and can't believe they are truly here !! xx