Hut of Gl/Doom, part IV - FTC, because that's what we do....

[duchesse]

Et voila.

This Hut is more of a Bedouin or desert tent than anything too gloomy. We shall supply our our own gloom.

Is it ok to come out yet?

yes, sorry about my hulk (ha!) impression.

ooh, you scary lady!

Just fished a bloody ferret or pine marten or weasel or something out of my guinea pig run. Have no idea what to do with it. Farmer neighbour suggests taking it in the car to the forest and releasing it, but according to the internet, they can cover 3 miles in a night. Eek...

Blimey (has vision of Duchesse driving off road with a ferret wearing a seatbelt in the passenger seat).

Congrats to the graduates, this miserable old hut is becoming a lucky place - me thinks someones been spiking your drinks with that sparkly evil dust!! I'm really happy for the bfps, it seems more deserving somehow to those who've had a stuggle on. i leave a vat of homemade xmas pudding rum for you all, i know tis not the season but it's really tasty, and loads of black forest gateaux.

Evening, or rather, morning. Just to bring the Hut back to its proper level, I'm feeling sad and a bit desperate about the thought I may never have a child. It just doesn't seem fair. I'm fed up of feeling like a freak. I know I should be positive, love myself. And I will. I'm even fed up with people saying, 'I really want a third child'. I just think, 'Shut up you ungrateful Twerp, are you trying to make me feel worse?'. Apologies to those in this position, I just can't get past my own self-pity sometimes. Too much time to think.

Soreheart- you are completely allowed to feel like that.

Soreheart.
I hear you hun... and feel the same - it's shit. I'm contenplating hypnotherapy to help me forget / try to forget / get over the empty feeling ... and build a like without constantly dreaming of the family life I long for.It makes me feel physically sick at the thought we're going to remain childless.
Where are you with investigations / tests and all that bollocks?

Do you think my terrible typing skills are why mother nature / god has decided I'm not worthy of motherhood?

Hi Ladies
I've been lurking around but not posting much - lazy yes but also cos DP thinks Im obsessed with computer and thinks I have a secret luvvvvveerrrr so been lying low.

Congratualations - Great news Beansprout, Seaside and MrsMcJnr - I guess folks we will have to move home now - you know what they say, new house new baby! who knows a new hut may bring us some more great news.

All the best to you too Chocolatedays, I know the 2WW is simply the worst on IVF every twinge feels like a potential BFP. Im hoping to go through it all again in July and then that's it ladies I will give up cos Ive lost count of how many yrs we've been FTC. Lets share a few virtual cocktails to forget the anniversaries eh Lissie?

Dutchess - re the furry beast - are you sure its not a mink! cos thinking you could make a nice hat out of it (images of furry critter on Dutchess' head)

promised this would be a quick post so better nip off now. Will leave you all with a case of red wine (good for blood count) and green and black (organic naturally) chocolate bars..
see you late folks

LNO, hope this one works for you. its wierd but the anniversary of my 2nd or 4th (however you look at it) mc was on sun but apart from being a bit snappy i was really ok-ish. tbh i think the events of feb have just wiped me out! go back to specialist on mon (havent even been able to have all the tests done so prob wont even have any answers)

anyhoo, how is everyone?

Best of luck Lissie with the hospital - I think my consultant dreads me walking in cos Im like a walking encyclopedia with all the info from these websites, - even took research papers re. drugs trials this time and felt like I was have a doctor to doctor moment poor soul! they must hate the internet dont you think? All those years at med school and here we are challenging them on the latest thinking! Nothing like keeping the medical profession on their toes..

lol, i took in pages on the research linking uterine group b strep to early mc's and tell the nurses off if they try to fob me off. my last mc they tried to tell me that they couldnt scan to rule out another ep till i was 6w pg, i went mad and asked them about the swelling on tubes and excess fluid thats visible with an ep from 5w.

they do try to fool us sometimes dont they?

Too right - well done lissie! and dont forget that when you are in there next! You have a right to all the tests now!! so don't forget it - especially after what happened to you - they should be bending over backwards to ensure everything goes well for you now. Take care and will look out for your post on progress soon.

thanks

Away for a bit from today. Take it easy everyone. Will be doing my utmost to do the same.

Ooooh, Sideways and Beansprout, well bloody done! CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Thought I'd just procrastinate, see what I'm missing. Hello MrsMc: Are you pregnant too? Fantastic!

I'm not pregnant, although i am in a 2ww, so, you know, a miracle MIGHT happen. Dp isn't pregnant either. I've entered a healthy state of denial.

Anyway, gotta dash, have so much to do. Roll on end of June when everything slows down for me. Tarrah you lovelies xxx

i want a baby [stamps feet]

im now cd44 and still waiting for my period...

Dear Fellow Hut Dwellers,
Things are not going well with my IVF.

I am not producing enough eggs - so may not even make it to 2 ww.

Not much else to say - but could really do with some support.

Our dreams of becoming parents seem desperately far away.

Chocolatedays - I am so sorry the IVF is not going as planned - I do not have any solid experiential advise but I know when I was looking at IVF I found this US study I talked to my natural health doc and he thought it looked really interesting and could be worth a try. I even ordered some DHEA online in readiness.

You are probably already having acupuncture but if you are not I would really recommend it as there are also loads of studies proving it increases success in IVF. (I also started having it in readiness)

I am so sorry if that all sounds meddling and simplistic but I am a try anything and everything kinda gal.

In a more Hut-like vain - this sucks and is not fair - here are some expensive ornaments to throw at the wall and a huge goldfish bowl of Pimms.

Dear Chocolatedays don't despair, sometimes eggs grow faster in the last few days of taking the drugs - have they upped your drug dose??

Remember that it only takes one good egg so lets keep our fingers crossed for you.

I am now taking DHEA after talking with my consultant about it. There are trials in the US that give indications that for older women if taken over a 4 month period can increase egg quality and production. Happy to give more info if you want. But think you should hold tight with the IVF drugs and see if you can go one round with them.
take care and thinking of you
LNO

oh chocolatedays, im sorry!

So sorry to hear that Chocolatedays. It was supposed to work, DAMMIT

My fingers crossed that things will still work out x