Hut of Gl/Doom, part IV - FTC, because that's what we do....

[duchesse]

Et voila.

This Hut is more of a Bedouin or desert tent than anything too gloomy. We shall supply our our own gloom.

It's so great how a predominantly male profession can decide how we feel about so many things. If I am upset about something, who is anyone else to tell me I am not?
I had a similar experience a couple of weeks ago. Was told, repeatedly, that I was just having my normal period. I sussed out that I had a chemical pregnancy. If I had listened to them I would have just come away thinking I was a bit hysterical, I mean, who goes to A&E because they are having a period ffs?

Duchesse - I say, go for the acupuncture and see how you get on. I would.

Are we still talking about moving hut? I'm really up for the spa version. Have had a really difficult weekend and am feeling that I am a sh*t mum at the moment who shouldn't even be thinking about another baby. Am really not in a good way atm. This is all getting a bit much.

Plus, MN seems to be awash with accidential pregnancies at the moment which is not helping matters much.

"who goes to A&E because they are having a period"?

Men would.

I would like our next hut to be a hammam type place, heady with essential oils and gossip and proper turkish towelling and mosaics and steam rooms. Not one of those nasty modern-fangled health club places in former manor houses in the countryside, with paper knickers and "beauty products".

Not that a hammam is very hut-like, but hey! We're going up in the world...

That sounds perfect!

duchesse - get to the dr and complain long and loud and refuse to leave until they have taken you seriously.

I may be joining you on CD1 tomorrow, as I have the usual big achy boobs.

To be honest, I have got to the point wher eI no longer worry about what CD I am on, when my period is due to start and I don't really think about it. That's how confident I am that nothing is happening or going to happen.

It doesn't change the fact that I still have a desperate, physical yearning inside me, find it hard to be interested in, or even pleasant about, friends' pregnancies and cry whenever I see a baby. It just means I am becoming resigned to events.

Evenin' all.

I had a bad experience in a Hammam once. -got a little more attention to detail than bargained for.... yuk.

Duchesse - can you find out when your gp is going on holiday? The locum may well be more giving.

Started my job today - go to Paris for the day to present to 40 bigwigs on a subject I know little about - could someone lie and tell me this will not have any impact on the IVF - Ta.

By this I mean the stress - rather than the presentation!!!

Piece of cake. Feign complete confidence, say "this is a collaborative process, so I expect lots of input", pretend language differences if they appear not to understand what you are explaining, and ask for lots of questions at the end which you open to the floor to answer.

Failing that, play the "what's the worst that can happen?" game with the presentation and stay as unruffled as possible. And that, along with the old cliche about women in war zones, should see you home and dry.

anyone else feel like this?

Hello all you good ladies (and you terribly wicked ones ). I just thought I'd pop my head in to say I'm still not pg. I've kind of gently given up on the whole thing, though I might dabble. This is how I gave up smoking all those years ago: I just got fed up with it and simply stopped! And just like smoking I'm sure I'll have the odd one every now and then. Like this month I just kind of fancy trying, but we're going away so it'll probably be one shot at a stupid time. Just to keep my hand in - so to speak! I really have become that blase.

Dp is on her 2nd month. Her oh-so-reliable period was a tortuous 5 days late last month, and given her one-shot conception with ds we really thought it had happened again. She was devestated when her period came. To me it just felt like more of the same.

So I think I've only missed one month. I just couldn't really be bothered, and we suspected at the time dp might be pregnant. AND my mum was here. Blimey, was that all just a month ago? But I feel like I've given up and have had months and months off. I think this is all very good for me. I've been really enjoying my time with dp and ds lately, without constantly thinking about the mysterious dc to come. And this has been a really crazy time for me in all sorts of ways, so taking this huge stress out of the equation is an enormous relief.

Strange stuff.

So, I haven't even been lurking, and I don't know when I'll be back again (although the vanity in me might make me pop back later to see whether I was missed ). I just wanted to let you know why I'd buggered off and to wish you all well.

xxx

Prescient! There was me wondering what you were up to not an hour ago as I walked in the forest thinking about switching off my phone (or not...)

Glad you're not fretting, sad you're not preggers yet. Mildly pissed off that you just dropped the Hut without a backward glance, you moo! (not really)

Mwah x

Impatience!! was wondering where youd got to. glad you're doing ok tho sweetheart, keep coming in to see us wont you x

Impy, you'd better pop vainly back in to see if you've been missed cos you have!! Oh, and can you please bring a gift next time?

Yes, vanity won out. It's nice to be missed!

FMN: Here's a large tray of deliciously squidgy yet perfectly crumbly chocolate hash brownies.

Duchesse, your walk in the forest sounds lovely. I am tremendously jealous.

Lissie, no more outrageous medical distasters for you, I bloody well hope!

See you all anon xxxxxxxx

you know what impy. life has been pretty dull!! go back to specialist on the 4th tho.

God I HATE this time of the mont
On cd26 and am just waiting. Can't do anything at all, apart from wait. The first bit of the 2ww isn't at all bad IMO and I always think, "OK this month I am NOT going to stress/symptom spot, etc" and it feeld easy then. But as the days go by I start getting edgier and edgier (is that really a word?). I really am quite sure I'm not pg this month, and I suppose I just want the next few days gone so that I know for certain and can start planning next month. And I also know that everyone feels pretty much like this too. I feel like I'm permanently double/treble/quadruple/quin....(?) myself by telling myself that if I convince myself I'm not pg then I might really be! But if I think that then I won't be so I have to super-convince myself that I'm not!! It all gets soooooooo complicated....someone please put me out of my misery!!!!

feedmenow - very well put - exactly how I feel. AF arrived today so now I start again for next month which will be 6th month of trying. The waiting while being pretty sure you're not pg is definitely the worst part.

Totally understand feedme. I am in the early part of the 2ww but will go mad again towards the end, esp after last month's chemical pregnancy. I may actually crack if I see another faint line.

Oh Sprogster, what a shite!
Beany, if your period doesn't arrive on time will you test straight away or leave it a little longer?

GOSSIP TIME!

Guess which Hut Dweller has to pop in and deliver some good news and a shed load of goodies!

Congratulations - you know who you are!!!

saw my neice today. all pink and fluffy. then got carried away on the abortion thread and ended up sobbing in the kitchen. yet another month with a failed pg conotation, is it time i gave up?

except i cant.

lissie and feedme {{hugs}}

Ok so I think I might have been outed by Chocolatedays (she is a proper super slueth!!) - but there is also another contender at the moment so may be outing myself ?!! Personally I am very scared and cautious so don't worry girls no big grins and babydust in the hut from me yet.

I have forgotten what the protocol is but here is a trailer-load of Green & Blacks choc and a vat of baileys I have also stashed some spliffs in with the G&B so look out as you unwrap

Oh - and I brought this pair too, thought they might be useful to take with you to the new spa/hamman hut:
Enjoy - but play nice - they do an awesome double massage - who's first?

Thinking of you all and so knowing how you are all feeling - strangely I am obviously happy for me (selfish bit*h!!) but I really know how news like this impacts on everyone else and I would be a even happier if I came back here and found you had all graduated too - honestly I never thought this would happen to me - I hope it gives a bit of hope to someone - 34 - 14months TTC and a crap ovarian reserve mind you if I listed all the conception aids I have used in the past 3 months you would think I was cuckoo - let's not mention the fertility spell!! - or maybe we should - I dunno?? Just feeling really nervous and scared and keeping everything crossed that this is real and that the tadpole is in the right place and stay there for 8 months more at least

Will keep lurking if that's OK - gonna need you all and the hut if it all goes tits up!

oooh seaside, forgot about your spell! fingers crossed!!!!

pleased for you hun x

seaside - congratulations . Very pleased for you.

Am making an early start on the baileys.

Now - tell me about that fertility spell...

Wow, brilliant news Seaside many congratulations and fingers very crossed for a healthy 8 months.