Hut of Gl/Doom, part IV - FTC, because that's what we do....

[duchesse]

Et voila.

This Hut is more of a Bedouin or desert tent than anything too gloomy. We shall supply our our own gloom.

Thanks Duchesse

Please accept this Hubbly Bubbly as a wee hut warming gift.

Very nice. Verrry nice. Can we just have the sides of the tent down until spring though? It's a bit chilly today.

Thanks Sunshine. Am feeling too glum and apathetic to do anything but sleep in the corner though, so hope you won't mind me doing just that.

I'm thinking that we must have those carpets to sit on in here, rather than beanbags.

I'm thinking rugs, I'm thinking cushions, throws, oh yes. For those of you who indulge in the weed, this will be the perfect place. I'm planning to eat my own bodyweight in chocolate so somewhere to just flop will do me nicely too.

I don't think I can go back to the temp charting thread again this month. Think I'll stay in here. Just can't be bothered doing all that crap just to get my hopes up and then have them dashed. Did that for two years, can't be bothered any more. I really think the Hut's the place, while I decide what I want to do next.

Some time out from the cruel treadmill is not a bad idea Duchesse. I'm still vaguely in the stupid puppy "this could be it" phase of the month but my inner cynic is just staring at me, coldly, waiting for the fool to get her comeuppance.

The Hut is the place. I'm so over the month on month positive hoping only to have them dashed. I temp chart at key times - (mainly to let us know when we can give it a bit of a rest!) but in a day to day basis it drives me nuts.
Seems like many of us here are in this for the long-haul.

Just lost important paragraph on some old topic. Argh.

Am really liking new Hut. It's all floaty fabrics and ethnic knick knacks. Lervly.

Duchesse, I think it would be a good idea to just go with the flow for a month or two. Trying is just really trying and we all need a break.

Watch out for the camels though - their farts stink.

"go with the flow". Ha! Niagara Falls, more like.

Funny thing is, I probably would have been if I hadn't become embroiled with Mumsnet when I got pregnant last year. Not that I regret in the slightest "meeting" you guys, but after three years of ftc, I'd almost reached a kind of desperate resignation to never having another child. (hmmm, is that quite true? -Ed.)

I've been trying to get my head round the possibility it may never happen - at all.

Our stab at IVF coming up in May/June sometimes feels like the final throw of the dice.

What percentage success rate did they give you for the IVF?

I was give 10% chance of success (lower than chances of it happening naturally), but then I am ancient!

like the new hut!

I haven't been given a personal % success rate per se.
I am 37, nearly 38. So the ave for the clinic 23% ish.

To cap it all, I've just sent off the application form for my oldest to go away for three weeks to a language school in France. I've been being really pathetic as usual, waking up in the night in a cold sweat plagued by whatifs and hows. I just sent it off, so that's it- he's going and that's that. He'll be fine, I'm sure. It's probably all mixed up with this ftc lark- I don't want to lose him because if I do, there won't be any more sons, and I actually quite like this one. As I said, pathetic.

That's not pathetic, it's maternal instinct and it's not to be f*cked with.
My colleague told me yesterday that his 19yo son has been given a few weeks to live (cancer). I've barely stopped cuddling ds since I got home from work last night.

Just shuffling in with the ice-machine - it might look out of place with all the floaty fabrics but I'm sure the G&T girls will make good use of it.

I'm not gloomy enough at the moment so I'm going to hang around here for a bit. Have just caught myself thinking 'This'll be the month'. Slap me someone please, good'n'hard.

< Places gorgeous woven beehive type over the ice-machine to keep the decor perfect, but thanks Eclipse for her foresight >

beansprout - things like that really make me think that my moaning is nothing compared to what some people are going through.

duchesse - no point me saying he will be fine. I have enough trouble letting dd go anywhere without me, even her friends' parents taking her half a mile in their car freaks me out. God knows what I will be like when she'sold enough to go abroad without me.

Please talk some sense into me ladies - I am on the point of paying out money for a book I found on the internet with a "secret" way of getting pregnant.

Is it worth a try or am I completely losing the plot?

sideways: < smack! > What "secret" ways can there be of getting pregnant? It's a pretty basic process really (if fiendishly complicated). The mind boggles about what they are going to suggest.

And oh god, your poor colleague, Beansprout, and his poor son.

lol at Duchesse smacking sideways! I do want to know the secret though. Am thinking of going halves with sideways if I can get away from D before she slaps me.

re colleague: I know D, it's been going on for a year and after all the chemo, drugs etc, the worst thing is going to happen. It's just so, so grim.