Coggy's Catch Up........

[coggy]

It seems FOREVER ago that I was properly on MN and obssessively ttc!
Only 2 1/2 months ago but alot has happened in that time I expect (no.....sadly no bfp from me yet!!!)
I guess that Debbsy has had her Bibsy and maybe Peachy too......BooBoo next month.....lots of other BFPs??????
Natty, MrsMc and Trace have kept me with some of the news on here.

Here's a quick catch-up with me and what is happening.....
I am CD25 of a usual 26/27 day cycle with all the classic AF signs.....cramps, tiredness, wind etc. etc. (It's nice to be back!! )
I am starting IUI this next cycle so I am only a couple of days away from that and VERY excited and VERY nervous about jabbing myself too!
I figured as well as catching up with my old ttc buddies I could also moan and groan merrily away about it all on this thread and (hopefully) get a little bit of (much needed) sympathy at the same time!!!

I am SUCH a wimp really!!!!
Roll on CD1......

are you going to wait until wednesday coggy?

shall I wait too?

we could test together, or would you rather do this on your own?

Wanabe and Coggy sending lots of positive vibes your way i have everything crossed for you both.

wannaBe I would LOVE to test with you but unfortunately my AF came at lunchtime so you're on your own I'm afraid!

Now don't be nice to me as I might cry.......I have one more student at 5pm and then I intend to wail........but NOT BEFORE I tell you!!!!

I have bought myself some flowers, some chocolate and some wine.......roll on half past five!

coggy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Enjoy your wine xxx

ohhh coggy I am so sorry

Oh Coggy, I am so peed off for you. Really sorry.

xx

Thank you....haven't got round to the wailing yet....moved quickly onto the denial stage!!

Think that I may be pg despite the AF...y'know the sort of thing.....could be MEGA heavy implantation.....the cramps could just be a coincedence!!!!

Oh well.....when I finally accept that it is AF proper...it'll be tomorrow and I'll be ready to start again!!

I am SO sad to be so flippin' positive and chirpy......I would actually like to hire one of those big sumo-suits and get it all out of my system...it can't be healthy to be this 'matter-of-fact'....think I should shout and scream at the unfairness of life instead of going...."Oh well......maybe next time"!!!!!

I have a funny feeling that there may be a HUGE explosion one day in the Cogster Household and evryone had better stand well clear!!!

But for now.....the wine is calling....and the chocolate was damn fine!

Can I just point out that I don't actually think that I may be pg........that read as more hopeful than it should have sounded....supposed to be ironic not rediculously (sp?) mad!!!!

ridiculously???

coggy...............coggy
but you never know honey, you know how fickle these things are...it may be implantation?? you KNOW how many times we have read about someone having what they thought was af , and then, bingo, not af at all.
hugs and complete f*^$ing admiration and pride at you for getting through this and for getting so far. You are a bloody strong woman, and i respect you so much, you are my inspiration.
(((((((((hugs))))) and wine to you x x x x x x
will be thinking of you hun.

Coggy (((hugs))) am so sorry.

It?s ok to cry ya know, it?s ok to shout and scream about the unfairness of life, it?s ok to scream ?why me?. But it?s also ok to smile and look to tomorrow, because it?s tomorrow that brings the future, not yesterday or today.

Tomorrow the sun will shine on a new day, and a new chance for you to try again.

Look after yourself xxx

oh coggy, im so sorry, and i know how you are feeling...soon though you will be angry i suspect..angry that you let yourself have that little hope that maybe it is implantation, angry that it never worked....

but most important thing to remember is that once you get over the dissapointment you will put it behind you and move on to looking forward to your next treatment

this is assuming of course that it definitly is af and not implantation bleeding

when i found out it never worked i had a 'oh well i knew it hadnt worked' attitude, then i would be angry and drink and smoke like a trooper on the day of the pregnancy test then the next day surprisingly enough i put it behind me and was just glad that i didnt have to wait any longer

everyone is different, if you need to vent we are all here though

glad you enjoyed the choccys!

just popped on to see if Coggs had properly started her af or not. Cant stop thinking about you coggy, if you read this.
Know that their are wise women posting here for you, and that we are all rooting for you, and wishing you the best.
I cant quite match the other ladies with their wisdom, but just know that it is ok to feel like you are drifting.....
When the current is pulling you too far though, cling to the rocks with us other little barnicles, and when the tides of sadness have ebbed away, we will become stronger together, just like the rocks we cling to.
hugs xxxxxxxxxxx

Oh cogs, just seen this . Have been off MN for a couple of days as things not progressing this end.

I've just had a little cry for you.

Oh Coggy so very very sorry really feel for you,ive even cried for you,i wish there was something i could do to help you hunny take care xxxx

Desperatley disappointed for you Coggy. I am so sorry

bump for coggy...........

Coggy... I am really sorry. I was really hopeful for you.

coggy, how are you?

bumping for coggy again.... we are all thinking of you and wondering how you are doing. If you do pop back and read this thread, give us a quick hello
xxxx

Sorry that I disappeared!
Just busy-ing myself with lots of things over the past few days......had lots of work on which was good timing and has kept me fairly distracted.

How did your consultation go PCM?

Any more progress BooBoo?
I hope so.

Bubbly....I kindof did the cross/annoyed thing for a little while and now back to being resigned that a bfn is actually normal!
How many cycles did it take you?

I notice that another thread has been started about IUI....it made me feel worse to start with with several people falling on the first attempt but now I think I have got it back into perspective again!
Just rather gutted that the years seems to be passing by....I had my ds in 2005 and, if I don't fall pg this month....which is highly unlikely as we are not having any treatment...then I will not be due another one until 2008......made me sad when I realised that the other day.

I know it's silly to think like that but I was SO convinced that I would have another baby...or at least be heavily pg....by the time my DS's first birthday came.

Oh well.....maybe April will be more successful with the second lot of IUI.

Oh dear....I have waffled again....
Sunday is going to be nasty............

Urm..........PCM...........not wise??

Well you say some pretty good things even though you say you don't!!!

coggy, i had gone away with the fairies for you and thought how fab it would be for it to be positive considering its mothers day, your beautiful little angel is up there with the stars wishing you happy mothers day

with my ds1, i got pg straight away, however i miscarried, and then 2nd treatment worked and i had him.

with ds2, like you have thought it, i thought it would work straight away and when it didnt i couldnt quite get over it even though i kind of knew it hadnt worked.

we had only given ourselves 3 attempts, so when 2nd didnt work it got kind of scary but luckily 3rd go did work

are you on suprecur or puregon?...it was only on my 3rd and final attempt that they put me on puregon and lucky for me that worked, yet it was with the suprecar that i conceived twice when i was trying for my first child. sometimes it is just hit and miss and if we are lucky then we get our goal that much quicker, sometimes we dont

i always get a lump in my throat and want to cry for you whenever i think of your babyson, your a very strong lady and i truly from the bottom of my heart wish you all the very best of luck with your second go

whilst your off the drugs this month, get p*ed and eat lots of rubbish!

will lurk around to see how you get on

....drink and rubbish sounds good....fish and chips tonight I feel...with a good bottle of something!
I'm sure that goes doesn't it???

I have suprecur and puregon.
I think the seprecur gets rid of my hormones and the puregon put them back in!
Then I also have hcg (pregnyl) to release the eggs and then again a week later to maintain the corpus luteum thingy!!!
All I know is that the last hcg jab muct have worked cause I had a 13/14 day luteal phase instead of a regular 8/9 day one and this AF lasted a full 5 days instead of a usual 3.

I am pleased that all the drugs are doing what they should be and so next month that won't be a worry at all for me.

I have just read on another thread though that the IUI had a culmanative (sp?) effect so now I am thinking I shouldn't have had a month's break................Oh there's always something to fret about isn't there??!!!

Most confused now..............I have just re-read your post Bubbly......maybe the suprecur doesn't get rid of your hormones if you only had that......

....I'm sure that's what they said......