BeckiF going for EGG COLLECTION ... at LAST!

[BeckiF]

Dear all

What a year it's been. Two tryies at Clomind which had no effect. Then our first IVF where I didn'tr espond to treatment AT ALL. This 2nd attempt I've done better and we go for an egg collection on Friday! God willing and all being well I'll have a transplant on Monday. Even if I don't I know that I DO respond to the drugs! So there is hope!

Just wanted to share my news ... I'll post more as and when I have it. I will know on Friday how many eggs they collected and they will let us know on Saturday how many have fertilised ...

YIKES!

BeckIf, Your not stupid just understandably impatient. Only yesterday I was also tinkering with the idea of doing a test myself, then I remembered when I did a test last time 2 days early only to get a negative result conviced myself it hadn't worked when in fact it proved positive on the day. Keeping everything crossed for you

hope this works out for you, becki. drop your shoulders and try to relax...

Sleepless - do you or did you have days when you were convinced it hadn't worked? This week I seem certain it hasn't. I'm hoping it's a hormonal thing. I cna't imagine how we're going to feel if it hasn't worked. Yet DP says he's still fully confident and my Reiki practioner says she is full of good vibes for me too. Seems everyones smiling except me.

Days! try hours/seconds I blame the hormone tablets. Today when I woke up I decided on this, whether I think positive or negative the end result is going to be the same and if its a BFN I'll feel like crap so I might as well think positive and try to enjoy the next week. Unfortunately an hour later I started to feel sick I'm trying to convince myself its morning sickness come early though its more likely todo with the dodgy buffet from the weekend. Hang on in there Beckif. Does anyone out there know how early morning sickness can start

Well today we made love for the first time in ages! I'd checked the hospital handbook first and was good to go! However, since then I have had some brown spotting. Not sure if this is just a flush out of trauma I may have received at the EC, OR could it be the longed for implantation spotting? Worst of all it could be the start of my period. Ther is nothing more to do than wait, wait and wait some more yet again to see what happens. Oh and I've had a headache from hell for two days ... not having such a jolly time at all

((((((BIG HUGS)))))

still hopefully for you becs, only a few more days - are you able to use early tests or do you have to wait the full 2 weeks?

Forget morning sickness i think I've caught man flu from DH. Sorry to hear your feeling down Beckif, fingers crossed it is implantation spotting and the headache is down to stress

I've a clearblue digital to take Monday ... I daren't test before then though, i've got cold feet now. Until I see a negative I've got hope, despite the way my body is reacting, i.e boobs not so big and less veiny and less sore.

Today having woken up in a more positive mood I was devestated to start bleeding. The IVF unit tell us to stay positive and to wait and see if it turns into a period proper. But I think that's it

Oh no Becki, I've been following your thread and I'm gutted to read that.

Fingers crossed it's not your AF.

awww Beckif .. thinking of you ... the longest 2 weeks in the wrold .. but you're nearly there

Have passed a small clot just now too

you still won't know until the test date though .. so you'll have to hold on another 5 days

beckif my heart goes out to you .. I hope for good news

Beckif, thinking of you, not long to go now, just look after yourself it will soon be monday

Beckif, thinking of you, not long to go now, just look after yourself it will soon be monday

Oh Beckif! I know just how you feel. Don't give up hope just yet though.

Had a terrible night with the most awful cramps and bleeding, A lot of blood but it doesn't go into a pad but is there A LOT when I wipe, combined with a clear mucus and some clots.

Spoke to our unit first thing and they have said to continue with the pessaries and test on Monday. They have said there are people that have bled throughout and still got a positive. I can't see how, I feel just rotten and in such pain with these cramps.

oh beckie ((HUGS))) i'm really hoping you ahve some good news, do you remember hester - i'm sure she won't mind me saying but she bled a lot - an awful lot in her first trimester very heavy and her DD is now a very healthy little girl so please honney try not too loose too much hope. there is still 4 days to go.

Yes I do remember her and I'm delighted to hear that she came through. It's hard to not be negative when there is so much blood and such bad cramps. But there's a tiny spark in me that burns ever hopeful.

Fingers crossed for you BeckiF.

My sis had really bad cramps v. early on in her pg. It was fine in the end.

Woken up by a blled this morning, it got worse yesterday. My unit still say to carry on just in case. Still testing Monday. Feel it's pointless, how o nearth could I support a pregnancy having lost such an amount of blood. Would love to know how hester got on and whther she had a heavy bleed or just light.

i'll email her now beckie and ask her to come on and talk to you.

Here I am, Becki. So sorry I missed this thread earlier, but I remember you so well and am thrilled that you have finally started IVF.... and so sorry that you are having such a stressful time.

As I'm sure you know, loads of women bleed during early pregnancy and at least 50% of the time they don't lose the pregnancy. I bled for six weeks and nearly went out of my mind, but I was fine. Having said that, my bleeding didn't sound like yours - lighter, with no clots. I think anyone would be worried in your situation. But of course that doesn't tell you whether you'll be ok.

I'm really sorry I can't say anything more reassuring. My heart is breaking for you going through this. You really deserve better. I will pray that you get good news next week.

xxx

OK, there's something else I want to say, and I'm going to be blunt. I think the symptoms you describe are not hopeful. On the other hand, sometimes it seems impossible that a pregnancy will continue and yet it does.

You may remember that I got pregnant three months before conceiving my dd. I was completely ecstatic and kept retesting just for the joy of finally seeing that double line. Then, after a week, the second line started fading. The next day I went to an EPU to be scanned. I'd been there ages before I asked them, "Could I possibly still be pregnant?" and they looked at me like I was mad. I realised that there was no question for them that I could be, that falling HCG levels only mean one thing, and that their only concern was to check it wasn't an ectopic pregnancy. It was a horrible feeling.

Three months later I got pregnant again. Six days after my positive test I couldn't resist and tested again. The second line was fading. You can imagine how upset I was. I kept retesting that day and next morning - different tests taken at different times - and they consistently got paler and paler until the second line all but disappeared. This time I didn't bother going to EPU, just shed my tears and waited for the bleeding to start. But it didn't start. And two weeks later, feeling I was losing my mind, I went for a scan and there she was.

I still don't understand how it is possible that I didn't miscarry a second time, and no-one has been able to explain it to me. But I also think the whole of this fertility and conception business is essentially mysterious, and we have to live with a great deal of uncertainty.

Why am I telling you this? Not because I think you shoudl have unrealistic hopes. But because there are situations - like the one you are now in - when it is truly impossible to know what is going on, all you can do is try to still your brain as much as you can and do whatever you can to get through the days until greater certainty is possible.

I've probably been no help whatsoever but please know, Becky, that you are in my thoughts. You really deserve all the good luck in the world.