The Berries: The one where The Berries cease to exist after a spate of waxy knicks and a'hem seepage (thread 20)

[funkymonk]

The smallprint –
Berries have a strict entrance criteria (TTC #1, over 30, TTC for 12+months, NO instadiffers, must have a special pot and def no mention of baby dust or baby dancing UGH !!! Ooooh aren’t we strict!

Morning all,

barking (or batking, which is GENIUS rp) how are you today? Been thinking about what you were saying yesterday a lot. As others said, you perfectly summed up the bloody heartache and turmoil we've all had to go through. Also, the 'life on hold/in limbo' is something most people will never understand. One willy sniff and they're off, but I think while what we're all going through will make us better parents and I know it's made me more compassionate somehow. I was a bit more hardass before the last three years, and my infertility has somehow been a leveller, which I suppose is a positive. I hope today is a better day for you. Oh, and also, I failed to admit this on here before, but I poased on an IC at 10/11dpo and got a very clear bfn. Faint line 12dpo and been too scared to do another since. You have been warned!

pip lovely to see you here. Agree with what you say about having a limit and then moving on. OH and I had that conversation a few weeks ago for the first time and decided we would let it go after nhs ivf. I have everything crossed that your last round, when you're ready, will be the one.

beaky the cbfm totally confused me! I gave up on it and stuck with opk's and temping.

hb so sorry you're going through this.
It's so bloody unfair. Agree with what others are saying about counselling. It really sorted me out after my ectopic even though it was just a couple of sessions.

boodle!! Welcome back. Hoping cycle 2, when you are ready, is a total success. You've been really missed btw.

bushy I'm feeling the love for berrie friends too! It blows my mind that we live in a time that this can exist

• complete strangers, going through a similar thing, finding, talking and supporting one another. Love the internet!

happy sounds like the sensible thing. I'm the same - planning the wedding and not obsessing about it too much etc. have everything crossed for you for a surprise pre-wedding bfp. how are the wedding plans coming along btw?

tiger yes, worth a go. The only time
It's worked is when I've used the applicators btw - not my paws! Sorry can't hall re Lap as never had one, but agree with pip that the post-op bloating is the worst bit (I had a Fallopian tube removed some years ago and was told it was a similar procedure)

rp I'm ok, thanks for asking. Absolutely bricking it from all angles but have decided to take it one day at a time. Saw my acupuncturist yesterday and she was thrilled. She asked me if I fancied going to some fancy private early scan before the wedding (next week), but I don't think I could deal with bad news and still go ahead with the wedding. I'm a bag of nerves to be honest and convinced something terrible will no doubt happen. How are you?

Soooo, new thread! Is it ok with everybody if I stay? Not ready to get on the chopper just yet as it's v early days and need to know it's at least in the right place first. I am so freaking out that it's another ectopic. OH 'has a good feeling' and I'm clinging on to that at the moment. Also, my boyfriend is an oracle! Forgot to say in all the kerfuffle, that he woke up at the weekend and woke me up to tell me he'd dreamt that I'd said "I'm pregnant" to him. Weeeeiiiiirrrrrd!

Happy Friday everyone. I'll try and check in over my hen weekend. Wish me luck with the pretending to drink I front of 10 of my hawkeyed girlfriends

feather I hope you, rp, bushy and win don't disappear anywhere any time soon. We need the cluster diff people to stay around and catch some more of us! It wouldn't be the same without you.

Best of luck on your hen do, hope you have a fab time

morning all
of course stay as long as you want, all you diffed berries!

How are you today batking? (never getting old, that)

Temps down, boobs deflated and spotting appeared last night so feeling v sorry for myself. Acupuncture seems to have shortened my LP by 3 (count em) days! GRR

Morning all. Hope you're feeling a little better today Batking (you realise you're going to have to name change now don't you?!?)

Sorry the witch is coming for you Nolly. Have some

Feather how are you going to manage not to drink on your hen?? I don't think I would have got away with it without raising suspicion. Hope you have an amazing time!
The wedding plans are going ok thanks. It's starting to get a bit manic now. Had the first fitting for my dress yesterday. It needs to be taken in as I ordered a size bigger just in case by some miracle I did get diffed

Just noticed this thread is getting pretty chocka, think we need to update the list ready for the next thread. I'll just go dig it out......

Ok so if everyone could update their details I'll sort out the bolding once everyone's done. I do like a nice orderly list to start a new thread

barkingtreefrog, 34 (for one more month), ttc since Jan 2012. 8 day LP. Clomid bfp, mc sept 13, cycles messed up since. Starting IUI possibly this weekend?!
Nolly, 32, ttc 19 months, unexplained infertility, PCO though who knows, clomid cycle 2 as of today.
Funkymonk 32, ttc 20 months. Factor v Leiden thrombophilia. Mc July 2013 and dec 2013 (5 weeks and 8 weeks). dh lowish count and lowish morphology.
Ladybunnikins 35, ttc since Jan 2012. Unexplained. IVF#1 Oct 2013 - chemical. IVF#2 May 2014
TheRainDrops (FKA Parsley), 32 (till next month!), ttc since March 2012, unexplained, BFP Sep 2013, MMC Nov 2013, back to FC in July (hurry up!)
Beaky, 34, ttc since August 2012, unexplained, waiting for first IUI appointment to get going
Greatbigbushybeard, 35, ttc since dec 2011, IVF Number 1, OTD 15th May- eek!
RosieintheAlps (FKA kami), 36 (still enjoying the birthday bubbles this weekend), ttc 12 months, DP very low count, low motility and progression, next SA in July
tigerdog 33, ttc since January 2013. So far all results appear normal, next follow up appointment at FC in May.
Feather, 35, ttc since nov 2012. Pcos, one tube, 6 x clomid resulting in ectopic in Nov 13. HSG in March showed all-clear. Having acu and losing weight to kick start natural ovulation and it seems to be working. FC appointment in late June.
Lumen, 34, ttc since Nov11, unexplained infertility, IVF starting 19th May on long protocol.
Happylass, 36, TTC since Aug 2012 but with a break at the end of last year. Currently on (hellish) NHS waiting list for ICSI and have appt on June 7th to discuss private options.
Gillster, 40, TTC Feb 2012, awaiting removal of polyp (June), hoping for two frozen embies to be popped back into my "springy palace of the child" sometime in July.
Otters, 32, ttc since March 2012, BFP Sep 2013, MMC Nov 2013, BFP April 2014, MC May 2014, 10th round Clomid, IVF referral soon.
Boodle, 31, TTC cycle #35. Unexplained (but actually short luteal phase and crap quality embryos). One unsuccessful IVF cycle.

Graduates
Merk. ? Natural BFP. Cycle?
Thunder ? Natural BFP. Cycle?
Tally ? Natural BFP. Cycle?
Boom Clomid BFP. Twins! Cycle?
Foody Natural BFP. Cycle?
Kitty IUI BFP. Cycle?
Sid FUFC BFP (was downregging for IVF). Cycle?
Yorkie ?IVF BFP? Cycle?
Bunny ICSI BFP. Cycle 24
Winohhh- Natural BFP. Cycle 13?
RP - Basting BFP! Cycle 12?

I don't know happy - my mates will be on to me. My acu lady said yesterday 'it is so, so early - it's just a bunch of cells at this point, so there is no harm in having a couple of glasses" - what do you all think? Hmm. My plan was to get everyone s*itfaced so they'd not notice!

lumen don't you worry, I'll be here. Feel like I'm in limbo till the scan.

Right, stats:

Feather, 35, ttc since Sept 12. one tube, pcos, 6 or 7 x clomid, bfp Nov 13 ended in ectopic. Hsg mar 14 - all clear. Acu & weightloss = tentative bfp May 14. Cycle 21.

nolly sorry, just saw your post. Are you sure it's af? What cd are you?

Here's my updated stats

Lumen, 34, ttc since Nov 11, unexplained, long protocol IVF May/Jun 14

Thanks for doing updated list

barkingtreefrog, 34 (for one more month), ttc since Jan 2012. 8 day LP. Clomid bfp, mc sept 13, cycles messed up since. Starting IUI possibly this weekend?!
Nolly, 32, cycle 20 (i think) months, unexplained, PCO though who knows, currently on clomid but i hate it.
Funkymonk 32, ttc 20 months. Factor v Leiden thrombophilia. Mc July 2013 and dec 2013 (5 weeks and 8 weeks). dh lowish count and lowish morphology.
Ladybunnikins 35, ttc since Jan 2012. Unexplained. IVF#1 Oct 2013 - chemical. IVF#2 May 2014
TheRainDrops (FKA Parsley), 32 (till next month!), ttc since March 2012, unexplained, BFP Sep 2013, MMC Nov 2013, back to FC in July (hurry up!)
Beaky, 34, ttc since August 2012, unexplained, waiting for first IUI appointment to get going
Greatbigbushybeard, 35, ttc since dec 2011, IVF Number 1, OTD 15th May- eek!
RosieintheAlps (FKA kami), 36 (still enjoying the birthday bubbles this weekend), ttc 12 months, DP very low count, low motility and progression, next SA in July
tigerdog 33, ttc since January 2013. So far all results appear normal, next follow up appointment at FC in May.
Feather, 35, ttc since Sept 12. one tube, pcos, 6 or 7 x clomid, bfp Nov 13 ended in ectopic. Hsg mar 14 - all clear. Acu & weightloss = tentative bfp May 14. Cycle 21
Lumen, 34, ttc since Nov11, unexplained infertility, IVF starting 19th May on long protocol.
Happylass, 36, TTC since Aug 2012 but with a break at the end of last year. Currently on (hellish) NHS waiting list for ICSI and have appt on June 7th to discuss private options.
Gillster, 40, TTC Feb 2012, awaiting removal of polyp (June), hoping for two frozen embies to be popped back into my "springy palace of the child" sometime in July.
Otters, 32, ttc since March 2012, BFP Sep 2013, MMC Nov 2013, BFP April 2014, MC May 2014, 10th round Clomid, IVF referral soon.
Boodle, 31, TTC cycle #35. Unexplained (but actually short luteal phase and crap quality embryos). One unsuccessful IVF cycle.

Graduates
Merk. ? Natural BFP. Cycle?
Thunder ? Natural BFP. Cycle?
Tally ? Natural BFP. Cycle?
Boom Clomid BFP. Twins! Cycle?
Foody Natural BFP. Cycle?
Kitty IUI BFP. Cycle?
Sid FUFC BFP (was downregging for IVF). Cycle?
Yorkie ?IVF BFP? Cycle?
Bunny ICSI BFP. Cycle 24
Winohhh- Natural BFP. Cycle 13?
RP - Basting BFP! Cycle 12?

thanks happy for the wine and new thread

feather cd 28. normally cycle is 32 days. hmpf. I'm sure I never used to spot before AF, but then i doubt i properly noticed or cared before ttc took over my life. So i may have done. after a year+ of 'is it isn't it' I just try and accept the worst as soon as spotting shows and don't spend hours googling 10dpo spotting could it be bfp whatever anyone tells you

Oh well. At least got it out the way before shiny new thread full of hope :)

Sorry nolly, but I'm of the "it ain't over till the big fat witch shows" school of thought. How long have you been having acu? And are you London based? I want to send everyone to see my acu lady - she's amazing.

Thanks for sorting the new thread Happy
HampshireBlues, 35 (for a few more weeks) ttc 34months, unexplained, cycle 1 IVF chemical pregnancy, awaiting review

feather I think everyone on here will want to see your acu lady! You could have a few drinks or sips of the starts of drinks then find plant pots to chuck them in / places to put down and lose. You could start with a mixer drink then start having just the lemonade/coke part and hopefully people won't notice. Depends what your friends are like.

greatbigbushybeard 35 ttc nearly 2 and a half years, since dec 2011.
1st cycle of Ivf/icsi April/May and tentative bfp.

barkingtreefrog, 34 (for 2 more weeks), ttc since Jan 2012. 8 day LP. Clomid bfp, mc sept 13, cycles messed up since. Had one round of IUI, taking a break before the next one.

11dpo. Another bfn. Part of me wishes I hadn't insisted on the progesterone as AF would have been here at least two days ago. I know that's stupid though, as it was less likely to work without it. My skin is the worst it has been since I started the acupuncture, it's not liked all the extra hormones. Still holding onto the fact that it's not over until the blood test on Monday says so....

Are you starting the new thread happy or just organising the list? I was going to set one up but I'll get back to work if you're already on the case!

Was going to do a big post but will wait til new thread!

Beaky 34, ttc since August 2012, problems with spotting, random bleeding, short cycles diagnosed with adenomyosis. Possibly starting IUI in July.

barkingtreefrog, 34 (for 2 more weeks), ttc since Jan 2012. 8 day LP. Clomid bfp, mc sept 13, cycles messed up since. Had one round of IUI, taking a break before the next one.
Nolly, 32, cycle 20 (i think) months, unexplained, PCO though who knows, currently on clomid but i hate it.
Funkymonk 32, ttc 20 months. Factor v Leiden thrombophilia. Mc July 2013 and dec 2013 (5 weeks and 8 weeks). dh lowish count and lowish morphology.
Ladybunnikins 35, ttc since Jan 2012. Unexplained. IVF#1 Oct 2013 - chemical. IVF#2 May 2014
TheRainDrops (FKA Parsley), 32 (till next month!), ttc since March 2012, unexplained, BFP Sep 2013, MMC Nov 2013, back to FC in July (hurry up!)
Beaky 34, ttc since August 2012, problems with spotting, random bleeding, short cycles diagnosed with adenomyosis. Possibly starting IUI in July.
greatbigbushybeard 35 ttc nearly 2 and a half years, since dec 2011.
1st cycle of Ivf/icsi April/May and tentative bfp.
RosieintheAlps (FKA kami), 36 (still enjoying the birthday bubbles this weekend), ttc 12 months, DP very low count, low motility and progression, next SA in July
tigerdog 33, ttc since January 2013. So far all results appear normal, next follow up appointment at FC in May.
Feather, 35, ttc since Sept 12. one tube, pcos, 6 or 7 x clomid, bfp Nov 13 ended in ectopic. Hsg mar 14 - all clear. Acu & weightloss = tentative bfp May 14. Cycle 21
Lumen, 34, ttc since Nov11, unexplained infertility, IVF starting 19th May on long protocol.
Happylass, 36, TTC since Aug 2012 but with a break at the end of last year. Currently on (hellish) NHS waiting list for ICSI and have appt on June 7th to discuss private options.
Gillster, 40, TTC Feb 2012, awaiting removal of polyp (June), hoping for two frozen embies to be popped back into my "springy palace of the child" sometime in July.
Otters, 32, ttc since March 2012, BFP Sep 2013, MMC Nov 2013, BFP April 2014, MC May 2014, 10th round Clomid, IVF referral soon.
Boodle, 31, TTC cycle #35. Unexplained (but actually short luteal phase and crap quality embryos). One unsuccessful IVF cycle.
HampshireBlues, 35 (for a few more weeks) ttc 34months, unexplained, cycle 1 IVF chemical pregnancy, awaiting review

Graduates
Merk. ? Natural BFP. Cycle?
Thunder ? Natural BFP. Cycle?
Tally ? Natural BFP. Cycle?
Boom Clomid BFP. Twins! Cycle?
Foody Natural BFP. Cycle?
Kitty IUI BFP. Cycle?
Sid FUFC BFP (was downregging for IVF). Cycle?
Yorkie ?IVF BFP? Cycle?
Bunny ICSI BFP. Cycle 24
Winohhh- Natural BFP. Cycle 13?
RP - Basting BFP! Cycle 12?

I think that's the list done? Barking is going to set up the new thread as I'm on my ph

^^ was just about to say as I'm on my phone and bound to cock it up. Pretty much proves my point!!
I'll sort out transferring the list if no one else fancies doing it

I'm on it! Just bolding the list and then I'll post it and put a link on here. Can everyone start packing up please?

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Last one out switch off the lights

Bags packed, ready to rock and roll, berry style!

All aboard the sausage shuttle!

Packing the duvet and GF biscuits...

Wait for meeeeeeee!