hello Uki, I'm sorry for your loss, but you are really welcome here, there are marvellous kind thoughtful souls on this thread and you will find friendship and support.
I know exactly how you feel - my 12 wk scan in late April showed that our baby had died at 7 weeks. Given that I had felt sick as a dog for the full 12 weeks and with sore breasts etc as in my previous pregnancy, there was no real reason to think anything was wrong (although I was very nervous about the whole thing and prepared for something to go wrong - mainly because a colleague had suffered a missed mc, with no idea that such a thing might happen - a horrible shock for her).
It's a horrible way to have a miscarriage, as I'm finding now with my current pregnancy (I got pregnant straight away again, a miracle really given that we had waited a year to conceive before) as no matter how many symptoms of pregnancy you have, nothing reassures you - even scans give only short relief!
But if have an appointment with the recurrent mc unit (the one in Paddington, with Prof Regan?) then you will get great care, and all I've read by her is really positive about chances. (although even though she says, if you see a heartbeat a 8/9 weeks, you are 97% sure to bring a baby home at the end of the pregnancy, what you know in your head sometimes doesn't take away the fears....) I know from experience that really compassionate medical help (I got great care from the Homerton EPU in Hackney) can make a big difference, and you feel a bit less on your own.
I'm now feeling like a rabbit in the headlights about as we have the 13 wk scan on tuesday. it will bring back lots of memories of the mc, however it turns out.
anyway, sorry for going on, but wanted to let you know you aren't alone and wish you luck and peace in your heart for this journey.
love to all on the thread.