thankyou all for being so polite and considerate, tbh I've talked to few people about the experience and it's seemed like an every-day occurance to hear about to them. And here I am, telling the most brief version i could to women who have experienced the same miserable sht of losing part of yourself and you all read it and appreciatte the individual. So thankyou, it means a lot. really* means a lot.
The whole experience was so awful, it's one of those events you think back and wonder if it actually happened because you can't imagine being able to get through it. But somehow we all did, and we're here to go through another day until we are somewhat justified as loving, caring mothers/mothers-to-be.
Seeing the baby was the most delightful thing I did in the whole process, a mother should always be able to hold their baby especially when it's their only chance to hold them whilst they're asleep.
I have a full version down on blog now if anybody would like to know more about MMC and being left to it, nothing prepared me for it at all, and maybe my story will help somebody else. vix2812Cardiff.blogspot.com
To those interested in hearing about the perverted minds of ones that lie about M/C's; my fiancee's ex announced she was pregnant (just as we got together and he stopped all communication with her), I was also pregnant by an ex-partner. My fiancee never responded to her as this was one in a many string of lies throughout their time together and apart. Eventually he received a facebook message from her saying she had miscarried due to 'stress'. (which we all know for your first m/c, and a few after, they dont even bother giving you a reason). We found out she was lying as her own friend said she knew about the whole thing and that it was made-up.
Im reading some of these posts and congratulations lies try not to be too worried and relax, you don't want this whole pregnancy to be stressful and tense.
Also, so devastated to read about you Mummy, i can't believe how tough you are. I've only been through it once, don't think i could cope a second. Just remember what's meant to be, will be.
Maybe sometimes something/God/whatever you believe in is trying to protect us, maybe sometimes the fate of our children would've been worse had the pregnancy or their life had continued? I personally believe that there wasn't something right with my baby (biologically) and my body shut it down. Maybe it saved me from still-birthing or worse, the baby dying from sudden death. That would've been far more painful.
Fingers crossed for the ladies here and everywhere, my period's slowing today so due to an early ovualtion in my cycle, i'll hopefully be active in a week or so and with some good news in a month.