Thanks to Alyant for the welcome,
Reading through some posts, it's amazing how many of us are going through the mill of TTC.
Just remember girls, when it's meant to be, it will be. The child you eventually catch with and you give birth to, is who they are through the good and the bad you've had to experience. And you'll love them for that.
I didn't explain much about my m/c, or why I'm here. So here goes;
I used ovulation tests and conceived the first month testing. Around 9 weeks i told the Dr to get my 11 week scan. On April 29th 2012, I had the scan which told me the baby had no heartbeat. I had a missed miscarriage. I decided to wait and see for 2 weeks before agreeing to medical management. I took the oral pill and everything came out that night (May 20th 2012). The following 4 weeks was arranging it to be buried. As i m/c at home and we had to 'check the contents' of everything, we saw him/her (personally i think it was him). Once we saw him/her, we couldn't do anything other than bury him. He/She was 12+1, and had all the general features, even eyes and nostrils.
The emotions involved are so complicated, I was angry at the baby for being weak, my partner for maybe not being so supportive during the pregnancy (i was working 2 jobs, when he didn't), i was sad and greiving, i was envious and jealous at other mums-to-be, i was bitter and cold.
The worst part is, i've known and heard of women that lie about m/c. One woman was my partners ex, and caused our first few months together to be hell. If she'd really had a m/c, she never would even think to lie about one. I wouldn't wish this on an enemy, the most traumatic experience for a woman.
Besides from that, there is hope. My very own sister-in-law m/c and conceived my beautiful niece only 4 months after, even after an infection caused by left-over tissue from the m/c.