Rainbow Babies - hoping and trying for rainbows, loving and remembering our Angels xxx

[Ellypoo]

Hoping this thread brings us all luck and hope xxx

Angel- that would be wishful thinking! Yes it is still high, first high on cd 15 (I normally ov on cd17), I haven't peaked so I'm assuming no ov this month. Gah, it's all so bloody confusing!

It would be lovely if the stall holder is there.

Oh forgot to ask - those who have had planned sections between 37 and 38 weeks - were you given steroid injections to help mature lungs? My consultant said today there was no need but have had a look around and guidelines seem to be that you should have them up to 38 weeks if c-sec as higher chance of respiratory distress compared to vaginal birth.

fan and blizy FX as well as toes here, for you both!!

angel I love Bruges... and I especially love the Belgian waffles and their moules and frites - might be why I put on so much weight when I was there for a year However, given your success at weight loss, I'm sure you have a stronger will than I do.

whatever a date, a date!! So how many weeks will you be then? Just interested by your last comments, as I have been told that they would do planned c-sections at my hospital at 39 weeks, and they haven't mentioned any earlier, so just curious.

Getting nervous about this scan - conscious that it is actually an 'anomaly scan'. I don't think we will find out the sex. We didn't with Mia, but we did ask for the sonographer to write the sex on a piece of paper and put it into a sealed envelope, in case we changed our minds... I opened it once Mia was born, and it was correct! I am a little tempted to know, but at the same time, I wouldn't be able to keep it a secret, and somehow, it will feel that this baby is public property if everyone knows, and starts on with names and buying stuff... not sure that makes sense. Baby did give me a series of huge kicks late last night, and DH had his first proper feel of the baby moving.

Oh I'd love to go to a proper Christmas Market. I love the german style ones we have here - I always go to one in the grounds of Winchester Cathedral but it would be even better to go properly! Hope the stallholder is there angel

Mias when is your scan? Totally understand the nerves - I was a wreck before mine this time but all will be well. I am having my c-sec at 37 weeks. In the consultants words 'you will have done enough by then'. I'm so relieved as it is only 10 days before Erin's first birthday so if they'd made me wait much longer I could potentially have still been in hospital on 25/08 which I would have found impossibly hard. It's interesting as she said at 36+6 they have to put together a full clinical case for elcs but at the magic 37 weeks it is accepted on consultant recommendation.

Mia yes the waffles & chocolates are fab oh & the beer .we found a bar that sells 400 different types of beer & my dad still asked for a Stella!!!! .The hot chocolate with liquers are lethal!!!!
Good luck with your scan I remember just how nerve racking the scans are xxxx
Blizy thanks... I ve no will power just think when I m out or away " sod it" I ll have what I want then try to be good the rest of the time!!! Mmm... Yes, would be lovely to show Phebs off ... Xxx
Blue Belguim certainly do much nicer & less crowded Xmas markets than we do... Went to Lincoln last year : nightmare... So busy we couldn t get to any of the stalls... B ham is the same also... Forgot you re the expert on Belguim!!! Xxx
Whatever I had 2 steroid injection 4 & 2 days before my section .i had Phebs at 37,3 weeks and my consultant offered it as a matter of precaution although at 37 weeks you re full term & technically the risk is somewhat reduced however there wasn t anything I was leaving to chance!!! Injections were fine I had them at ante-natal when I went in for tracing anyhow so no hard ship. I' d certainly enquire/ push for them..
Mia 39 weeks certainly seems very late ... I originally wanted a section at 37 weeks my consultant wanted 38 weeks so we compromised on 37,3 weeks!!!! I wouldn't / couldn t have waited any longer!!!
Xxxxx

Hello all. Fx for fan and blizy, thinking positive thoughts for u both.

Great to see u talking about due dates. Gives me hope that I may get there one day. Just wish the next month would hurry up so we start ttc again (i'm not very patient when it comes to these things!).

Went in to see my boss today for first time since losing Daisy. After I'd stopped blubbing on him, we had a really good chat. Going back to work on Mon, but gonna play it by ear as to whether I do full days or reduced hours. Will see how I get on.

Good luck for scans. Excited for due dates, etc. :o

Angel - I live in Lincoln so have to face the annoyance of the Xmas market each year! Don't get me wrong, I'm not a bah humbug or anything but very niggly having your normal routes disrupted and local watering spots overrun with people. It's the same every year, so we don't go anymore. Being only 5 foot tall, I especially don't get to see any stalls, ha! It's not so busy on the Thursday, though.

Got agility competition this weekend. I'm just aiming for a clear round from both of the doggies, especially Boomer (the younger one) as he hasn't had one yet. Well actually he has once, but I managed to knock a pole off with my heal so we got 5 faults. Naughty handler! If not, will just try to enjoy myself. Will be good to see my fellow dog botherers, anyway.

Night all. Sleep tight. Xx

I'm too scared to test, what if I have another miscarriage!
I think I'm going to put it off till tomorrow

Not surprised Little ... I used to live in York & tourists were everywhere... Did my head in!!! Everyone ( at work) raved about Lincoln market so we went for my bday last year (1 st dec) luckily Phebs stayed at the hotel , as was only 6 weeks old, while we alternated with my folks at the market. It was stupidly crowded , stall holders were saying it was extra crowded due to being cancelled the year before!!! Every 3 rd stall was the same , couldn t get a drink anywhere!! Wouldn t bother going again though hotel was nice & had a lovely meal at Gabbys , Greek restaurant.. Do u know it? Mmm.... Hungry ...
Another night of disruption ... Phebs cough ++ now fast asleep when needs to be up for nusery!!! any dying of man flu!!! Men are so pathetic ???!!!

Hi everyone, sorry been away for a while. Been really busy with work & decorating but went back to doc - blood tests were clear which I expected but she has given me some happy pills to see if they help me cope and give me a bit more strength to call the counsellor etc.

How are you lovely ladies all doing?

Oh fan it must be so scary ((hugs)) you test when you feel ready xx

Sending positive vibes fan - it must be really scary xx Positive vibes to you blizy, hopefully this month will be the month for all of us - fx!

Good luck for your scan Mias

Wow wtw, you are so close now, you are doing really well, but it must be so hard. Are you having extra scans and things now, or just regular MW appointments?

Glad you had a good talk with your boss little, it takes some of the edge off when work are supportive and let you do what you need to do and take things at your own pace - good luck for next week.

I used to love christmas markets, but I hate when they are dead busy. Also, I don't think christmas will ever be the same again - I want to completely avoid it this year, I'm dreading it already :(

I've already emailed my brother a shopping list of things I would like to eat when we're over in 2 weeks we won't be able to take much back with us as we are travelling hand luggage only :(
Will be back later, need to dash out to meet my new line manager (sounds posher than it is )
x

Wtw, I had steroid injections before my CS. It's all gone a bit blurry, but it was 2 injections on different days. Gosh, it's weird how little I remember clearly! Think sheer panic was kicking in at the time.

Maia's doing very well - 18 weeks old, now! She's generally a happy chirpy baby and is, of course, totally adorable in every way. She's currently on my knee feeding herself to sleep.

Hello to Little and Mecha. So sorry to hear about Daisy and Dexter. My baby Thea was stillborn at 41+3 on 13 March 2011 and I now have another little girl, Maia, born on 9 March 2012. I hope you both conceive again quickly and the gallbladder op goes well, Mecha.

Aaaaaaaaaaggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! That's how I feel at the moment.

I've just popped into boots and bought some cheap tests, I shall use one tomorrow and then I won't waste a clear blue on this incase its negetive.

Hi everyone, just a quick hello on my phone from Wales.... Wet and a bit yucky here, but mums being fine, which is a relief. She has seen a photo of Merryn for the first time today. That was hard. (too much time has passed to be doing this for the first time).
Having the heaviest AF ever though. They are just terrible since Merryns birth, I hope they settle soon ( although, clearly I'd rather they bugger off for 9 months or so)!

Can't check all posts on bloody phone, but FAN my thoughts are with you, every good luck vibe being sent to you my lovely!

Merryns been gone for 3 months today. Even dp hasn't noticed the date, which I guess is a good thing. I seem to be hugging my grief close at the moment, and the concept that I could actually get to hold another baby one day feels like fantasy, I'm not sure I believe in it right now. The monthly cycle is pure agony to wait through. I want to stop trying, but I can't give up. I feel so strongly I should have another baby. Bit confused right now. It will feel like another loss if we never have another, if you see what I mean. Hmmmm.

Elly the first Xmas we lost Georgie , 18 months ago we didn t celebrate at all. No decorations, presents, cards etc... We had egg & chips for lunch & went to Georgie's special place to lay some flowers & that was it ... I remember feeling some sense of relief on boxing day as it was over. Understandable not to want to celebrate : u have to do whatever gets u through.. Xxx
Fan xxxxx go girl xxxx you & Blizy so deserve BFPs xxxxc much finger crossing here... Xxx
Love to all; tired; busy at work with bugger lazy shitty consultants pissing off on " time owing" from where??? When I ve got a full list + 5 extras ... Rant over: same old!!! Xxxxxx

Aaah fan you are being very strong not testing tonight when you have sticks there! I've only just got home from an all day work meeting in Guildford so haven't managed to drop the turf to the cemetery - is it ok to do it in the morning before 10am?

Green glad you're mum is being okay. It must be hard showing Merryn's photo for the first time. Glad dp remembered it was 3 months xx

wtw I keep second guessing myself, which means it has been easier to say no to the tests than yes. One minute I think I must be pg and then I think but why, Im more than likely not.
Yep thats fine to leave it tomorrow at that time, we willprobably not be able to do it will around lunch anyway, as its competition day tomorrow.

I have had a few cramps today and feeling tired and like I just want to sit down, but I do think AF is going to show. I keep rushing to the loo to see if shes here. I so want to be pg but I dont want to get my hopes up.

If you can't get it done please don't worry. You've got enough on your mind! Of course you don't want to get your hopes up and a bfn would be hard. So so so hope it's a bfp!!!

we shall get it done wtw even if I cant do it, my mate will. Hes such a lovely kind bloke, hes one of the only ones who talks about babies with me, and his youngest was a prem baby at 28 weeks, so he says he understands a little bit of how we all feel, but he is lucky his baby survived.

fan

Grrr stupidly got involved in a debate about refusing induction at 42 weeks. I just can't understand why you would refuse knowing the risks.

Whatever step away from stupid threads where people live in an idealistic world where all is peachy!!!!
Where nothing ever goes wrong & their biggest stress is actually being pg!!!!!!
Unfortunately I seem to be seeing a lot of pts like this at the moment!!!
Quote " I m stressed as I m pg!!"
Me: " why u stressed???" pt " because I m pg!!" ffs .... It took all my professional restraint to walk out on her & leave before I told her she's lucky & being pg is not stressful it's normal unless you ve been through the experiences we have!!!!!
Get real!!!! Now I m wound up... Step away ; concentrate on yourself ... These opinions/people aren t worth your stress xxxx

Hi everyone been away ages sorry, have tried to catch up on the thread sorry if I missed something impoirtant, you are all often in my thoughts waves at too

fan Ooo fingers crossed for you, though it's not easy is it, or an end to anything - just the start, I don't mean to sound negative, it's obviously positive too but there are so many emotions it's so conflicting, I guess I'm just trying to say I understand how confusing it all can be and good luck :)

wtw Blooming hec that's come close quickly, I know it's something you were saying pages and pages back but the 'plan' is to induce at 39 weeks, really it's only for my peace of mind (and I think the consultants too) as there really is no logical or medical reason I shouldn't be allowed to go overdue again - not that I could, I'd be camped out in antenatal ward refusing to leave. Hope your pain isn't too bad atm. I understand where you are coming from on what to buy - what's safe stuff. I picked out one special outfit as I'll need that regardless - and yes I considered it might be the burial outfit not the one we go home with, I'm not sure I'm at the 'we will be taking a baby home' point in my head yet. I've bought maternity pads and a nightie I hate without much thought - but getting a cot freaks me out a little iykwim.

blue Sorry I misunderstood about the care you were getting, hope the consultant continues to listen to you - it should be much more than just your physical wellbeing they are looking at - especially in a rainbow pregnancy

Mia Wow, thank you . 20 weeks don't know why everything suddenly becomes harder - even if things were fine, I was really aware it's an 'anomoly scan' - while everyone else was concentrating on wether we'd find out the sex - so they could start on about names ect ect and I'm not ready for that either even now at 32 weeks. Really hope everything goes well and the most interesting thing is some lovelly pictures for the album and nice memories.

little9 So sorry to be 'meeting' on here, what a horrible shock. This is a good place, with good people who understand or are at least damn good listeners and very very good at handholding.

Hope everyone else is well, I'm heading towards excited and as is bloody usual that frightens me, sigh. I'm going to be some sort of helicopter PFB on steroids parent I can see it now I'll drive everyone including myself totally insane (though maybe not before my mother does - she has already started talking about routines ARGH!!!) (hopefully) 7 weeks to go

BFN. Twice, now that sucks.

Ah fan that does suck any chance it's just too early still?

Waves trickle xx