Willitbe I am so sorry too that you're going through all this again. How awful for you. I do hope we can be of some help. I do remember speaking to you before and I remember I really wanted to include your story if I could get to where you live!
Thanks Stogan, Ari, Mercator, Euro and others who have said they might be up for being a case study. I think Duggs said so too when we met up. I will be making a list when I get back and then might arrange both a group meet up, where we could film us all talking about it together (obviously might be difficult for Stogan) or individual sessions. Or indeed both. It is great to have a combination of people who are pregnant, aren't pregnant, have had successful pregnancies, haven't etc etc.
Ari I am with you on the not getting anything back despite having asked for testing on the 'products' and definitely also on knowing the sex. It's real enough anyway without knowing that it would have been a baby boy or a girl. I really felt for Pebbles finding that out today, and I know a few of you have been through the same before too.
Sue although I have never been someone to crave babies as much as some people I have been writing down baby names since I was about 11 :) They have changed over the years though... I've always been interested in reading up on names and their meanings. Can't quite get my head around having to use them yet. PQ has actually done a bit of baby-stuff-accumlating for me - via a friend - so I will have to get these bits off her when i get back. Inadvertently I seem to now actually have some baby gear arriving. Can't think of myself as a 'proper pregnant person' yet kittens but am getting there. Still waiting for something to bite me in the ass.
Loving the symptom spotting Sue and Ari. Are you both writing a list? I remember both times I have actively TTC I wrote down every tiny twinge in my diary. It was really handy to refer to.
Euro no idea about the colour of the lines as the only times I have tried POAS for ovulation I just got a very very faint line, barely visible. Got pregnant both times though, so I don;t have much faith in them.
Mercator sorry you are worrying. It's going to happen unfortunately as we all know. But there's nothing you can do to change the outcome so try not to worry about worrying. I know those weeks for me this time were the longest weeks of my life. I felt like I was living life in treacle.