Hello Ladies
Just to warn in advance this is a self indulgent and panickey post, I hope to get to know your stories properly soon.
I'm new to this thread but do post on the TTC 10 month + thread.
I am going out of my mind with worry - feeling so very scared.
I am going through my first IVF cycle. My background is ttc for 2 years with one early miscarriage back in the first month of trying. Haven't had a lap but hsg showed 1 nearly blocked and swollen tube and one open but poor tube which didn't allow the dye to transport smoothly. They also saw evidence of adhesions / endo as the fluid pooled in pockets of scar tissue after it had come out of the end of the tube.
I have been disgnosed with right sided hydrosalpinx (toxic fluid in fallopian tube). Was advisd this can hinder implantation but they usually suggest trying IVF without removing the tube/s first and seeing how that goes. The thought of removing my tubes makes me feel awful.
They had me on birth control for a few days so that they could get clinic availability (as period expected to start before then). Then I had prostap injection as down regging. Went ok. They then started me on 225 IL of menopur.
Had a bad experience yesterday morning at the scan. I have been stimming for 7-8 days. But the ovaries are not doing anything and only 2 tiny follicles were seen. In addition to this, there is far more toxic fluid than ever and possibly new hydrosaplinges in the left fallopian tube to cause problems.
The Dr said they want to try me with very high doses of stimming drug over the weekend to see if that helps. They have increased menopur to 375 IL. I will be scanned again on Monday to see if there has been any improvement. But the Dr did indicate that the poor ovarian response could be due to the hydrosalpinges that are causing the ovaries not to respond properly (had never heard that before). Or I may have premature ovarian failiure.
I asked how all of the above can happen when my blood tests showed good results and baseline scan in January had 9 follicles - he said that I may have had sudden ovarian decline.
Frightened and shocked doesn't even begin to describe how I feel.
If the increased stimming drugs don't work the cycle will be abandened (hopefully NHS funding can be saved). I then may have to consider having my tubes removed.
Even if they do proceed with egg collection this cycle (which is unlikely) the toxic fluid may prevent implantation.
I always new I was up against it with the tubal issues - but now it seems my ovaries are shutting down.
I didn't go in to work yesterday - DH came home.
Sorry for such a self indulgent post. I don't even know anyone else like me who can offer hope. I don't see how I will ever become a mum. Sorry to be so down.
I am in pieces - what would you do?