Just MC and ready to try again? Pack your leathers, black nail polish, air guitar and jump in the mosh pit for some serious metalling. All welcome! (Part 17)

[MarathonMama]

Hello! Just miscarried and ready to start again, come and join us...

Gosh, and in my state of FFS! I forgot to say I'm thinking of you IQ and holding your virtual hand.

Gonna go back and read through but thought I should let you know how it all went - essentially all is fine, there is a bean and a heartbeat. For those who are interested please read on for my experiences of the scan department!!!!

We got to hospital an hour early (traffic around there is hideous and didnt want to miss my appointment) and in the end were seen pretty quickly. On arriving at the desk was asked whether I wanted a nuchal scan.....looked at nurse and said "those notes are for my last pregnancy, I had an mc and I'm pg again.....I'm here for an early dating scan". Her reply was "oh ok....not sure whats gone wrong here then". At which point I looked at my sister with my I don't believe it face. We sat down and waited and I got my tokens for pictures.

Went in was feeling really sickly by this point but midwife was really sweet. I asked if she had to do the internal but she said let's do the outside one first and go from there. Lying on my back saying prayers like you wouldn't believe and then the gel and the stick on my tummy......waiting to see if there was anything there......me closing eyes tightly sister leaning into the screen and threatening me to keep me calm.....then the midwife said "there you go" - I looked up and cried. There was my little bean and then she said hold still and she showed me the heartbeat. I have never been so pleased to see a little flicker in my life. Can't describe how good it felt.....after the bleeding, worrying about lack of symptoms and metalling there was my baby.

Trying not to get my hopes up still as we haven't got past the holy grail 12 week mark but have decided to TRY to chill - today I am pg and I couldn't be happier. Thank you for all your support and talking me down ladies you are all amazing!!!!

Now I must make a cup of tea and then I will catch up with the rest of the thread. Xxx

Lady Maybe the MC threads are the best place to be right now? I know I found the stories and experiences of what other women went through helpful in deciding what to do. I had an ERPC and it was quick, painless and - apart from the first couple of visits to the loo - I had very little bleeding afterwards (or pain for that matter). Take care, and we're not going anywhere, so hope to see you back when you're ready.

Manda !! What are you doing to us?? Are you going to wait until tomorrow now? You must be deep within the mosh pit and metalling like crazy!

IQ will be waiting to hear good news later. Glad you've got the support of your sis, even just going to the EPU, waiting in the waiting room, lying on the scan bed etc is horrible after you've been through a MC.

Blue must be difficult working so closely with someone who's only a few weeks behind where you should have been, and might be harder when she starts spreading her good news. I still get little pangs of jealousy when I hear about, or see, yet another happy 12week scan . I don't mean it, it's just there. Of course, I really am happy for the pg ones, as growing a baby is the most amazing and special thing, I just wish it was me. Am willing evil AF to take a hike and let you get down to it

Hey Cuttle Double shifts? Yuck. Glad to hear you're doing well. How many weeks are you? (Feel free to ignore this question if you'd rather stay in denial for a bit longer )

Summer your weekend sounds fab! My head office is in Edinburgh. I wasn't so keen on the city a few years ago (much preferred the buzz of Glasgow) but have grown to really like it. It has some really nice bars, which you obviously had no trouble finding . The 2 cities are so different, and can't really be compared. Me and DH went on the Glasgow bus tour when we came home from our hol (on our last day before DD came home). Was a laugh, as we pretended we were tourists and talked in German accents the whole way round (had gubbed a jug of sangria with our tapas lunch, and had a champagne cocktail too, so were slightly merry )

Marathon I heard girls at bodypump last night talking about training for a half marathon, it made me think of you

Hi Eve Whatso Shimmery Poppy Pie baby* Hobnob Mrsnesbit hope I haven't missed anyone. Have we lost Mrs N ? This new thread was started less than 72 hours ago and there are over 100 posts already. Maybe she tried to catch up and had to go for a rest We don't half like to talk!

Oh IQ that is fantastic news!! SO SO for you!! Really made my day hearing your news! at silly scan department though asking about nuchal etc...

manda d'oh!! Bet you're realy kicking yourself...could you just refuse to drink anything and try in a little while? Or have you decided to try and wait until tomorrow?!?

Yeah IQ fab, fab news, so happy for you! And that is the right attitude to have. Today you are pg and your precious little bean is quite happily nestling in where he/she should be But to the mix up. I bet that didn't help with the anxiety! Have they given you a due date then?

IQ so so happy for you! Hang on in there IQ Junior

Oh IQ your post made me cry, I'm so happy for you! The chance of mc after you've seen a hb is about 3% which is piddly so hopefully you can relax a bit now.

What's your due date based on the scan and how many weeks are you? Have you managed to contact DH?

You've spurred me on to call the midwives later although I think they'll tell me to bugger off for a few weeks.

Manda you're driving me potty lady. Will you please just hold it in for a few hours and than POA bloody S to put us all out of our misery.

Lady I agree with MissG, the miscarriage threads might give you some comfort until you're ready to think about trying again.

No symptoms here today

IQ you have brought a tear to my eye! Such wonderful news and congratulations on a healthy heartbeat!

manda i got my BFP with DS with 7pm weewee! Just bloomin do it woman!

missg i agree - i have also been to Glasgow and much prefer Edinburgh, yep we found plenty of sources of

late i second the MC boards, they helped me through and you are still in such an early stage, come back when you are ready and we will keep the warm for you - and depending on the time of day we shall have a nicely chilled! Take lots of care and remember we are here for you

well i am on full metalling mode now. I am 14DPO and CD24, so AF/POAS could come any day from now. I felt AF cramps yesterday and saw a tiny bit of brown spotting this morn, however nothing now, am sooo I have said to myself that i am not POAS until Sunday as by then i shall be CD28/18DPO and i have never been later than that. Also i only have one CB digi left and DH will have a fit if i buy any more as i spent a fortune on them over the last two months.

Any room in the padded cell?????????

big waves to marathon blue whatso* poppy shimmery eve hobnob baby wow we really do have a metalling crew dont we?!

Morning all.

Yay for IQ and junior IQ. Hang on in there. So pleased all was well. It must be such a roller coaster ride of feelings. Hope the next 30 weeks fly by.

Late to this - hope you are ok. I know I have already said this but it takes time. the day I went for my 12 week scan to be told i had MMC I organised child care op etc really up beatly!!!! Just took it on the chin as one of those things the next few weeks were very up and down, but now I can look forward and get back to it with a vengeance :-)

Poppy - hope you have a great few days sure you will have a fab time. Although camping in tent is not for me - we have dorms this weekend :-)

Baby - good news about the help arriving. Bet you can't well and week of 3 extra helpers is going to make such a difference.

Summer - glad you and DH had a good weekend sounds like a fair bit of drinking was done :-)

Blue - Hopefully AF is on her way out. Know how you feel thinking what if. Have family member due 2 days before me - and her face book updates reminder me every time. I am pleased for her she has been trying for a baby for 5 years and this one was her 3rd lot of IVF. Still smarts though.

Manda - what are you doing to us women...... hold on to a wee for 4 hours now and tell us.....

Hope everyone else is ok. The dentist went swimming well yesterday DS was the first in the chair and had a ball - you would of thought he was going to Florida he was so excited!!! Also lost 4 lb this week so a total of 40 lb now. Only another 20 to go. So it is a race to see if I get pg first or get to goal. Not sure which I want more!!!!!!

Best get on with some work I guess camp this weekend then a week off to recover can't wait!!

eve how old is your DS? mine is 2 and i am wondering when he will start going to the dentist

Whoop IQ, fab news

Sorry for short post, short lunch today. I am 10dpo and still spotting (since 8dpo), its pinky/brown and on the TP. GRRRRR, WTF is going on!!! Couldn't help myself test this AM and it was big big fat fat BFN. Really don't know why I did though! Such a waste! I've never had spotting pre AF before until post m/c (now 2nd cycle), GAH!

pie i am spotting a little too but shit scared to POAS as i just know it means AF is on her fecking way, the old trout

how long are your LP's usually? do you think it is the dreaded witch visiting you too?

oh and BTW pie i told my friend about your funny status (remember when you were asking about her treatment and then how manyDPO i am in the same breath?!) she thought it was a hoot and keeps asking me about my DPO!!!!!!

summer my lps are usually pretty short but I ov'd 5 days earlier this cycle (?!) and the spotting started on 8dpo, last month it started on 10dpo with the witch in full force by 12dpo. I'm now on my 3rd day of it! I'm panicking that my hormones and body have all gone to whack and I'll never get pregnant again! I don't get PMS of any kind (not like I used to!), no sore boobs or anything. Am pretty sure i've got low progesterone levels but from what i've read they don't tend to do anything about it. Mmmmmm, all a waiting game and i'm no good at that!

Is AF now late for you?! POAS POAS POAS!!!!

Yes Summer POAS!! TWAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNGGGGGG! (musical encouragement from my air guitar obv )

I have a question for all you CM charters. Warning: way TMI coming up.

I just went down the stairs (my office is upstairs) to make a and was standing putting coffee in a mug when I felt warm and wet down there. So, off to toilet to inspect said warm wetness. It was this thick creamy-coloured CM, kind of like a paste, but not wall paper paste as it was not sticky at all, and I can't think of a foodstuff I would compare it to. I have always said that I haven't ever checked CM (not when TTC anyway) so assumed this was the EWCM everyone mentions, and was thinking "Oh great, all that SWI and I am only Ov now??!!" Having only had a light 2day period at 7weeks 2 day after ERPC, I have just been guessing/assuming when Ov would happen based on previous cycle

So onto Dr Google I went. I previously thought 'EWCM' meant extra white creamy mucus but having now read every several baby/pg/fertility websites, I now see it must mean Egg white cervical mucus. Duh. Feeling quite stupid now. Anyway, this is most def not EWCM. So, panic over .... sort of.

But then I remembered, the last time I remember having this CM of the exact same colour/consistency was during the the first few weeks of my last pg!! Totally getting way ahead of myself again, and have promised myself I won't POAS until Sunday (which would be CD 27, with ucl before MC being 27/28). Today I consider myself to be CD23, but having never felt the little pinch I think I could feel before at OV time, I have no clue whether I even Ov. Just assuming so

Of course, I may well be metalling over nothing (turns up Rage Against The Machine album) but has anyone else ever had that thick creamy stuff in the very early stages of pg? I don't want to get my hopes up, but we all know the rockers on this thread are by far the best metallers around!!

erhem i had that when PG with DS (i know coz i searched back for my previous posts back in 2008 when i was a lowly summerbird without the 73) i checked to see what my symptoms were - i posted on the fred: 'is EWCM a symptom coz i have loads of it today' and then a few hours later i got my BFP.

just saying!

er missg and pie will you two shut uuuuuuuup. i cant POAS as i only have one left! also am getting some little back cramps - and have been going to the loo every half hour and reckon there is some brown spotting - i think - maybe.

I am 14DPO today and CD24 - i will be CD28 on Sunday but may test on Saturday if AF doesnt turn up by then (or shall i do FMU on Sun morn? - ponders)

Part of me wishes AF would just bloody turn up to put me out of (or in) my misery!

pie you WILL get PG again i know coz we all said so!

AF tailing off today (although it did that last month and then irriatatingly came back again). Just want it over with so I can get back to SWI, then get my Motorhead t-shirt on and join you lot in the moshpit

Ooh ooh ooh! Will you lot just bloody POAS MissG, Summer, Manda - I'll give you a if you do. Pretty please???

Just arranged a booking appointment with the midwives and wish I hadn't. They want to see me next week as they're really busy (being summer hols, a few of them are away) but it feels far too soon and I feel like I've jinxed it. Also, I'm wearing the cardi I had on the day of the mmc scan so in my head I'I feel like I'm also jinxing it. Mad, I know, but my brain is all over the shop.

switches music in padded cell to a spot of Iron Maiden and joins the party

Feeling a bit left out of the padded cell and mosh pit so might just invite myself in anyway my excuse...AF seems to have gone

Yes Summer and Manda, as Marathon says, POAS!

Pie. It can be hard to stay positive, can't it? BUT we are all going to get pg on this thread, I'm sure of it.
I would say it's only your second cycle, and it's early days yet, but that would sound patronising. I'm only in my first and it feels like an eternity. Chin up, boobs out, and PMA all the way to that BFP

Marathon I am trying my best to hold off. Don't have any in the house, and am still only half-dressed and have greasy hair (working from home has its perks). Don't want to ask DH to get me a test on the way home, as I did that last week (during my last metalling incident) and he was like "But I thought you weren't due to test for another week and a half". I was like "don't ask questions, just do what you're told" but then he could see the disappointment in my face when it was a BFN, so I will feel daft asking him to get another and he'll probably think its a bad idea if I do. Sigh.....

And welcome to the Jungle (see what I done there?!?! ) Cardigans do not jinx anything (Although, I had my 'lucky' cardigan on when my boyfriend in 2nd year dumped me . Me and my friends wrote horrible things about him all over it - then binned it before my folks saw the less-than-lady-like slurs What will you be next week, 6/7 weeks ish? I totally know what you mean about it feeling to soon though. If you're really not happy about it, tell them they will need to fit you in sometime later. (pft, Patient-led service my arse NHS)

Hi Whatso good to hear you're suitably attired for the metalling. My Mini Mouse PJ top and joggys really aren't cutting it

ps Blue you are so right about the torment of when to POAS. We can't win really!

Well, because you were all so pushy encouraging, I held for six hours and it's looking like bfn. But, an opk as well on a whim I took was super dark - test line darker than the control so I'm as I'm sure I've O'd from my temps, just not entirely sure when.

I think, if I go with my gut, it was saturday. Which makes me 4 dpo. It must have been a yucky evap (although no evap this time).

I'm not that sad. Because Im really not sure I'm 10 dpo after all. And even if I am, it's still early to get a bfp. And even if I am, my lp was only 9 days last month so it's improved.

Sorry about getting you all excited for nada. I'm still so confused about where I am in my cycle that I'll continue to metal. Or, perhaps metal-lite. Which artist would you suggest for that?

IQ yaaaaaaaaay! Fabulous news that smallIQ is doing well in there. Managed to get the news to DH yet?

Oh manda so sorry if we've all been a bit too encouraging super pushy about you POAS...guess it just goes to prove that our bodies are still likely to be a bit all over the place after MC etc...what a pain! Are you going to test again in the morning just to be sure or wait now since you think you may only be 4DPO?

Just seen my friend and her 2 week old little one...dropped dinner over for them...he DD is sooo mini and cute!

My brain has been doing crazy things trying to convince myself that my bloating and itchy nipples could mean a lot more than just AF finishing and that there might be some way that AF wasn't actually AF and that I should POAS...but think maybe all this talk of POAS is just going to my head and I need to go and find that rational place in my mind which seems to have utterly disappeared since we started TTC!

How's everyone else this evening? ...can't believe we're already half way through the week again!!

Hehe, don't worry blue I was only jesting - I'd also be encouraging becoming a poas pusher if any one of you had said the things I did!

I think, in all honesty, given I really don't actually know how many dpo I am (the three sets of crosshairs fertility friend give me as O days when I make slight alterations sugest I could be 10, 6 or 4 dpo) that I'll probaby test each morning. I have around 40 ic's so... why not?

manda I too have a huge stash of IC's and last week I ordered a pack of 2 CB digi sticks which give weeks too as I thought desperately hoped that I might need them this week...but then AF came on Sunday, so now I have them all stashed and ready to tempt me this cycle!! Happy POASing here's hoping for good news some time in the next few days and not a visit from she-who-shall-not-be-named!!