Hand hold. No heartbeat 38+5 being induced currently.

[MisssC3025]

Hi all..

Just need some people to talk to. My baby was diagnosed with a lethal condition at 20wks. We decided to carry to term knowing that he may pass away in utero... which has been the case for us.. we found out yesterday after experiencing no movement 😭😔 (38wks +5)

Came into hosp this morn to start induction process. Have had two lots of misoprostol. Cervix examination at 4pm suggested that my cervix is still posterior.

After first tablet was inserted at 12pm I started getting bad cramps like period pain. Since getting my second they're much stronger. My back is achey!! Have so far just had paracetamol.

It's an ongoing dull painful ache and my tummy tightens every now and then. This is my first pregnancy so no idea how contractions should feel!

Any advice support would be grateful. Obviously if things progress I may not be able to message but at the moment I'd really like some people to talk to.

Anyone with similar experiences 💙💙

OP

The hardest bit is saying goodbye. I lost a son, not as far along in my pregnancy as you, but also had to give birth and say goodbye.

I found his funeral harder than the day I gave birth.

Sending you, your DP, and beautiful Lucas lots of love and light xx

I am in tears reading your update OP.

You are incredible, as is Lucas.

Full of strength, bravery and courage.

May your days be filled with wonderful memories and love.

You deserve the very best xxx

So moved by your message.
Thank you for sharing your journey.
I am sure he felt your love.
I am sending love and healing to you and your family.

I'm in tears reading what you said. Beautiful words. Your Lucas is so lucky to have you as his mummy.
Enjoy taking all his beauty in and don't rush yourself.
Shine bright like the brightest star, Lucas.
Rest peacefully gorgeous boy 💙

I'm also in tears and in awe of your bravery and every other parent who goes through this.

Hopefully the knowledge that we are all virtually giving you a big cuddle and support will encourage you to keep taking steps and moving forward every day in your life whilst having the most wonderful memories of Lucas
Lots of love x

What you have written is so lovely. I am in awe at what you have gone through and your courage. Peace and love to you and and your DP and your little boy.

My heart breaks for you. I'm so sorry you are going through this.
Lucas is a very lucky boy to have you and DP as parents.
Thinking of you and your family 🌼

I have no words. I’m so sorry.

Sleep tight Lucas

oh my goodness, you are so brave and you should be so proud. Lucas is lucky to have you as his mummy

Sleep tight little darling, sending so much love xxx

You are just unbelievably strong.

Sleep tight little Lucas

Little Lucas - what a gorgeous name. I'm so pleased you have had this time with him. What an amazing, brave and inspiring mummy you are. Sending you love, and strength as you make the decision to say goodbye 💓

I’m so sorry for what you have gone through. You are an amazing brave woman. God bless your beautiful Lucas. This thread has really moved me.

Sending you all love back, Lucas will always be remembered by others, they may not always remember his exact birthday and so on but believe my all my friends babies that were born sleeping are remembered and thought of 💕

Fly high Lucas much love to you and your mummy and daddy.

Thank you everyone 😘💙👼🏻

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Thinking of you op and sending love and thoughts. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through. Stay strong Xxx

Rip baby Lucas, sending much love to you op

What an amazing mummy you are, you have shown more strength and courage than I think I ever could. Lucas is lucky to have you as a mummy and all he ever knew was your love.

I’m sure Lucas is utterly gorgeous and I hope you managed to make the memories you wanted.

Sleep tight baby Lucas ❤️

I'm so sorry OP, but glad you're able to have these precious few days with him, sending you strength xx

Oh op, sending love and strength. I'm so happy that you've managed to spend precious time with your son taking in his little features and making memories.

Oh my ....I am totally amazed by your strength OP. Lucas can be proud to have such a strong and amazing mummy and you can be proud to have a gorgeous son.
Thank you for sharing your journey with us; much love to you all, and to the other posters who have experienced similar losses.
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I'm so sorry for your loss OP. Congratulations on the birth of your son. Becoming a parent is incredible and I'm glad you have managed to experience it but I'm so sorry it's enriched with pain which is far too soon.

Your Lucas will always be with you. ❤️

Your post was beautiful, it made me cry. You sound incredible