Hand hold. No heartbeat 38+5 being induced currently.

[MisssC3025]

Hi all..

Just need some people to talk to. My baby was diagnosed with a lethal condition at 20wks. We decided to carry to term knowing that he may pass away in utero... which has been the case for us.. we found out yesterday after experiencing no movement 😭😔 (38wks +5)

Came into hosp this morn to start induction process. Have had two lots of misoprostol. Cervix examination at 4pm suggested that my cervix is still posterior.

After first tablet was inserted at 12pm I started getting bad cramps like period pain. Since getting my second they're much stronger. My back is achey!! Have so far just had paracetamol.

It's an ongoing dull painful ache and my tummy tightens every now and then. This is my first pregnancy so no idea how contractions should feel!

Any advice support would be grateful. Obviously if things progress I may not be able to message but at the moment I'd really like some people to talk to.

Anyone with similar experiences 💙💙

Much love and strength to you, you brave strong mummy 💙

Thinking of you and your little boy tonight.

Handhold 💐 Virtual hugs xx

I hope your delivery is quick and as painless as possible. Your baby boy has never known anything but comfort and love. He has listened to the love in your voice when you talk about him, he has heard your private conversations with him and he has been so comfortable inside you hugging his mummy, safe and warm. You gave him everything he needed and I truly believe one day you will be together again in spirit, your forever baby and your little angel. You are an incredibly strong lady please take comfort that your little boy never knew pain he only knew you and what an amazing mother you are. I bet he's beautiful. Take all the pictures and videos, hand prints and foot prints and some hair if he has some.
I hope you have the best support around you and know that we are all holding your hand. Sleep tight little one until you see your mummy again.

Sorry to hear you are being put through this :'( i am sending a good thoughts and well wishes x

Sending you big hugs

So sorry, OP. I hope the delivery goes as easily and painlessly as possible.

I'm so sorry.
Your son is incredibly lucky to have you as his mother, bringing him into this world.
Sending much love to you tonight.

I’m so sorry 💐sending you love and strength 💐

So sorry thinking of you and your baby x

Stay strong, sending you and your angel big hugs x

Oh my darling girl, I can't begin to imagine how you must be feeling. Your immense bravery and complete selfless permeates through your words. I will be thinking of you and your family. I hope you get to spend all the time you need with your gorgeous son to make the most special memories.
Sending love and strength 💙

So sorry and you are incredibly brave. Your baby is lucky to have you as mum.

I'm so very sorry, my Mam lost a baby before me in similar circumstances. Be strong, hold him tight and take care of yourself xx

So so sorry OP, you sound so brave. Just know your beautiful baby never felt cold, never felt sadness and never knew anything of the warmth and comfort of you taking care of him. Lots and lots of love to you

Sorry you are going through this. Thinking of you all x

I am so sorry OP. Heartbreaking for you. I hope for strength for you during this time. I hope that you can relish the moments you get with him and hold them in your heart forever. I hope for support for you as you are grieving afterwards. I hope for light for you on the other side of this difficult journey.

I am so sorry. Heartbreaking. You sound so amazing and I'm wishing you all the strength in the world to get through this and treasure the time you have with your baby.

I’m so sorry you and your family are going through this ❤️
Nothing to add just positive thoughts and love. Take the advice of the more learned posters.
Offering you strength for now, a warm hug for later and peace, understanding and light for the months ahead 🙏❤️

Sending you so much love

I am so so sorry. This is a woman's worst nightmare.
How incredibly brave of you to give your son a chance. That is such a lovely thing to do and speaks volumes about you.
When you're ready, I'd love to hear about your gorgeous little boy. 💙
Thinking of you

Sending you all the love in the world

I'm so sorry, I can't begin to imagine what your going through but I'm Sending all my love OP. You are amazing ❤️ everyone's words have honestly made me cry, what beautiful people you are. I hope your as comfortable as you can be. Your son is a lucky little boy to have a mummy like you, truly. I am thinking about you 💙

You are braver than you believe,
Stronger than you seem,
Smarter than you think
And loved more than you'll ever know 💙

I'm so so sorry. Sending much love