Well I have just broken down on the midwife and feel like a right loon! I am so so tired I don't even know how I am functioning and also have felt sick since 2am this morning. Asked desperately for her to give me something to help me sleep or help the nausea but she said there was nothing she could give me and I need to try and destress and catch every minute I can for a nap , perhaps in my dinner hour, I think she mustn't have heard when I said I was a childminder!
Don't see her again for another 16wks and need to book 12wk dating scan at hospital.
She didn't even take my blood pressure which I thought she might.
I know I need to destress but have so much going on in my head. It doesn't help I am meant to be going away with a mate this weekend and try to cancel on her this morning but we will still have to pay so suggested I go anyway and we will have a 'quiet' one. I have reluctantly agreed even though I know I should use the fact that mum is babysitting all weekend to rest at home, on my own.
Didn't take dh with me to this appt and to be honest he is pissing me off at the moment. He is just being so insensitive about how I am feeling as he can throw up on command but I have a phobia about being sick and keep trying to keep it at bay which is frustrating him.
He was also getting stressed with me last night for not sleeping telling me I needed to at least try Like I actually want to be wide awake in the middle of the night He is sodding off on a stag do now til Monday and I just wanted a break tonight from the bedtime routine with ds, I haven't got it in me
Sorry, rant over.