Oh gizmo it's just been one thing after another after another for over a year now. Dh's job going tits up, suddenly finding there was not having enough money to cover our bills, so we had to go to the CAB to sort out our debts, me being pregnant when we're in the middle of a financial crisis, hyperemesis, SPD, DH's breakdown, kids playing up, school continually asking for money we can ill afford, DH will probably need an operation on his knee and I worry about how we will survive when he isn't working as he is self employed, cancelled appointments, horrid MW, no social life, friends have all but disappeared, boss hasn't made life easy, IL's and DH's GP's making our lives a misery and now want to get in contact because of baby, worry about C-section, feeling guilty when I eat something naughty because of what MW said about my weight, feel guilty just contemplating having a bath or a shower knowing we'll be using electricity that we can't afford, my mother going on at me all the time, the cat driving us all to distraction now DH wants to get rid of it and I feel guilty/sad for DC's, our neighbour taking the p*ss, having to mother DH all the time................the list just goes on and on.
Selfishly I keep thinking to myself, "why me?". All this crap doesn't seem to happen to other people. I don't believe in God but I keep thinking that if there is a God then he must be dumping it all on me because I'm a coper.
I was depressed in my last pregnancy and had PND (in the form of anxiety and panic attacks) after but I don't think I'd feel down if all of this stuff just went away and it never seems to be one thing at once it's lots of things all at the same time.
Anyway DH has phoned about the electric so I'm off to work out how much we use each each month etc