Thanks for all your support, reading your messages makes me feel at least a bit normal - I'm not the only one loosing my mind then!
I e.mailed dp this morning to tell him that I love him and that I know i'm being crap, but I couldn't bring myself to say sorry just yet. He sent a message back saying he loves me too and he seems to be talking to me now.
Went out to lunch with a colleague and managed to have a laugh over me dropping all the apples and then falling down an imaginary hole - yesterday I would have cried over it but had a good laugh and am feeling a bit better for it!!
Regarding clothes - I've never felt so ugly and never had such a big complex over my figure. Clothes are getting tight and I feel like a frump.