i really need to vent about the morning i'm having, i hope that's ok.
i'm 16 weeks today and my schedule of care says i'm meant to be having a community midwife appointment at some point during the next week.
i'm booked into UCH in central london, which is out of my GP surgery catchment area - the Whittington is the nearest hospital to me, but UCH has much better facilities & have had bad experiences at the Whittington so don't want to go back there unless i really have to.
at my booking in appointment, the UCH midwife told me that i would have to go to the community midwives at the Whittington for my community appointments. rang Whittington this morning and they said they don't see women booked into UCH, i have to go there for my community appointments. my GP surgery have no clue where i'm meant to be going, offered me a routine antenatal checkup there but there's no availability for 4 weeks. rang UCH again this morning, woman i spoke to at antenatal clinic didn't know either, said she was going to put me through to someone else and to press the option on the automated system to speak to a midwife, but there was no option available to speak to a midwife that was the final straw really, cue throwing phone on floor and having a good cry
i realise i probably should have got this sorted out sooner and not waited so long, rather than naively assuming that it would all work out, but aaaarrrgggghhhh
need to calm down before i attempt any more phone calls ...
another frustrating thing is that i'm meant to be getting specialist care from UCH cos of mental health issues. was assured at booking in appointment that someone would be in touch but i've heard nothing. part of me is pissed off because i know past issues make me quite susceptible to developing some form of perinatal mental health problem (i work for a women's mental health charity so am not lacking in knowledge/awareness in this area) so this input might be really helpful, but on the other hand my experience of mental health services has been so bad in the past - the promises of help and then being let down did more damage than if they'd left me alone to get on with it in the first place - that maybe i'm happy to fly under their radar. don't know really. just know i don't need this stress and being made to feel like i'm being passed from pillar to post.
sorry for the rant, feel a bit better now