Aha, I finally caught up! I was only letting myself read for a few minutes a day, and you ladies just kept talking and talking!
mummy2olivia congratulations! It must have been such a thrill to see that little heartbeat. And such a relief after all that stress. Make doubly sure that you take care of yourself and your bean from now on
rosmerta you've got me worried about taking ds to my scans now... oh well, if I pretend I didn't know he might not be allowed, what can they do?
cc21 thanks, you just gave me a crumpets craving. That's going to be healthy (...lathered in butter...)
Well, down here I've been studying and stressing and working and stressing and playing with ds and stressing. Sounds like fun, eh? No, I exaggerate. I've really just been stressing about uni (only six more weeks and then people will believe I'm qualified to do something!). Plus the normal motherguilt... just par for the course.
Although, yesterday I had some brown spotting, and today I've had a bit of bleeding as well. Mostly brown, but a little bit of red. It really shook me up. Just after I saw it, a close friend at work asked how my day was and I burst into tears. I've got it together now though, kind of. I went down to the medical centre and have an appointment for an ultrasound tomorrow. They also took blood and in a couple of days they'll take more and check my hcg levels.
I came back up to work and have pretty much just thrown myself into it, which means that now I'm sitting here with fifteen minutes left and nothing to do. Mumsnet is work though, right?
Anyway, I'm sure all is fine, but then every now and again I have a little panic attack that something is terribly wrong and that I haven't taken care of my bean well enough. See, what did I say about motherguilt?
Okay, well, some good news is that one of my ears has been blocked since Saturday, and the kind doctor cleared it for me today. I can hear again !!!
Also, I went and saw the Foo Fighters on the weekend which was one of the best concerts ever and I feel the need to brag.
Thanks for reading that very selfish post (if you got through it). I much appreciate that I have somewhere to type out these feelings.