hello all, i have been surfing the ttc threads for months and finally plucked up the courage to start ttc in november and got BFP 8 days ago...cannot believe it, but this is where the nightmare began!
i have since had two blood tests at EPU and a scan which has quashed fears of ectopic/miscarriage. having an awful time since first told that abdominal pains could be an ectopic by awfully crass GP. 1st time in my life that i have had unprotected sex, and i get all this. very lucky, i know, to even be given this chance, but now fear that this is too good to be true, and read so many bad experiences on MN that i am here now living each day worrying about when i am gonna see blood, get those MC cramps, when will the fairytale end. could i actually be one of the lucky ones and get to the post-natal thread complaining about bottle feeding...i wish.
just wanted to vent a little since i cannot even sit and watch television without wondering if i am about to MC. omigod am i going mad.
also feel like crap, told the pain was a UTI and put on antibiotics, the last day of course is today and still getting a few symptom . in addition i have what seems like sinusitus and on/off headaches, i have read that this could be due hormones???(i am never ill normally)
finally no other real symptom except slightly sore boobs and very occasional nausea.
my DH and i want this so badly we are trying not to get excited and its worse for my DH because he knows how i could worry myself into the worse situations and its only been 1 week and can't help thinking that i have somehow willed these bad experiences to happen to me. i wish i could be more positive about all this but i am soo scared.
anyway i just want to thank everyone for using MN and helping out so many people like me (who have taken months to join in), its amazing how many of you have been helping others out and not even known it.
(I am gonna rush off and check myself again, for this 20th time today...help)
good luck to you all.