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The rainbow cave - where we can remember our angels and pray for our rainbow.

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3littlebadgers · 20/01/2016 07:30

Hello ladies, the other thread was full, so welcome to the rainbow cave. A place where we can hide away together as we remember our beautiful angel babies, and pray for our tiny rainbows.

Introducing myself and my babies for anyone new,

Name: 3littlebadgers
Angel: DD2, Azra stillborn at 40+5 March 2015
Rainbow: badger boy currently 36+1
Other DCs: ds1, ds2, dd1

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zombiemeow · 23/01/2016 20:50

Kitty I had a lot of cramping all the way through with ds. Was terrifying but he's ok Smile

hopinghopefullyagain · 23/01/2016 22:14

It sounds like you have a couple of very possible plausible explanations so fingers crossed they are to blame. It's the not knowing that's the worst I think

haquoi123 · 24/01/2016 05:47

kitty I also had constant cramping with both of my pregnancies, as well as brown spotting at the time of each period (although it's only now I've worked that bit out!) Really good to hear there's been no more bleeding, sending you good vibes

KittyandTeal · 24/01/2016 07:54

Thanks all. Still lots of cramping but no more bleeding so just keeping hopeful fingers crossed.

hopinghopefullyagain · 24/01/2016 07:56

Fingers are hopefully crossed. Hope you are managing to stay sort of sane

KittyandTeal · 24/01/2016 08:20

I've got to that point of knowing there's nothing I can do about it. I know it sounds harsh but if somethin is going to go wrong I'd rather it happened now rather than later in the pregnancy. God that sounds awful.

haquoi123 · 24/01/2016 09:53

Not awful at all kitty, I've definitely felt that way myself

hopinghopefullyagain · 24/01/2016 12:02

It doesn’t sound awful at all, I'd agree. But hopefully it won't anyway

KittyandTeal · 24/01/2016 15:59

Thanks everyone. Still not more bleeding today. I'm cramps and have weird pressure but I think that's normal.

I'm finding it hard to differentiate and remember what is normal in pregnancy at this stage, it was only just over a year ago that I was last pregnant but I think I'm so untrusting of my body now that every little niggle is worrying me.

It's going to be a looooong 9 months!

How's everyone else doing? Any news from badgers yet?

FLAMBOLA · 24/01/2016 23:15

Baby Badger is here Smile

FLAMBOLA · 24/01/2016 23:17

Kitty - I had cramping all the way through my pregnancy, too.

hellsdells82 · 24/01/2016 23:33

Woohooo congratulations badger, lots of love and hugs coming your way all be it from a complete stranger
hope baby badger is doing well and you didnt get too many worries.
Lots of this Brew CakeFlowers
oohh im excited now... Grin

FLAMBOLA · 25/01/2016 01:20

I'm sure Badger will be along at some point to share her story after enjoying plenty of cuddles! And hells, I'm a stranger too and I cried! I'm so happy for her, she's so lovely.

hopinghopefullyagain · 25/01/2016 05:21

Brilliant I'm so so pleased. And breathe! Congratulations badger.

haquoi123 · 25/01/2016 05:49

baby badger, a heartfelt welcome from over here too (another compete stranger who almost burst into tears hearing this beautiful news). 3, congratulations, you deserve this so much. All the love StarFlowersWine

KittyandTeal · 25/01/2016 08:50

Massive congratulations badger, having a bit if a sniffle. Welcome to the world baby boy badger. This has really brightened my day 💜💐🍰

zombiemeow · 25/01/2016 11:14

Congratulations badger!!! GrinGrinThanksThanksThanks

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3littlebadgers · 25/01/2016 17:43

Hello everyone Smile thank you all for your well wishes you are all amazing and I couldn't have done the last nine months without your support, especially in those last few weeks Flowers.

My tiny baby badger boy was born yesterday at 10.48 am at 6lb 8oz after the longest few days of my life. The induction was a very slow and lengthy process and the constant early contractions were very much a reminder of the stop start labour I had with Azra and so had me quite panicky and teary many time. The midwives were all lovely though and went out of their way to support me. In the end it was the same midwife, who was with me the morning after Azra was born that got to deliver him, which somehow was extra special, we cried through the labour together and then cried at the birth for much happier reasons.

Badger boy is perfect. I worried so much about not being able to love him enough because he wasn't Azra but as soon as I held him that vanished. I knew he was the most perfect him and exactly who he was supposed to be. He being here doesn't stop the pain I have over my tiny angel girl. I miss her as much now as I always do, I wish so much she could be in the picture of us all too. But what his arrival has done is given us a lovely lovely reason to feel happy again, and that was missing since the day we lost our girl. In his own little way, he has made Azra even more precious to us because now there is joy too.

Kitty I hope you are well and that the cramping has stopped Flowers I'm sorry I have been away when you have been having your own struggles. I had bleeding early on too, it was officially too late for implant bleeding but that is what it was sort of out down to. They said because I had been pregnant so recently my uterus was likely to have more vascular tissue and therefore spotting of brown and pinkish blood was nothing to be alarmed at they gave me an early scan to help ease my mind.

Love to you all and such a big heartfelt thanks to you all. Even my most supportive of real life friends haven't meant more to me during this time. I am sending the biggest of hugs to all of you still growing your rainbows because it is the most frightening and stressful time and I so wish it wasn't. Flowers

The rainbow cave - where we can remember our angels and pray for our rainbow.
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zombiemeow · 25/01/2016 18:10

OMG badgers he's lovely SmileThanksCakeBrew

Your story brought a tear to my eye, how wonderful that you had the same midwife!

Hope you are recovering well.

KittyandTeal · 25/01/2016 18:32

Oh badgers he is a stunner, utterly beautiful, made me smile, laugh and cry in one go 😄

I'm so happy for you, you deserve it so much and how lovely that you had a MW who was with you with Azra too.

I have my booking appointment tmrw which in itself is freaking me out a bit. No more bleeding and just a bit of 'normal' cramping/stretching today. I held off from my run which is really frustrating but I would have kicked myself if I'd gone and had a bleed after.

haquoi123 · 25/01/2016 19:03

3,what a beautiful, beautiful little boy you have there and I'm so pleased you had such wonderful support, especially from the the midwife who was with you with Azra. I'm so so pleased and excited for you and love what you've said about him being a reason for joy and making Azra even more special. I'm truly over the moon for you Star

haquoi123 · 25/01/2016 19:04

kitty best of luck for tomorrow. It's all about what will make you feel better and what feels right. Really pleased to hear there's been no more bleeding

hopinghopefullyagain · 25/01/2016 20:38

Oh badgers he really is absolutely gorgeous! I'm so so pleased for you. I can only imagine that labour was tough but you made it! I really hope that the next few days bring the peace and joy that you deserve.
Good luck tomorrow Kitty, I hope that the midwife is understanding and makes it as easy as possible

zombiemeow · 25/01/2016 20:45

Good luck tomorrow kitty

KittyandTeal · 25/01/2016 20:48

Thanks. I'm expecting that between my mh history, dd1s delivery and dd2s history it's going to be a long one! I'm going to be asking for a sands sticker too.

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