Hi ladies.
I'm driving myself crazy. My symptoms have really tapered off over the past few days - the nausea is barely there, my boobs aren't as sore, my skin has cleared up and my food cravings/aversions have gone. I know it seems stupid to be upset that I don't feel sick but my fear is that my hormone levels are dropping because the embryo has stopped growing.
I've managed to persuade DH that I should book a private, early scan in a week or so. I haven't had any bleeding apart from that tiny bit of spotting a few days ago but if this is an MMC, I don't think I could stand waiting for the 12 week scan to find out.
I also got my booking appointment through for 18th May, when I'll be 10+5, which seems really late. I can't do that date anyway as we're on holiday 15th - 20th May. I phoned them up to re-arrange and also asked them about whether I need to see a consultant as I have epilepsy and I was told the woman I need to speak to about that doesn't work Fridays and I'll have to ring back on Monday! So that's not helping my stress levels. I'm going to wait until I speak to her on Monday before I book the private scan.
The thing is, I am a worrier. I just am. I'm always worrying about something - sometimes it turns out to be nothing, sometimes it turns out that my worries are justified. Right now I don't know if this is just me being anxious because that's my default setting or if there really is something wrong. I feel so helpless.
Sorry for the depressing post, I just needed to get this all out.