Charlee, it was Friday I was sure about the show, but I think I did loose a tiny bit of it on Wednesday which I actually put down to the erm... the result of 'activity' DH and I had gotten up to the night before but realise now it was probably the start of it, so here I am nearly a whole week after, I don't think it means anything is definitely going to happen! I can't move once the contraction gets going, if I am sat down it is 100 times worse than stood up, if I am stood up I kind of rock my hips from side to side and that helps a bit, but I have an awful feeling that my legs are going to give way, and if I am standing somewhere where there is nothing to hold on to, I do panic a bit!
The baby is still being very quiet, he did have a bit of shuffty about last night, for about half an hour, and then has gone quiet again, but he is still getting hiccups so I am sure he is OK, just running out of room, and probably just as shattered as I am.
My mind is in such a bloody state now, I know this sounds absolutely awful, and I don't even know how these thoughts are entering my head, but there is a tiny tiny tiny bit of me that is almost hoping that there is something mildly wrong, enough for them to induce me but not enough to put the baby in any danger! I know how bad that sounds, but I am just so desparate for some answers now, and I really don't know what I am going to do if she checks my wee and blood pressure and then just tells me they are BH and to get over it, but then I don't even know what she can do other than that, or if I would want her to do anything else!! LOL
DH isn't very pleased with me, he looked so relieved last night when the contractions started every 3-4 minutes, and I was finally coming round to the idea of going to the hospital, and then when they started easing off he looked really worried again, I think he is imagining alsorts and not being able to be here in the day is killing him.
I spoke to my sister yesterday afternoon, she did exactly what I said she would, completely flew off the handle and has already rang me 4 times since, she knows if anything happens I, or DH, would ring her, and I am ashamed to say that when I saw her name come up for the forth time I didn't answer I am only just about holding my own bloody worries and guilt and all of the rest of it together, with out having to hold hers as well!
LOL I have done it again, great big long post, I don't know how you all put up with me going on for so long, at least today I do have an excuse, I am shit scared of of sitting here with nothing else to do until I have to leave for the m/w!