Thanks everyone.
I took my Clear Blue Easy digital test on Sunday, it had no hesitation in presenting that PREGNANT result, in less than the 3 min the test states.
Other than sore breasts and no menstruation, I had no symptoms. Until I took the test. All of a sudden, I had to urinate every 5 min. I then started having severe headaches, pains in my left side, started experiencing swelling in my face/eyes, hypothermic body temps for 3 hours, and my vision became blurry and was going in and out. My heart was also racing. I couldn't take my BP, but I'm sure that was elevated. I would have chalked it up as nerves and normal symptoms except for the blurry vision and intensity of the headaches.
I made an appt with an OB, my BP was in the abnormally high range (My BP normally runs low 90/60 to 101/68). They took blood for HCG to establish a baseline, and said they thought my body may be preparing for a miscarriage (50% chance at 45). On Wed, all my symptoms had disappeared, as if I wasn't pregnant at. I then started cramping that night but no bleeding. More hypothermic temps, for about 2 hours. Had to go back yesterday for another HCG to see if numbers had doubled. Yet another shock, they doubled.
Today, I awoke with pain in my left side. Since I am so early, I know I could still miscarry, and I know they can't scan for extopic until 6 weeks.
My partner and I continue to discuss our options. He is worried about losing me during the pregnancy / birth, and the percentages stacked against us with regards to birth defects. We have already met with a geneticist and perinatal geneticist. We are absorbing the information. We have been told to wait until the 6 weeks for a vaginal ultrasound, unless I have abnormal symptoms.
We understand the tests available, (there are so many now) but struggle with the timelines, and having an option other than birth. And, the struggle of being too attached, and having to terminate. Writing this, I feel like I might be judged, but we fully understand how amazing this conception was, and we understand our risks. Continuing forward or terminating is such a hard decision because of this.
Okay - now in tears...
Again, thank you all for your comments.