I'm having a really tough time at the minute with work - teaching is so demanding on a 'normal' day but when you're going into an OFSTED year, your HT becomes a little obsessed and crazy and starts acting like Stalin telling us exactly what we can and can't do and rejecting all ideas that are not her own and then uping the workload. So the tears have fallen A LOT, the feeling of despair and uselessness have moved in and it got to the point where I wanted to end everything for a split moment - just walk away from my job, marriage, child, friends - everything. Thinking I am a total and utter failure for not being able to keep up with the workload. So today, i had a day of rest and it did me some good. Yes, I have numeracy, literacy, phonics, guided reading, big read, big write, topic and RE to plan for and 30x big writes to mark, 30 x literacy to mark, 30 x RE to mark and 31 x numeracy to mark but to hell with it. HT and Chair of governors were doing a walk through on Firday evening checking classrooms and displays. She wants our targets on the wall and in their books and we're only three weeks in. With 6 & 7 year olds, it takes time for them to settle and really get to know where their weaknesses are before launching targets on them.
On other news, i got my blood and scan results back and I have a 1 in 6,000 chance of a chromosome abnormality. I knew things were okay after 5 days and I heard nothing. Not as great as with DS three years ago (1 in 25,000) but I am guessing it's because I am older (35).